I'd like to meet:
I find myself changing everyday.
Evolving in order to be stronger. To be better. To not fail. To not allow myself to be consumed by emotions, or to drown in sorrow.
Sarina was the name of the "feisty red-headed pirate" character in whatever romance novel she was reading when she was pregnant with me.
Good way to name your kids, don't you think?
Even though I love people, I hate drama - so save it. You've gotta be quick. I talk fast and think even faster, so if you're trying to keep up with me - good luck. You're gonna need it.
"I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I've learned, the hard way
that some poems don't rhyme,
and some stories don't have a
clear beginning, middle, and end.
Life is about not knowing,
having to change,
taking the moment
and making the best of it,
without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious ambiguity."
Western Civilization
'But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
'Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: 'we're all mad here.
I'm mad. You're mad.'
'How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
'You must be,' said the Cat, 'or you wouldn't have come here.'
Reality
(as seen on)TV
Reality is...
...everything is temporary except motherhood. Money comes and goes. Jobs too, and the co-workers involved. Cars are temporary. Clothes are temporary. Most friends are temporary too. You outgrow them or take separate life paths or have different priorities. I was raised to believe, however, that relationships are only as temporary as we allow them to be. Relationships are fun, yeah, but they're alot of work. I'm talking about ALL relationships-friends and lovers both. In order to make a relationship work, we have to: 1. Make time to be with each other 2. Be patient with each others faults or annoying bullshit 3. Have the guts to communicate with brutal-yet gentle-honesty As if that wasn't enough, we have to do all those things without forgetting to respect one another, accept one another, and be kind to (or build up) one another. And please.....make sure to laugh together. Maybe it seems like alot to ask, but it all depends on how much you're willing (or able) to give. Think about your best friend...don't you do all these things without even thinking about it or realizing that you're doing it? When you have a good friend or a true love, it doesn't seem like an oppressive standard. Please understand, it's not always easy. Self-sacrifice is always uncomfortable, and sometimes it's downright hard or painful. But so is childbirth, and the outcomes of both are equally beautiful and worthwhile. However, love is alot like dancing, and it takes more than one person to give it life. Sometimes it doesn't matter how much you love someone or how hard you work to build a strong relationship that will last. If you and your partner aren't connected(emotionally) or (communicating)on the same beat, you just get frustrated and end up stepping on each other's feet. And it hurts. So then, you stop. You take a breath, refocus, and decide: Do I care about dancing with THIS person enough to put in some effort? To stay on the same beat? To stay connected? It's not always easy, but anyone who's ever had a great dance partner could tell you that it's worth it. And if it's not worth the effort...then it's not that important. And it will, eventually, be filed away in that "Temporary" folder with the rest of life's insignificants. It seems, like I mentioned, as though everything in life is temporary. Insignificant to my future. I hope not, though. Please God, let it be different this time.
Sarina's Jukebox