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who really wants to live forever??

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About Me

Myspace Codes wAdDuup.. the naMe's Josue.. mOst PeoPLe jusT caLL mE JOsH..mY stOry StarTs liKe thiS..borN september 21st 1986...Mexico City, Mexico after 13 hours of labor... after the only 9 months in my mothers life where she didnt feel for a single day the body pains of the terminal disease we know now is eatin her a day at a time.. she thinks that meant i was special.. when i was born i didnt cry.. they thought i was dead.. lol.... my grandpa who i never met said i was meant for big things like him, he came from nothing.. n fought for everything he got.. from a poor family in the hills of rural mexico ,he became one of the most famous architects in all mexico.. when i was growing up.. i developed insomnia.. from waking up every night hearing my mom crying from her pains late at night..the insomnia n the nights havent gone away.. i never did good in school.. but always loved to learn.. n the biggest dream ive ever had.. is to teach the world something one day..change the way people live their life n see things.. ive given up so many times in living.. just to be forced to keep on going in life time after time.. .. cause theres more important things than yourself... like those who depend on you.. when i was 9.. a crazy lady read my palm.. she said i was hypersensitive.. whatever the fuck that means.. im supposed to be some kind of light.. im supposed to see, hear, feel things most people dont.. some people say im fucking crazy.. that im nuts.. i think i just see life different.. we're all dead.. evryone whose fucking breathing.. the sooner we accept that..the sooner we learn to live life without fear... without hope.. without fear to be hurt or have your heart, dreams, hope broken... cause u have none.. the sooner u realize this second ur living could be the last.. for any moment.. once u see life n death as an everyday thing.. when u see those u love go.. or going.. when uve seen more deaths than births happen before ur eyes (try spending sleepless nights in the E.R.) the sooner u can enjoy the VEEEERY few nice things life has to offer without being scared to die..sometimes... friends, laughter, love...but careful... too much of the last is too dangerous... when its ur time to go.. its ur time.. and even you cant decide when its ur time to go taking it into ur own hands.. (trust.. i knoww..) but still... >>I WEAR MY SCARS WITH PRIDE<<... each one on my arms has a story.. has a name.. a face.. a moment.. a reason.. its the only thing that lets me know its all happened.. it wasnt just some bad nightmare.. i lived it.. and i made it through it.. and n am still alive till right now to tell about it... the craaaziest thing about me is my dreams.. i see shit in them.. i see people.. lol people ive never met..things i know are gonna happen.. things i know are going on.. even though i havent seen them yet.. i know.. they tell me im fuckin nuts... lol.. n the most important thing i have to teach... or talk about.. is.. fuck life.. get what you can n give nothing back to it... live fast... love slow... laugh loud n dont ever cry..nothing is worth it.. live like ull die tomorrow.. dream like ull live forever.. but remember some are dreams.. some are just fantasies.. n this is just life.. THE DAY I DIE.. LET THEM KNOW I DIED WHILE I FOUGHT IN A STRUGGLE..WRITE IT DOWN N REMEMBER.. I NEVER GAVE IN, THIS I SWEAR.. JUST REMEBER.. I NEVER SURRENDERED...<-IT'S ALWAYS THE PEOPLE WHO SEEM TO LOVE YOU THE MOST WHO HURT YOU THE MOST..."In life, there are going to be some things thats going to make it hard to smile. But whatever you do, through all the pain and the rain you got to keep your sense of humor, you go tto smile for me now. REMEMBER THAT." - tuPac sHAKUr-reporter: "Tupac, your life has been marred by considerable pain, do you think you'll ever get to the point where you can live a normal, happy life?"-Tupac: "No. But I, uh... I;m going for it. I'm Trying for it...And until then, I have to make the life that i do live as happy as I can and try to do the best with what I have. You know, live the best life I can live. Be as happy as I can be. Nothin' is perfect for anybody... I don't think."http://i43.photobucket.com/albums/e385/smiffy_3000/th _Comment2.jpg

My Interests

Being me, being REAL. FUCK EVERYTHYING ELSE.. i dont have time to waist.. REVOLUTION, LIBERTAD, FIGHTING THE STRUGGLE.. getting by.. one sunrise at a time.. one sunset at a time... Girls, drugs, art, rockin out..

I'd like to meet:

gOd... i gotta lotta questions n complaints for that nigga.. the devil... i been dancing with the motherfucker long nuff to get a live one on one... idk.. a few people.. famous sports stars n other famous people ill probably never meet... other than that.. whoevers a chill person, who doesnt judge other people by theyre appearance, or what they look like... just some REAL people.. n if theres time.. some hot girls with tattoos.. :)

