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fermion

Its in the grey, seeking the red in every way, hiding from its dying, lying and denying.

About Me

..I like to be alone when I gaze, let the vision of the heavens hold my soul, hope to hope that someone, or something is looking back at me, hoping for the same thing. Full focus on my gaze, my body drowning in the depths of the earths shadows, I begin to see from another perspective. Feeling our movement through this seemingly calm and empty space, I watch in patterns of waves, in a bit of a 'daze', as far becomes near, and near becomes far, the true scale of the universe revealing itself to me. Streeks of light splatter my view like moths on a windshield, reflecting moon lit light on this most rare of summer nights. And then it happens, something changes, a mood switches, and I realize not only am I choking from the shadows and the dewwy textured air stimulating a now subliminal sense of feeling, but I am drowning in my own sole perspective. You see, between the lights and throughout, is chaos. At the very tip of reality lies the quantum jittering, tearing, ripping, and healing(via 'super'-strings) of the FABRIC of space-time ITSELF, of reality itself. We are witnessing so much more than we are seeing. Now closing my eyes, ignoring the light and its opposing siblings, sounds emerge like the first drops of rain on a lucidly calm pond, reviving its corruption of the surface. These dissonant vibrations interpreted to harmony by the ears of only a select few, are so rare and so precious. To be one of the few to hear and hold its pulsing soul, the soul of our existence, to become an evolving harmony and not just a single note, can even still, leave one in question. But IT IS THAT, ITSELF, the question that drives us to evolve. Evovle to hear, to see, to feel, and to become these patterns of vibration that unlock a singularity that has been longing to be renewed...inside each and every blink of chaos that manifests itself in the shape of a human soul. A F E R M I O N V I B R A T I O N.

My Interests

General Interests include but are not limited to; Micro-managing, having conversations about machines, conversations about all things shiny and/or things involved in making things shiny(windex, for example, is a topic that can be talked about for hours...you've been forewarned.) Being creatively expansive with any and all of my facades, pretending to be something I'm not pretending to be, memorizing the entire dialogue to V for Vendetta, smelling people, cause you can tell a lot about a person by their SMELL, as Agent Smith so delicately put, "Its the smell..."(inspired by Laura who will never read this, and of course thats because she smells funny)...hmm what else, oh yea, ExploRing thE bounDaries of Reality, rEality is the bounDaRy, and thEre is no way of escaping it...its just it, reality. however, its infinite Depth, can be found in its observeRs dEfinition...the infinite combinations of vibrations that lead one to percieve, but more importantly, FEEL reality. The processes of capturing that perception and altering it to create a view just outside one's imagination, that only combinations of vibrations could describe...Playing and dreaming about Half-life and its counterparts....learning to sing, and singing, (I should say learning to breathe, and breathing. That might be slightly more accurate of a description...) and thats about it...you should move on to reading my blogs or about me section if you want to get to sleep anytime soon...

I'd like to meet:

the one I run away from...Why, do we why, do you why, do I why. ? . ? . ?

.:.fermions are products of themselves, much like words that are spoken, they are perceived revisions of the fermions before them, merely a product of their peers...a fermion vibrating a previous fermions agenda...so now what does that make you? what does that make me?.:.

Music:

To name a few, Tool, Dredg, Porcupine Tree, A Perfect Circle, Opeth, Pink Floyd, Mute Math, Imogen Heap, Andrea Bocceli, various composers like Cliff Martinez, Samuel Barber, John Debney, Don Davis, Hans Zimmer, Robert Fripp, HL1 and HL2/EP1 scores, Halo 2 and soon to be Halo 3!!! scores, Shades of classical mainly Adagio's and Moonlight sonata's(hehe), zones of ambience, i.e Lustmord, Asmorod, etc. the occasional trances, basically sounds and combinations of sounds that create environments, express things beyond words. Music, sound, is a language, and one I seem to understand more than just plain old language...it runs so much deeper...

Movies:

V f(0)r Vende1ta!! Matrix trilogy as well as The Animatrix, 300, United 93, Event Horizon, K-Pax, Stay, Waking Life, Jack Ryan films, The Ring(1 only), Lord of the Rings, Hannibal Lector films, Airplane, Spaceballs, Monte Pythons, Snakes On A Plane, Beerfest, Mr. Bean(and all Rowan Atkinson stuff), Rat Race, Leslie Nielson movies, all of them, funniest movies ever made. War movies...blah blah blah, good movies, I like good movies.

Television:

Seinfeld, Lost(nothing short of genious), 24's got me hooked, Conan O'Brien, BOSTON LEGAL!!! Simpsons, oh and fuck Family Guy, 3rd Rock From The Sun, Malcom in the Middle!!, Married with Children, The Daily Show, Frontline, Nova, etc, etc,.....

Books:

The Psychology of Music, The Elegant Universe, Ender's Game, The Giver, Turn Right at Orion, Just Six Numbers, The Da Vinci code, Unlocking the Secrets of The Solomon Key(great all-encompassing source on all things stirred up by The Da Vinci Code,) and, well, many more to come I'm sure...

My Blog

11 in so1itude

A note whispers in its so1itude..."this vibration soothed once, deep within a core, when those 1ost transients were one with a note, I was more than just one in a mode...and yet, even still, soak...
Posted by fermion on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 01:22:00 PST

reViVing the ViVid

This indesinent pain, has caused tears in the deluging rain.  As he watches, always watching, he weeps, always weeping.  Day in and day out for every day in pain you endure out, his tea...
Posted by fermion on Tue, 20 Feb 2007 12:01:00 PST

Magnetic Phenomenon

TheTheremisaagglow,noreeventmoreiso,capflow...invisibleotolt heaeye, rit controlsithattwhichykeepsiussalive.abItothreatensutotflip,ta ndoleavec vulnerablehthatawhichnalsogflowseandiglows,tpolaritiesshar.. .
Posted by fermion on Wed, 25 Oct 2006 01:27:00 PST

..'night life'..

... And so your eyes glisten in thought, twinkling with brilliance at the reflections of light descending from the moon abroad.  Color does seem to avoid your s...
Posted by fermion on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 03:05:00 PST

.:Always more rendered perspectives to Pursue:.

...Art is a gift that allows its observer/listener the chance to play god, the chance to create and observe first hand the morphing of a preconceived creation from its first impression to its lasting ...
Posted by fermion on Mon, 03 Apr 2006 02:22:00 PST

i t s e l f

A dense accruing liquid is flowing, consuming, becoming, reflecting, all that I am, and all that I see.  All that you see, and all that you are, which IS all that I am, don't you see?  You f...
Posted by fermion on Wed, 01 Feb 2006 01:51:00 PST

conveying...

§What you wish to know, you may wish you didn't know, but not unTIL you know will you wish such a wish.  That these secrets were kept to hide a sole truth about ones existence, ones purpose or la...
Posted by fermion on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

5.1

Visions are setting, motions are churning, the sonic escape is no longer a metaphor of circular illusion, but a sphere of endless possibilities...set the visions clearly in sphere, and the time will r...
Posted by fermion on Mon, 19 Sep 2005 07:41:00 PST

who am I?

I am who I am not. I reflect what I observe, therefore I am what I reflect, but what I reflect for you is what you and you alone can observe, therefore I am who I am not. I am a multitude of facades, ...
Posted by fermion on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

a stone in a series to be stepped

  a tear unfolds, rolls, and then folds  dissolving a fading pale, beneath a graying violet vail,  a series of final breaths,   unleashes an old whisper to those of ether,&nbs...
Posted by fermion on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST