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"broken place that I call my home"

"I know a voice like yours is not a weapon at all Even mine is not a chisel for a thickened skull"

"I'm burning bridges for the last time I'm breaking habits for the first time"

" every day of my life I can feel it getting harder to breathe"

"every minute ticking by I'm getting ready to leave"

"I reap what I have sown"

"my life has changed"

"I find myself in a daze As the sorrow grows"

"I lay alone wandering, wondering"

"I can't stand this bad feeling"

"I can't stand to fight"

"I want to hold you tight"

"I can't stand not to see you smile"

"One is too many, and a thousand is never enough"

"I can see myself Floating away from me"

"Any time you call, night or day, I'll be right there for you"

"Don't worry about a thing"

"all my life this music saved me"

"Don't need drugs to numb the pain"

-I have no stories to tell. . no morals. . nothing to share. Except for a snippet of information about myself.

I'm tired of doing nothing. . I'm finally going out there. . no longer wating.

I have changed. I did so about last summer. It's the best thing thats happened to me. I realized how stupid, and immature I really was. Now Im not saying I have fully matured, but honestly who ever really does?

I enjoy the simple moments in life the best out of anything else. I love small little trips to the mountains or the beach. I like being spontaneous and random. This summer. . .is hopefully going to be the best ever. All because I get to spend time with Erik ♥. I honestly can't wait. Sometimes when I think about him, my head just spins. Im so glad I have had him in my life as both my best friend & boyfriend, for pretty much 3 years. It's great! You know those movies where, a girl falls for a boy, and the first time they are actually together. . it's so awkward, but so amazing. Thats how it is when I am with Erik. I mean come on, our first kiss was in the drive-way of an old run-down motel. (lol) I know it seems weird, but there's a funny story behind it. And, The parts in the movies where the guy and girl walk to meet each other. . well when I first saw erik, it was as I was getting off the bus, he walked out the front door, met me in the middle of the drive-way (i have no clue what's up with us and drive-ways, but I love it) Our relationship is unique, and thats not a lie. I mean, sometimes we have our downs, but they never last more than an hour. & the only reason we have them is because of of the lack of seeing each other. But I wouldn't change a thing in our relationship. I love it. I love him, he is amazing. . I finally understand what a real love is.

Okay now that you know of the love in my life, My mother is the biggest part of my life. She is my hero. I think it's great that she's finally out on her own, without my father. She's doing things she's wanted to do. It's great to have a best friend who knows way more about you than anyone else.

So, I know my life hasn't been perfect. I haven't always made the greatest of choices. Although I hate to regret and put myself down for things I have done. I regret ever letting myself for in "love" with my ex (I was blind). I regret not speaking up when my parents fought and argued. (I just left the room). I regret caring about what others think (who gives a fuck if you like me or not). I regret not making more time for my friends (I just feel so alone and think they don't notice me). Why do I regret these things. . Well they are the biggest things that have affected my life. . sometimes I think without them my life would have been a little better (here in the beginning). But shit happens, it's always for a reason, I am finally understanding what it means. . . Even if what happens is as minor as you falling down one day. . it all has a purpose. Whether you or I know what that purpose is. . . It's still there for a reason.

Okay well if you are a bible thumping asshole. Then don't bother talking to me. I don't believe in "God". Im sorry but I just don't. Prayers to me are a Curse. I respect people for what they believe in, but if you don't respect me for my thoughts then. . .my respect for you is gone. My idea's on religion. It's a way for people to judge others quicker than normal. Im sure if your a really religious person and saw me out on the street one day walking past you, you'd think "She is the anti-christ", "She is in the darkness". Well you my friend are a hypocrite. Technically we are all in the "Darkness" Hello. We live on a world were wars are fought for no fucking reason. Want to know why. It's Drama!! Just like high school. Thats all wars are. People don't agree (usually over religion) So they decide to Take Them Out, so they don't poison others thoughts on God. I hate religions, but I'm not going to judge you for it, but, I will tell you exactly how I feel if you decide to judge me on my beliefs.

I love art, music, photography and writing. I am one of those people who can sit down and write an entire book on one subject as small as. . Why the sky is blue. I suck at drawing, but I never claimed to be a great artist. I love looking at others work. Some of my favorite artist are my friends(example: Jax, Zeh, Alex, Calvin, Brittany). I enjoy the natural photography, without photoshop. (although I use it on my own pictures). As for music. I love to sing, I suck, but I still love to do it. I can't play any instruments. I've tried. . but I think I suck. . so I don't bother to try. Some of my favorite musicians are once again my friends. . Erik, Sean, Alex, Jax, & Travis. FriendFriendFriendFriendFriendFriend

I am Head-Over Heels in Love, with the greatest Guy Ever.
The greatest thing, Is that he is My BestFriend, but My Hubby too.
He has helped me through the past three years, and to be straight honest. . without him. . my sanity level would have went from 78% to -100%. (chyea, he helped me stay sane for like a 82038045890458094385 times)
He is the only person in this world, who has shown me that. Love can exist no matter the distance, and he has proved to me that a relationship is so much more than the physical area of it. But that it is just like a friendship, built with more passion and with a stronger bond.
He's the only guy to actually listen to me with out thinking, "I bet she's easy" or something of that nature.
Shit, he treats me like a girl deserves to be treated.
Whenever I would talk to him, he wouldn't stare at my chest or anything like that, He looked me in the eyes and, it means so much to me that he can see past my looks and see who I truly am.
I Love You Baby!(forever & always)
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