Hades City

What becomes of a soul that no longer desires life? When you're overwhelmed with pain and strife Should I pick up the knife and slice It's all a gamble like a roll of the dice Then if I die can I live twice? Or do I just cash out and pay the price? So many questions, so little answers All I see is the walking dead, soldiers with cancer Is there a way to change the past cause that's what shapes tomorrow? Is there a way to change today cause all it is is sorrow? How do you feel when you've never felt at all? Trying to brace yourself when there's no one there to help the fall Where does this road lead, this mixture of pleasure and pain Where ever it goes it's driving me forever insane Talking to this wall again in the same foreboding hall again Lost when it all began Visions of how it all should end Pretend to love pretend to live I care not for these Devoid of light so my heart ought to freeze A barren tundra uninhabitable All you hear is "FUCK YOU" all done in capitals a maddening spiral that never will cease never peace just the mark of the beast they feast upon the good in me unleashed, what did you put in me? future uncertain, hurtin, but I'm used to it the whole world is bullshit but I put the truth to it written by a hand that has touched the dead hands over bleeding wounds, clutched the red said fuck it all, puffed instead it's real I don't fuck around like I'm stuffed in bed devils wanna see me cuffed and lead to damnation so I say to you fuck ya damn nation I wanna see the world burn watch you roast as the world turns I'm so sick I hurl germs so kinky I curl perms learned to live with disconcern this in turn helped me earn my madness my life my story I won't follow the old adage I make new roads embed new codes you just blindly follow what you told this world is too cold sometimes I feel it's in neutral locked in a damned hover cause we can't stand others band of brothers? they banned the brothers the timid ran for cover the fed up fought back I lived it I wasn't taught that pain is reality everyday I'm bought back I am the illness, you caught that? everything they told you not fact probably fiction, contradiction you think you sick I'm perscription non-restriction through all dimenions with cruel intentions and spite I see through bullshit like sprite you could you might you would you like you don't want me to blow up like dynamite where I'm at, you can't climb the height It's so dark you can't find the night so don't look don't try to find the light such a misguided planet panic abounds nothing everywhere and it surrounds drowns out our future it's shaky grounds when it's time to be heard no one's making sounds no one to save us no savior to the rescue was never there don't ask why he left you who will you confess to? who will you profess to? who will protect you? guide and direct you? select you for a greater purpose other than fill the tomb that earth is the signs connect like words in cursive if death is the beginning what is birth then? if nothing changes why continue? seems like it's all a ploy with the hope of ending up in gods venue a blank infinity with no end I stand alone with no friend soul opened like a novel so you can grovel at it's magnificence I'm who I am can't play the role so I can't act different what's gone is the spirit it once cried in agony now I can't hear it I fear it no longer lives no longer gives me light I strongly feel I'm gonna kill so I may die toknight right or not the future just puts me in a tighter spot tighter knot do I wanna fight or not? weary as I grow teary as I go back into this calamity this ville is horror like amitty the voice of reason long drowned out I couldn't find hope just found doubt amongst broken dreams and promises futures turn to homages a funeral for a living soul dead inside outside getting old I hate this place with all I have I hate this place is all I have how do you escape? where do you go? with all this hate where do you grow?