Lana

During a heated discussion someone once asked me if I even knew who I was. The question shook me to the core and after thinking about it way too much, this is what I came up with: I take too many pictures that I never develop. I love listening to good music and laughing until my face hurts. My nieces mean the world to me and amaze me more each day that I am with them. I believe that deep down most people are good hearted. I believe in apologizing when I'm wrong, keeping promises and baking cakes for my loved ones on their birthdays. Tulips are my favorite flower but daffodils are a close second. I hate anything that is grape flavored. I love the quote, "Eat, Drink and Be Merry" but I also know that anything in excess is bad for you. With that said I love to cook for people and watch them stuff themselves silly. I believe that men should open doors, kiss your forehead and let you fall asleep in the crook of their arm. I believe in love at first sight and that true love conquers all. I love the smell of clean laundry. I have an obscene amount of body washes, shampoos and conditioners on the windowsill in my shower. I love running alone with my dog. It clears my head and helps me feel grounded if only for an hour or so. I kill every plant I have ever tried to grow EXCEPT for the shamrock in my bedroom. I have no idea how it is still alive. I don't know what I want to do forever. The thought of one job for the rest of my life frightens me...what if I hate it? I still don't feel like a "grown up". I don't trust easily but I give everyone the benefit of the doubt. I believe in God most of the time but have seriously doubted His existance on more than one occasion. I believe in never going to bed angry and always saying "I love you" when you get off the phone...I only wish I knew how to do this when I'm pissed. I love sappy movies. I hold grudges. I wear my feelings on my sleeve and I laugh outloud at the cards in Hallmark. I procrastinate. I love the way snow and sand crunch under my feet. I love getting REAL mail from faraway friends. I give "it" my all...whatever "it" may be. I take bites out of all the chocolates in the box until I find my favorite. I love the smell of the hotdogs at the ballparks but I'm a sucker for the nachos. I have a terrible voice but I will be the first one to suggest going to a kareoke bar. I'm way too competitive. I love working on puzzles and reading good books. I'm almost completely deaf in my left ear and my feet are always cold. I like to discuss politics and religion over dinner. I'm loyal to the end and believe in happy endings. I like swanky bars where the drinks are way too expensive and the crowd is way too stuck up. I also like sharing a six pack on a tailgate on a country road once in awhile. I want someone to think that I am the best thing that ever happened to them and vice versa. I've kissed too many frogs to know that anything else is a waste of time. My nose is crooked and has been all my life. I love strong coffee in the morning. I'm afraid of getting shots. My Moms' homemade mashed potatoes are my favorite food in the entire world, hands down. I have trouble letting go but when I am done I am done. I rarely look back. I think sometimes a hug can say more than any words ever could and that when someone needs one you should squeeze them tight...let them be the first to let go.