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Tell you the truth I prefer the worst of you. Too bad you had to have a better half.

About Me

I'm an "artist" in many definitions of the word. Mainly, I'm a singer. I write and perform my own music. Though i really haven't performed in a while. Maybe I'm a slowly starving to death artist, soon to have withered to a commoner. I also write poetry and sometimes act, dance paint, sculpt, make jewelry, and anything that involves arranging beauty. I'm obsessed with love, with beauty, with art. I love deeply, I cry hard, I cry when I'm angry, I laugh as often as I cry and I usually appear generally insane. I'm also bitter and cynical. All I want to do is love and I'm pissed off that that doesn't work out in this society. I'm often misunderstood for a good while until or unless someone really gets to know me, which usually takes a good while because I change all the time. I have so many different sides to me that I still surprise myself daily. Sometimes I like that I'm versatile and unsteady. Sometimes I think I'm a walking contradiction and I chastise myself. I talk to myself in the mirror a lot. I believe I am very intelligent. But I believe that brainpower is rarely needed to function in this world. So, as embaressing as it may be to admit, truth it still holds that I spend most of my days with my brain switched onto autopilot. I can't decide if it's because I truly just don't give a shit about this life or if maybe deep down I don't really want anyone to truly know me. But as long as you understand that I uncontrollably wear my heart on my sleeve then you'll have a good start to knowing me for real. I am a Massage Therapist. I also just recently got a record contract with Ayaic records. So, with any luck I will fullfill my dream in the near future and be able to make a decent living by selling my music. Hopefully-temporarily I'm working at my school's massage clinic and cocktail serving. My biggest flaws: I talk WAY too much. And I can't stop being aware of myself in other's eyes because I'm so fucking vain. I look at myself in the mirror too often and for too long. I don't know if it's because I think I'm beautiful or if I'm trying really hard to convince myself that I think I'm beautiful. I'm too honest. I overexplain things because I'm a bit of a perfectionist and I want to make sure everyone understands EXACTLY what I mean to say when I speak. it's annoying. Did I mention I talk too much about myself? .... ..Pimp Yo Page.. .. ..New Page 1.. .... .. ..
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Stability |||||||||||| 50%
Orderliness |||||||||| 40%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63%
Mystical |||||||||||| 43%
Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Religious |||| 16%
Hedonism |||||||||||| 43%
Materialism |||||||||||| 50%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Adventurousness |||||||||| 36%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 43%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||| 56%
Conflict seeking |||||||||||||| 56%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50%
Romantic |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Avoidant || 10%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||| 50%
Change averse |||||||||||||| 56%
Cautiousness |||||||||| 36%
Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70%
Physical security |||||||||||| 43%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||| 44%
Histrionic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Paranoia |||||||||||| 43%
Vanity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 70%
Female cliche |||||||||||||||||| 76%Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Artists and thinkers. People who are interesting, intelligent, extravagant, open minded, opinionated, outgoing, considerate, reliable, passionate, artistic, deep, rational, kind, I could go on and on with these single adjective definitions. People are generally attracted to strong people; people who have a lot to them and have strong interests and opinions. I like people who are unique and rebellious, yet able to live in today's society comfortably; Strong minded and opinionated, yet able to see and accept all points of view; Confident and able to hold the center of attention in a conversation, yet able to sit quietly and comfortably, observe and listen; considerate, kind and giving, yet still have their own strong mind; deep but light hearted; passionate and emotional but logical. I guess I pretty much like well balanced people. People who will go anywhere, try anything, and not just want to stick to the same routine and go to the same places day after day (But sometimes do) Have I contradicted myself enough yet? =) A word of advice to the people who are thinking about contacting me: I am not looking to fuck anyone. This includes couples who want someone to "play" with. I don't know why I get those messages all the damn time. Just cuz I'm bisexual doesn't mean I'm a fucking whore. Are there that many depthless fucks out there? I am not interested in people who are in or associated with the military. Sorry, just my personal preference and no I don't want to argue about it. I dhttp://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewpr ofile&friendid=9389098o do not like typical, truck loving, hatwearing, surfer-type or ghetto type sandiegan boys who seem like they never left highschool. The problem is you boys are so fucking retarded that you probably don't know that I'm talking about YOU! I just wanna find some fucking real people in San Diego. People who express themselves and aren't just "chill" all the time. A little fucking emotional display!!! Does that exist in San Diego? I'm beginning to doubt it. Everyone is so self-centered and oh so even-tempered out here. I'm disgusted at the lack of brain power required to live here. My brain is melting away in the Sunshine! Can anyone even hear me??????

My Blog

People and prescription drugs

This shit is crazy!  I mean, I was all depressed in my previous blogs and right now I can't stop smiling.  But I also cried myself to sleep just the other day.  I think we are all prett...
Posted by on Sat, 06 Oct 2007 16:40:00 GMT

This blog is definitely not gonna brighten your day.

I'm at the bottom of my rope.  The gutter is looking good from where I am.  I found myself cursing at the sky last night.  Telling it  "Go ahead!  Just crash down on me! Keep ...
Posted by on Sat, 30 Jun 2007 17:56:00 GMT

All alone inside my head..

I know I write depressing blogs.  I write depressing songs and poetry too.  And yes, I often consider myself depressed.  Most of the time I don't feel I'm having "real" dialogue unless ...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Jun 2007 18:41:00 GMT

Versatility Is not weakness!!

Creepy thoughts twist my fun into questionPleasure remainsonly feuled by supressionI can't be this pure though it's here I portray My innocent devotion to loving each day Am I really this dirty as y...
Posted by on Sun, 08 Apr 2007 21:36:00 GMT

What happened to Silly Meggie?

I've always thought of myself as a silly girl.  I mean, I like to play, poke fun and tease.  I'm not sure when but I'm not sure I'm that girl much anymore.  I'd hate to think that I've ...
Posted by on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 15:46:00 GMT

The trend to be "untrendy"

ok, so I have to say something about these people who have this relentless contempt for myspace.  You know the people of whom I'm speak.  The ones who are constantly preaching conspiracies a...
Posted by on Thu, 28 Sep 2006 01:59:00 GMT

No escape

I find myself 23 & 1/2 years old, browsing myspace, getting teary-eyed at the discovery of someone else's beauty. It's so rare that I see beauty in people anymore. It used to be that I got teary-eye...
Posted by on Fri, 14 Apr 2006 03:27:00 GMT

What the hell is going on?

I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do here. I know that work is half of a human life. Responsibility is crucial. But even when we get to play, boredom is eventually inevitable. And that's it. I'm so in...
Posted by on Fri, 02 Dec 2005 02:23:00 GMT