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my name is holly. i'm 19 and engaged. i'm in love with the best guy i've ever known. i am entirely aloof to most things around me because i live in the future. i don't sleep at night; cleaning obsessively and playing bejeweled are better pastimes. i've struggled with anxiety my whole life, but i try to focus on not letting it get the best of me. i have a pretty cynical outlook and while i may seem like a real asshole at times, i really do care. i am one facade after another, carefully misplaced and entirely transparent. i'm coming to terms with the fact that i'm pretty much a geek; the one that watches science channel and nobody remembers from high school, but that's okay with me. i am quick to trust and admire, but i hold many grudges and forgiveness doesn't come easy. i'm pretty much the biggest contradiction there is, which is why i'm a gemini. yet, with each day that passes i'm learning to accept myself and others around me for what they are.
"my head is weak; my heart always speaks before i know what it will say."