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About Me


What I Have Lived For
The Prologue to Bertrand Russell's Autobiography
Three passions, simple but overwhelmingly strong, have governed my life: the longing for love, the search for knowledge, and unbearable pity for the suffering of mankind. These passions, like great winds, have blown me hither and thither, in a wayward course, over a great ocean of anguish, reaching to the very verge of despair.
I have sought love, first, because it brings ecstasy - ecstasy so great that I would often have sacrificed all the rest of life for a few hours of this joy. I have sought it, next, because it relieves loneliness--that terrible loneliness in which one shivering consciousness looks over the rim of the world into the cold unfathomable lifeless abyss. I have sought it finally, because in the union of love I have seen, in a mystic miniature, the prefiguring vision of the heaven that saints and poets have imagined. This is what I sought, and though it might seem too good for human life, this is what--at last--I have found.
With equal passion I have sought knowledge. I have wished to understand the hearts of men. I have wished to know why the stars shine. And I have tried to apprehend the Pythagorean power by which number holds sway above the flux. A little of this, but not much, I have achieved.
Love and knowledge, so far as they were possible, led upward toward the heavens. But always pity brought me back to earth. Echoes of cries of pain reverberate in my heart. Children in famine, victims tortured by oppressors, helpless old people a burden to their sons, and the whole world of loneliness, poverty, and pain make a mockery of what human life should be. I long to alleviate this evil, but I cannot, and I too suffer.
This has been my life. I have found it worth living, and would gladly live it again if the chance were offered me.
We need another and a wiser and perhaps more mystical concept of animals.
Remote from universal nature and living by complicated artifice,
man and civilization surveys the creatures through the glass of his knowledge
and sees thereby a feather magnified and the whole image in distortion.
We patronized them for their incompleteness;
for their tragic fate of having taken form so far below ourselves.
The animals shall not be measured by man.
In a world more older and more complete than ours
they move finished and complete,
gifted with extensions of the senses we have lost or never obtained,
living by voices we shall never hear.
They are not bretheren.
They are not underlings.
They are other nations,
caught without selves in the net of life and time;
fellow prisoners of the splendor and travail with the Earth.
-Henry Beston, The Outermost House

My Interests

the jist:

BIKES!!!, bicycling, being anti-car, learning, philosophy, linguistics, friendliness, environmentalism, animal rights, veganism, social justice, human rights, activism, running, languages, cultures, birds, red wine, knowledge, taking walks, nature, astronomy, cosmology, prime numbers, planes, plants, nature, anthropology, building things, archeology, music, film, reading, creating, photography, running through forests, the lakefront, adventures, arguing about geeky things, cloudy days, rain, trees, sand, windy days, pineapple juice, cereal, conversation, phonology, experiments, travelling, helping people, karma, etc etc etc. a lot of things.

I'd like to meet:

Smart, respectful, kind humans.

"Man, if you can see the chest hairs at his neck, he must have it very thick. How sexy..." -Jackie the Liar ♥

"While I go to the bathroom, briefly explain the meaning of life" - Jackie

Music:

a lot.

Movies:

Twister, Day After Tomorrow, March of Penguins, The Dreamers, Lord of the Rings, Genesis, Waking Life, HAPPY FEER

The Corporation
..

Television:

Documentaries!!! and ... documentaries! Especially about the environment and odd/rare diseases.

Books:

Whatever I can get my grasping, dirty claws on.

Heroes:

Adam, my loving partner in crime, life and revolution.

and

Jackie because thanks to her wild and promiscuous lifestyle, I can live through her vicariously without the consequences. That's a true friend!

My Blog

existence

HST Deep Field. Lovely.
Posted by Desirée Ann on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 08:40:00 PST

Guest Speaker

Hola, mi llamo Russ. I am Desiree's friend. Quanto questa? I am God. Its like a rose. Yabby Flabby yabby. FLUP PING JANG. I have proven that I don't exist and that makes me smart. Haha, you al...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Mon, 08 May 2006 01:28:00 PST

A dream about physics and philosophy...

From my livejournal, November 12, 2005:I am in love with philosophy. I've never felt this way before about any field of academia, although physics has come close. I had a dream one of my professors of...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Fri, 14 Apr 2006 09:34:00 PST

I apologize this has become survey central.

That apology goes for me, more than anyone else, because I know only Jackie reads these. OK. [?] I have eaten more than 5 meals a day.[x] I have read a lot of books.[ ] I have been on some sort of var...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Sun, 02 Apr 2006 10:20:00 PST

sufjan stevens is dreamy

All I like doing as of late are surveys that ask the same questions. But sometimes I get creative with them and it's fun. However, that does not apply to the following survey. I'm kind of hungry.[[Sin...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Sat, 01 Apr 2006 09:42:00 PST

Studying at the U.N...

I got accepted into the program. I need money. I think the saddest part of this is that I can't take math this summer. Or finish my cultural diversity credits. But my peace studies certificate will be...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Wed, 22 Mar 2006 11:35:00 PST

RE: Don't add Desiree as a myspace friend.

Jackie is full of blasphemy and lies. But we all love her anyway. Anyway, I think I'm going to poor sugar and vodka into a glass and drink it while I post this picture... This is how Shannon and I do ...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Tue, 21 Mar 2006 03:25:00 PST

Bob Dylan and Bach: Missing!

I'm going through my second wave of adding my CDs to my iPod... and these ones are missing! :( Anyway, I started reading/taking notes on Hume today. I've also gone to the gym for the past three days. ...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Tue, 21 Mar 2006 06:35:00 PST

More nonsense. I have to cope with everyone being gone for spring break :(

First of all: Why must I have an academic/mental breakdown when I have no one to talk about it? Seriously, I'm really really hating this. OK. That's it. A survey, once more. How lame of me. I'm going ...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Sun, 19 Mar 2006 11:06:00 PST

I bet you've had enough of human sacrifice.

I'm bored. I apologize.1. What is your middle name?Dreblow. Ann is not my middle name. Seriously, do you think I'd be lame enough to use my middle name when signing my name and writing it on papers? A...
Posted by Desirée Ann on Sat, 18 Mar 2006 11:19:00 PST