Layout made byI'm happy and content when I'm with my husband. He makes me feel like when we're together we have control over the whole world. I feel like I can do anything in the world when I am with him. Co-dependent? Consider this: In his presence I feel Grounded and Centered, close to the Earth, Wind, Water, Sky, Plants, Animals, etc. I am At One With The Universe.When I take him for granted and go out on my own, I find I feel all alone, even when surrounded by people. I find both women and men attempting to distort the truth and manipulate me. Feels like a roller coaster ride in my worst nightmare.When I come home after one of those nights my husband puts his arms around me and holds me. He whispers "I LOVE YOU" and I feel totally safe and totally loved. Unconditionally.I know I have to fix me before I can help anyone else. I am working on it.Some people say I am co-depenent. Others say I'm the luckiest woman on the planet.All I know is I still have a need to go out - I still hate myself when I do go out - and I am still safe and loved when I return home.My husband says I shouldn't worry. I'll probably grow out of it around 30. God, I hope it is sooner than that!In the meantime, most of the time, I am happy and content.If this was more than you needed to know, then I invite you to un-read it.For those of you still reading this, on January 8, 2007, my husband, myself and a friend were shot in a hail of bullets. I was hit in the leg, my husband was hit multiple times (face, head, abdomen), our friend Rocky was hit multiple times. The story made the news around the world. My parents first learned of it when a friend of theirs in Japan called. He'd just seen the story on a Japanese news program.We were rushed to Desert Regional Hospital in Palm Springs. I was treated and released the same day.My husband was in surgery for almost 24 hours. He survived.Our friend Rocky died.Post traumatic stress? You bet! Nightmares? Positively! Manipulation by the establishment, relatives, etc. Absolutely!WATCH OUT WORLD, I'M GETTING BETTER EVERYDAY.