Music:

hMMM.. LoTs of DiFfeREnt sHit.. i likE teChnO, Rap, HOuse, TraNce, RoCk, haPPy HarDcOre, aLot Of acoUstIc SHit.. SpeciaLLy gUitAr.. n Bass toO.. lIke boB MarLey.. JiMmy HeNdriX, SanTaNA.. In rAp n HiP HoP i ReALLy doNt lIke toDays sHIt... i thINks Its aLL fUkN gAy aND Trash fIR thE mOst pArt.. ExcEpt frOm a Few UndergRoUNds and on or too guYS HeRe n thEre.. i lIke the old skool, slick rick, run DMC, krs-1, big daddy kane, the beastie boys, and a few more.. NWA, dr. dre, snoop doggs old shit.. TUPAC, easy-e, ice cube (his old shit), nate dogg, GheTto BoYs, Bonne Thugs n HArmony, Notorious B.I.G., Cypress Hill, of todays kinda.. hmm Nas, Immortal Technique, LiviNg lEGeNds, Mos Def, Talib Kweli, The GAme (some of his shit, not all), LiL Rob, Mr. Shadow, Aespo Rock, ROK-1, and.. hmm maaaaybe 1 oe 2 i might have forgot... In rOck.. MaAaaan, i doNt kNow What What My Life WoUld Be wIthouT rOCK.. i like a bunch of shit.. lol all kinds.. from classic to alt. to oldies.. ROB ZOMBIE, ~AC-DC~, Metallica, ~LED ZEPPELIN~, sLIPKNOT, Aerosmith, ~BLACK SABBATH~, Ozzy Ousbourne, ~MUSE~, SmaShiNg puMpkIns, aVeNgEd sEvEnfOLd, Primus, Van Halen, DragOnforCE, Bon Jovi, The Doors, niRvaNA ~JIMMY HENDRIX~, ~GUNS N' ROSES~, U-2, My Chemical Romance, the cure, The Killers,The roLLinG StOnes, Greenday, Blink 182 (only a few of their songs), Jimmy eat world, Fallout Boy, gOo gOO dOoLLs, Gorillaz, Box Car Racer, and sooome Korn... iN My OPiniOn, iDk soMe GreAt sOngs ive lIsTEnEd to hAve chANGEd mylIfe.. i LoVe thE elEctriC gUiTar, im trIn to LEarn hOW to Play.. IDk.. i thiNk thE bEst mUsic.. is the oNe YoU fEel thAt u FeeL InsiDe You, NOt the oNe thAt Just soUNDs fuN to yoUr eArS.. that and Hmm OlDies OF coUrSe..! lol and well yeah now and then.. at a few parties ill listen or dance to whatevers playing...like hip hop and all.. aNd of coUrSe.. Pura pinche banda compas.. Hahaa rancheras, corridos, and some boleros here n there tOO...me pongo las pedas mas perronas listening to los tigres del norte, chente fernandez, banda recodo, valentin elizalde, pepe aguilar, jose feliciano, banda machos, patrulla 81, kapaz de la sierra, jose jose, el jotillo del juanga lol, among others im probably forgetting.. :P....!

Movies:

i like movies that make you think or teach u something.. movies that break away from the ordinary... that are different, i like movies that could scare me, hard lately.. aLSo wAr MovIeS.. Or wHEre sHit Gets blOWn uP.. im a Guy what cAn i sAy...? LIIIKE.. 300, Reservoir Dogs, GreAt exPEctatioNs, 1408, The 40 Year Old Virgin, CRASH, kill biLL 1, pulp PULP FICTION, the excorcist, BAnd of BrothErs, forrEst gumP, THe 40 yr. old virgin, apocalypse now, full metal jacket, dumb and dumber, paid In fULL, BraVEHEart, The LAst saMurai, MeNAce 2 SoCiEty, sAw, saving private ryan, cassualties, coLLaTEraL, BoYz n the HOOd, 187, black hawk down,Life iS BeautifuL, anchorman, old skool, write and unite, aMEriCan mE, super troopers, aaand... some other ones.. i probably cant think of right now.. HERE'SA SAMPLE OF SOME OF THE BEST SCENES IVE EVER SEEN..

Television:

TELEVISION IS FOR FOOLS! READ PEOPLE..! REAAAAAAD!!!

Books:

hmm some of the best ones ive read..? Great eXpectatioNs, The fog Of War, a TALE of 2 ciTies, Bless ME uLtiMA, Mi viDa lOCa, Les Miserables, Lord of the flies, bLAcK HAwk doWn, the count of montecristo, faLLen AnGeLs, "the babysitters club"..LmaoOo Jk Bout that oNe.. Hmm the da vinci code, ive read the coran, the bible, (im still not religious in any damn way lol), the nostradamus prophecies, the prince by machiavelli, The arT of War By sUn TZu, and a few others.. lol i read a lot.. im a nerd haha.. Jp..

Heroes:

John F. Kenndey (assasinated by the NWO), Vincent Van Gogh, My mother, my father, David Alfaro Siqueiros, Diego Rivera, Frida Kahlo, George Lopez, Tupac Shakur, Chava Reyes, Omar Bravo, Ramon Ramirez, and most important of all, my granfather, architect Ernesto Javier Aguilar, famous ass nigga in Mexico...here's some of the buildings he helped design... my favorite one...

My Blog

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