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About Me

I take things WAY to seriously. I read into things too much. Im not at all good at taking compliments. I care too much about what people think about me.Im terrified of being less than perfect.I hate dissapointing people.Im very hard to deal with and I know this.I have a very kind heart even though if may not seem like it soemtimes.Im not a very patient person.When people critique me, I take it to heart.Im not a very positive person when it comes to my own life. Im a good listener. I cry a lot. My feelings are hurt easily. Im quirky. Im impulsive and very indecisive. I tend to make bad choices about small things. I pretend to be happy when Im crying inside. I love to laugh and most anything can make me. Pictures are very dear to me because you can never relive those moments. I love deep and laugh loud. My biggest fear is being alone. I tend to be serious at times just because Im critical of myself. Im a dreamer. I hate when people dont like me and wont tell me why. I seek others approval. I blame a lot of my problems on irrelevant events of the past. I hold grudges. I never forget when Im hurt. Im a little bit superstitious. I dont like sleeping alone. I dwell on the past. I do too much for people who would not return the favor. I try hard...sometimes too hard. Im too trusting but at times not trusting at all. I try and see the best in people.I do like attention..but not as much as everyone thinks...for the most part I would like to just be unnoticed. I daze off into space when Im upset or trying not to cry about somthing. Music reflects my mood, and I often use it to protray the mood Im in. Somethings in life arent fair adn I have a hard time accepting them..but then I relize that Im over reacting about soemthing that I can never change. I just want to be held. I love that more than anything in the world. I tend to get depressed easily. I have a complex about my weight so that is one subject that should not be disguissed. I hate when people judge me on the misconceptions of other people. When I am treated nicely I am nice back. I just wnat to be loved and I know its sappy and cliche but isnt that all anyone wants is to be loved and happy? Well I guess that is it..

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Someone unrealistic

Music:

Incubus Metallica Slayer Lamb Of God Atreyu Mega Death Unearth Oasis The Beatles The Rolling Stones Stone Sour Hinder A Perfect Circle ACDC AFI Air Supply Anna Nalik Arctic Monkeys Avenge Sevenfold Bile Billy Idol Blessed Union of Souls Blink 182 Bon Jovi Boys 2 Men Brad Paisley Breaking Benjamin Brian Adams Buck Cherry Buddy Hollie Celine Dion Cheryl Crow Chris Brown Christina Aguleria Coheeo and Cambria Cold Cold Play Corey Hart Counting Crows Daft Punk Depeche Mode Dido Dillange Escape Plan Eminem Evanescence Evans Blue Finch Finger Eleven Flyleaf Fuel Garth Brooks Gary Allen George Straight Gin Blossoms Gretchin Wilson Gorillaz Hawthorn Heights Hinder Hot Hot Heat I20 Incubus James Blunt James Taylor Janis Joplin Jay-z Jet JO-JO Jordan Knight Josh Gracin Justin Timberlake Kelly Clarkson Kenny Chesney Kid Rock Kill Hannah Killswitch Engage Lenny Cravitz Lifehouse Little Big Town

Movies:

Accepted Taladega Nights X Men 1-3 Final Destination 1-3 JackAss Nightmare Before Chirstmas American History X, SLC Punk, Butterfly Effect, Rose Red, Mulan, My Girl, The Craft, Practical Magic, Texas Chainsaw Massacar, A Beautiful Mind, Vanilla Sky, Romy and Michelle's Higschool Reunion, Now and then, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Spun, Full Metal Jacket, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Steel Magnolias, Resident Evil, Anything With Marilyn Monroe, The Professional, Mulin Rouge, Fight Club, Chicago, American Sweethearts, Maricle, House on Haunted Hill, Frighteners, Badd-er Santa, American Wedding, EuroTrip, The Haunting, Top Gun, Pulp Fiction, Kindergarden Cop, Mists of Avalon, Little Nicky, Big Daddy, Mr Deeds, Billy Madison, Happy Gilmore, Wedding Singer, Water Boy, The Crow, Headless Horseman, Big Fish, Ice Castles, Old School, Night at the Roxberry, Loser , Never Been Kissed, Home Fries, She's All That, Oceans 11, Hook, Midsummers Night Dream, Welcome to the Dollhouse, Ghost, Girl Interrupted, (More to come)

Television:

CSI,Law and Order,UFC, Forensic Files, NYPD Blue,Sex in the City, Comedy Central, Will and Grace, Lifetime Movies, Comedy Central, Family Guy, Simpsons,Girls Next Door, Degrassi, Futurama, Scrubs, Nip/Tuck, Aquateen Hungar Force, Real Sex, Porn is fun to watch..lol, I guess anything that seems interesting at the time!

My Blog

NEW

Life's QuestionsWho Are Ya?What do most people call you?:missy or melissa What does your family call you?:lissa or lissa anne Your significant other? Pookie? Shnookums?:i dont have a s.o How long have...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 08:11:00 PST

Do this please.....

1. Who are you? 2. Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. How have I affected you? 5. What do you think of me? 6. What's the fondest memory you have of me? 7. How long do you think we will be...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 08:20:00 PST

The end of Heartache?!

. Everything seems like it is falling apart.I cant seem to hold friends for more than a month...and looking back it seems liek it has always been that way.....and I seem to creep out teh guy...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 09:38:00 PST

Symptoms of depression

You feel miserable and sad. You feel exhausted a lot of the time with no energy . You feel as if even the smallest tasks are sometimes impossible. You seldom enjoy the things that you used to enjo...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Mon, 23 Oct 2006 10:25:00 PST

I just want to go back to where things are simple

There are so many more pics...I miss this! ...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 01:27:00 PST

Dreams

Sometimes I want to just fly to the moon....forget the entire flight...fall off the side of a contraption....warn everyone of their impeeding death...drink and chew gum...play in a band...(do the guit...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Fri, 20 Oct 2006 10:49:00 PST

Too much for just livejournal

There has been alot going on lately. The other night I was driving home from Emily's and I saw the strangest thing. There in the middle of the road was a blind man (he has those stevie wonder glasses ...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 10:19:00 PST

Im just a girl!

Im not gonna lie....My heart kinda hurts right now. I did the stupidest thing a girl could do.....remember. Made me relize that I screw up everything good in my life. When am I gonna learn? Im so ...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 10:49:00 PST

So...Yeah

I wish that there was someone that I coudl talk to that could read my mind and understand all the "everything" Im going through. Yestrday I had a "my life sucks"day. I realized how much it all bl...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Sat, 19 Aug 2006 09:03:00 PST

For god's sake

Where is your heart? Cause I dont really feel you. Where is your heart? What I really want is to believe you. Is it so hard,to give me what I need? I want your heart to bleed Thats all Im asking for. ...
Posted by Dirty Little Secret on Wed, 09 Aug 2006 07:42:00 PST