I find this hard to describe....I am proud to be a Mother and yet have found myself embarrassed to be perpetuating the human race.Where I was born is now a ghost town.I can be tough, strong, ruthless but still have to wake up my partner to tell me everything is all right in the middle of the night if I have had a scary dream.Strawberry marshmallows are my favorite candies but only if they are stale.I feel deep compassion but every once and a while only at my convenience.When I was little I was so jealous of this girl I knew who’s family ran a fat camp for kids because she sold them Smarties for a dollar a piece all summer and made a killing.I have scars that I hate for people to see and I have others I wish someone would notice.I am forgiving but sometimes only when it suites me.I am funny but occasionally at another’s expense.I love my family, I love my friends, but I don’t always like them.I have great intelligence but am often clueless.I thought Zoolander the movie was a spoof on Highlander and was about immortal Zoologists.I believe I have more than I need and have felt like it still isn’t enough.I have daydreamed about wining the lottery to see if I had the strength to give it all away.
