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This is completely hypocritical and ironic. ------------------------------------------i have a tendency to disappear and re-appear, be the life or death of a party, pick you apart or pull you together, be your best friend or your worst enemy. I am not as well balanced as a lot of folks pretend to be, i fully accept my imbalance, it fits into the grand equation of life, i was never good at math. When i do something it's 100 percent or none at all, and these things come in waves. I am never going to be happy with myself, to be fully content is to be at a stand still, some people say it's self destructive but to be better don't you have to be worse first?