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Phenobarbidoll

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About Me

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~Everybody is a book of blood. Wherever we are opened, we are red~ Clive Barker
Pure? What does it mean? The tongues of hell Are dull, dull as the tripleTongues of dull, fat Cerebus Who wheezes at the gate. Incapable Of licking cleanThe aguey tendon, the sin, the sin. The tinder cries. The indelible smellOf a snuffed candle! Love, love, the low smokes roll From me like Isadora's scarves, I'm in a frightOne scarf will catch and anchor in the wheel. Such yellow sullen smokes Make their own element. They will not rise,But trundle round the globe Choking the aged and the meek, The weakHothouse baby in its crib, The ghastly orchid Hanging its hanging garden in the air,Devilish leopard! Radiation turned it white And killed it in an hour.Greasing the bodies of adulterers Like Hiroshima ash and eating in. The sin. The sin.Darling, all night I have been flickering, off, on, off, on. The sheets grow heavy as a lecher's kiss.Three days. Three nights. Lemon water, chicken Water, water make me retch.I am too pure for you or anyone. Your body Hurts me as the world hurts God. I am a lantern ----My head a moon Of Japanese paper, my gold beaten skin Infinitely delicate and infinitely expensive.Does not my heat astound you. And my light. All by myself I am a huge camellia Glowing and coming and going, flush on flush.I think I am going up, I think I may rise ---- The beads of hot metal fly, and I, love, IAm a pure acetylene Virgin Attended by roses,By kisses, by cherubim, By whatever these pink things mean. Not you, nor him.Not him, nor him (My selves dissolving, old whore petticoats) ---- To Paradise. -Plath

My Interests

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“Beyond a critical point within a finite space, freedom diminishes as numbers increase. . . . the human question is not how many can possibly survive within the system, but what kind of existence is possible for those who do survive.” - Frank Herbert
The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.-Friedrich Nietzsche

My Blog

And this is why I cannot stand 99% percent of the human race

A little over a month ago I went on etsy.com and put up a listing for a necklace I wanted made for me. See, I had seen this picture of the necklace online somewhere, and I really liked it. Now, the or...
Posted by on Wed, 13 May 2009 15:11:00 GMT

Halloween

~A few months ago I dreamed up this idea that I would be Dark Lily from Ridley Scott's film Legend. I found a costumiere that had a resume of movie costume replicas and ended up comissioning this dres...
Posted by on Tue, 04 Nov 2008 19:50:00 GMT

Get Some!

Why do people feel the need to constantly express how amazingly fantastic they are through updates, mood changes, and blogs? If everything is so mindblowingly awesome, then why not get lost in the aw...
Posted by on Thu, 09 Oct 2008 21:50:00 GMT

I need a mouthful of zanaxxxxxxx

and some classy pink, bubbly champagne to wash it down with. oh how i love to foam at the mouth with the xanax bubblies I had an appointment at 2:30pm, and so I left fourty minutes early to go t...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Sep 2008 00:23:00 GMT

Emperor we come for you!

 Well, initially I had written a blog entitled "Kyle Mclachlan you shall not elude me a second time" or something to that effect when I made the error of hitting the back tab before pos...
Posted by on Tue, 09 Sep 2008 01:24:00 GMT

Toga Birthday Party at Clive Barkers House

I think that may have been the craziest sentence I have written. It was definitely the craziest birthday party I have been to, and I mean that as a compliment. I don't really care for celebr...
Posted by on Mon, 25 Aug 2008 16:04:00 GMT

Fuckery

I love when people "express" themselves via their myspace layouts, especially through their list of favorites. I especially enjoy when you are dropped only to be trumped by the new bbfs. I mean, it do...
Posted by on Tue, 19 Aug 2008 17:43:00 GMT

subterrane

Its always spectacular when people drop their friends the second they become infatuated with someone. Of course it is expected that anyone would be caught up in the relationship and in turn be less av...
Posted by on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 11:59:00 GMT

Fuck me Friday

It is, it is. So, i'm driving down Western on the left lane when BAM it feels like i fell into a black hole. I can't drive out of it yet as far as I know I'm not in anything, but my engine is going cr...
Posted by on Fri, 25 Jul 2008 13:52:00 GMT

copper vs seamonkeys

Cramps. Cramps. And more cramps. Pop some motrin. Still more cramps. And why you ask? Because somebody went to the gyno yesterday for a relatively new nonhormonal contraceptive called an IUD. This is ...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Jun 2008 10:54:00 GMT