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I fear neither death nor pain- instead a cage, to stay behind bars until use and old age except them

About Me

What is life?... A thousand roads, a thousand ways and why am I so afraid to move?...I crossed the line. I'm stepping out so come what may; I give it all cause I'm drawn to You.. As long as my heart is beating.. Where you lead me, I will follow; Where you lead me, I'll give my life away.------------------------------------------------------- ------------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------------------------ ----Sophia. Vulnerable. Strong. Fed up. Hungry. I'm scared of growing up, and I hate it when it seems that I learn too much for my own good. I dont understand alot, but I know that Love is real, and it has a name. I am a flesh covered spirit who's desire is to be all that I can be with no regrets. I want to see the reality of my world come to its knees, and then get back up on its own, showing that integrity does exist even in the darkest of places. I am in love with the rain, flying birds, and thunderstorms... and sometimes I believe that escape is the only option you have.. but also, there is a time to stand, defend, and fight. I know that the world is hungry for gentleman... and thirsty for women with high priorities, who wont give into ordinary lifestyle, even if its what feels best. I DANCE, fly, but I cannot sing. I think its astounding that God would create something like a sunset just to get my attention, and speak to me... when I dont deserve it. My friends are my family, and I'll always be willing to give my life away for them. I'm scared of failure, but even more scared of not getting back up when I do fail. I trip. I cry. I fight. I fail again. And I remember its worth the blood, sweat, and bruises. My body is a temple. I am real. Choices are real, and I know they're more vital than we think. God made my eyes to see, and for this, I pray that through them I would only see what he has meant for me to see.. and through which perspective is good and right and perfect. Im captured by beautiful things, but am also aware that they can soon become very ugly. Life is so beautiful, and so much fun, so sad, and so difficult... I am finding my place, and I wouldnt change it for anything.......................................------------- -----------------------------------------................... ------------------------------...........................--- -------------------------------------------Myspace Layouts
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But take heart my friend....

Sometimes it seems just so hopeless. The battle rages on, and your hands feel like they wanna break. You just want to rest... you just want to put down the sword. And I suppose you tell yourself good ...
Posted by on Mon, 03 Aug 2009 23:03:00 GMT

SH! hes looking.... try to look cute.

      I could feel his eyes watching me as made my way to my through the isle to find a seat. His glare was glued to me... I finally found a seat, pulled up the chair and sat ...
Posted by on Tue, 02 Sep 2008 17:20:00 GMT

Conviction/Guilt/ and I do what i want.

People will do a number of crazy things to not have to feel guilt or shame. And it's such a sad thing to see the variety of people who feel guilty about one thing...and another variety not even care. ...
Posted by on Wed, 23 Apr 2008 18:45:00 GMT

Easter?

This morning I was sitting in church... Easter sunday... Women with big hats, girls with lacy dresses, and families coming together to sing and listen to what the pastor had to say... yes... Easter su...
Posted by on Sun, 23 Mar 2008 13:49:00 GMT

animal world.

I wasn't going to write another blog till after Warweek, but I have the urge to get something out. It keeps swimming around in my head, and it kind of makes me angry... so I must blog about it. As mo...
Posted by on Mon, 31 Dec 2007 08:51:00 GMT

out of breath

The score is down 0 to 45, and it doesnt look like its gonna get better. Why waste my time and watch this game? Why waste my money on a ticket? Why put my hope and energy into the hope that we were go...
Posted by on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 15:52:00 GMT

sit down and rest for a while.

"I believe that if there is one thing which pierces the Master's heart with unutterable grief, it is not the world's iniquity but the church's indifference."-F.B. Meyer I walked by the field of a laz...
Posted by on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 06:39:00 GMT

dont give up now

There's a darkness in my skin, My covers wearing thin, I believe, I'd love to start again...go back to innocence and never leave. Don't Give Up Now! Break in the Clouds! We could be Found! There's not...
Posted by on Sun, 10 Dec 2006 15:03:00 GMT

lets pretend.

Why are we so shook up when things go wrong? Like we werent expecting them. Like its a dream and the bad didnt really happen. This has to be the end, pain this severe cant possibly ever happen to some...
Posted by on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 15:48:00 GMT

..just a prayer...

"God im so so so sorry. Im so sorry for my selfishness, im so sorry for walking the halls at school for myself and not for others. Im sorry for not taking the opportunity to impact the lives of broken...
Posted by on Sat, 18 Mar 2006 17:37:00 GMT