EXPRESSIONBONJOUR! J'mapelle Valerie Vedar. J'ai une belle fille appelle leilani c'est presque deux ans. J'aime de chansons de Shy'm. Elle est un chanteur francais tres doue. J'espere voyager en France un jour et vivre peut-etre la pendant un moment. Je suis une mere simple mais je l'aime. C'est definately un travail dur mais il est tout en valeur lui. Oui, je calme l'amour le pere de mon enfant mais je passe avec ma vie. C'est tout pour maintenant ! Dieu de salut benissent ! ! et au revoir!!!!!lol yes i had to use my french dictionary from time to time.... but hey... theres something hardly neone knew about me =)
I am not the only Valerie Vedar... cuz thats my cousins name too lol.. but i am the only one here in the U.S. I'm a priti chill person that loves to laugh and be stupid... A lot of people think bad of me... nd yes i know i have a bad rep with most people... but thats cuz those are the people that dont know me... Im not that easy girl everyone thinks i am... i dont drink i dont do drugs... i dont party hardy... I love the Lord and I can say I am a good mother. I love everyone i encounter... even those that hurt me. I forgive cuz the Lord forgives us all the time so we should forgive others as well. I'm on my way to having a bright future and can't wait till i meet the one im supposed to marry. I love to DANCE... even though for a while i stopped im tryna get bak into that... i'm the type of girl that gets jealous of priti girls... because im really insecure about my own looks ... even though i know that its not that important... but thats something i've been working on for a long time now...this is the first time since i wuz 12 that i've been single... I've been single b4 but im usually talking to sum1 while i am but this is the first real time im just focussing on me... nd i really like that feeling...cuz i've always pushed my feelings and wants aside for guys... nd i think after all i've been through i deserve this JUST me and leila thing... i love to talk as most of u know from my name VALVALMADALDAL... my life is a soap opera.... lots of girls say that... but mine is for real... not that lil drama here... or a lil ova there.... mine is FULL on HARD CORE "DAYS OF OUR LIVES" DRAMA SERIES.....its not that disney channel break up nd make up crap its more of ... a mean girls, prison break, persuit of happiness, click, wut lies beneath(lol the fcc girls know wut im talkin bout), pride and prejudice, legally blonde, and the O.C. mushed up together all into one... i guess thats y wen i hear other girls drama in my head i think "LAME" but in actuality its gud they havent experienced wut ive experienced... but at the same time thats y its hard for me to relate to people because im on a whole nother level then they are..... thats y me and my best friend AMIE get along so well.... cuz we both live lives no others around us can relate to cept us...thats all for nowwanna know more?? AIM me sn: valvalmadaldaltry to get to know me... theres lots to find out lol"God never gives you anything you can't handle...so just have faith and trust that your struggles are here to bring you to greater and bigger things in life"
-ms.valerievedar
my haunting :
lots of things still haunt me....
my room ( the place i waited and cried)
the memories carved into my mind
but most of all the dreams....
the dreams haunt me the most...
its as if every single emotion i've been able to push away has now been held down too long and are slowly but surely consuming me from the inside out...
what i used to look forward to...to escape my reality has now turned its back on me
for so long i couldnt understand y i only slept 4 hours a night... i couldnt understand though my body wuz exhausted my mind wouldnt let me rest....
but finally... wen i slept a full night... i realized y i dreaded to dream..
there i wuz ...begging ...crying... longing...
frustrated that though i wuz yelling the truth
the truth i was speaking would not be accepted
even though all that wuz a dream i knew the frustration was reality..
even though the truth is known it isn't accepted...
but is pushed aside and trampled on by logic that is simply illogical
but i know that all that haunts me will soon fade and the truth will be knowni love these guys even though i only got to spend 2 years of high school with them...
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