5'3 Brown Eyed Mami
[x] Name:Evelyne[x]Acknowledge To: Eve or Tutu
[x]9ine-teen Years of Age
[x]Part: Vietnamese,Laotian & Chinese
[x]Status: My heart is mine & nobody elses.
[x]Eccentric. Skeptical. Analytical. Witty. Open-minded. Innovative. An Aries -are we connected?. Approchable. Impatient. Well-kept person. Can be very poignant, cruel & selfish on the darkside. Into the Old-Fashion kinda love & romance. Eloquent. DIGS: intellectual-heads w/ ambitions. Extremely Family Orientated. Diagnosed with Lupus. Has Morals & Values. Takes Pride in Oneself. Sour w/ a twist of Sweetness.
Im complicated in so many ways & I lack in so many layers. There are things about me that you wouldnt know, nor understand. Things about me that you would never expect me to come across. Im crazy in so many levels, ubsurb in some following cases & constantly ill within health wise. Im deep with feelings & feeble when intense emotions are involved. I tend to be quite under the term of inconsistency. I DIG "intellectual heads & may I conclude intellectual conversations". I have "mad respect" for activist, people who aren't afraid to step outta line for something they highly believe in, people who has a mind of their own & doesn't just flow with the crowd. (Basically borned leaders & not follow=ERS). I love art, musiq & poetry. I love the unity that bull dogs have. The loyalty & devotion that they have toward each-other is phenomenom. Like human beings, I want "my people" to be like bull dogs, I love the charisma that they have for eachother. I have the tendacy to want to change peoples lives for the better, its just apart of me that has this urge that makes me think I am capable of doing so. Even though I know that people are not capable of changing unless, they themselves want the change.
I think too much about things & have trouble letting go of the past. My mind wonders recklessly & when it does nobody knows it but me. I'd have to say that I am my worst enemy. People tend to take a look at me & have the tendancy to think that I live a normal life, a life of joy & etc... Dont get me wrong but I do love my life the way it is but things arent always easy when you are in my shoes. In some cases I have everything but the only thing Im lacking is "great health". Growing up I had mylife all planned out, what I was going to do after highschool and what I was going to be. Ive been through alot these past few years and experienced a lot of chaotic things in my lifetime that I would never wish on my worst enemy. The biggest was my diagnosed with Lupus & on top of that kidney failure. It's agonizing being dependent on medication just to keep you alive & going through so many chemo treatments. . I never thought I'd be the one living in this weakened body. Keeping my mentality strong was slowly breaking down, but I couldnt let it show. Changes took place so damn instantly. I look at other people & at times I wished I can live a normal life without having to take so many god damn pills and be able to participate in the everyday activities. When it hits you take the simplist thing for granted.
I have people telling me Im beautiful & gorgeous from left to right, but they dont exactly see through me that through this beauty lives so much pain underneath. Honestly, looks can be decieving if you dont take the time to get to know a person individually. Talk about beauty, hmmmmmmmmmm... this world is really blunt afterall. But being through all this, I realized a lot. It made me see things differently about people with needs & disability. It made me see and understand them through levels I never have before, to give back to the community, to help those who are going through tough times, to help the needy and not be greedy, to inspire those who are un-inspired and to look past peoples appearance and take them for who they truely. I thank those who has helped me overcame how I felt about living life & living on, you are truely an inspiration to me & you have no idea how much you've kept my spirit alive. God Bless You.
Im a gregarious type of person, but people always first-hand percieve me to be someone else. "Females tend to be the quickest to judge one another without reflecting on theirselves first and "yes" that includes me. I made numourous mistakes & bad decisions in my life that I wish I can take back, but dont we all? I guess I can just try my best to improve myself mentally rather than keep beating myself up for my past mistakes. I have done things for people whom has never done things for me. I've cared for those who has never cared for me, cried for those who has never cried for me, gave people what I never gave once in my life gave myself. I think back & realize you cant live life counting peoples payback dues to you. I've learn to give & yet hold back alot. Ive gain a lot yet loss a lot. I hurted so many people in my life & I admit that Ive done things Im not so proud of. But im going through changes and now learned that "while we are free to choose our actions, we arent free to choose the consequences of our actions." I've grown in many ways and i've matured from being immatured.
Dear Eve, This might sound kinda awkward but I been meaning to tell you that YOUR COMMENT BOX DONT WORK. (gyea i knoe lols)..............................