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darren.

You look out of breath, and me like I am faking...

About Me

Every day has a beginning and ending, just like every life has a start and finish. July is gone like the gasoline it took to make the circle again. Florida to Florida, by way of america, Cocaine and soda, playing Tetris in our underwear. We take turns reading letters, I read the haiku and you move your nails across my legs. In your arms, I don't know who I am, taking all I know about nihilism and trying to build it into a life. With your thought in mind, I walk the streets down to the shore and I sink into the Pacific. This is everything up to now ending. It was nice to believe for a while.

My Interests

band, bemani, concert band, drumline, drumming, existentialism, gerald scarfe, home recording, industrial scene, korg, marching band, militarism, mmorpg, oliver stone, percussion, philosophy, quentin tarantino, roland, russell mills, squaresoft, third reich, ultima online, vegetarianism.

Music:

against me!, alice in chains, attrition, ayla, bob marley, björk, blind melon, counting crows, culture club, david bowie, david gilmour, death cab for cutie, depeche mode, dio, dntel, the faint, industrial scene, jane's addiction, jethro tull, kmfdm, led zeppelin, love spirals downwards, lovespirals, marilyn manson, mdfmk, meiko kaji, michael hedges, mike portnoy, mister mister, modest mouse, mogwai, morrissey, nick mason, nine inch nails, nobuo uematsu, oasis, pearl jam, peter gabriel, pink floyd, primus, queensrÿche, r.e.m., richard wright, roger waters, skinny puppy, stone temple pilots, styx, sublime/bradley nowell, the cult, the cure, the doors, the final cut, the pixies, the postal service, the smiths, toto, trent reznor, type o negative, u2

Movies:

american beauty american history x i heart huckabees kevin smith films the professional the shawshank redemption etc... etc... etc...

Television:

history, discovery, sundance, etc...

Books:

the night trilogy (night, dawn, the accident), candide, anthem, buddhist studies, daoist studies, vegetarianism, etc...

Heroes:

anybody who has managed to make themselves, as opposed to society doing it for them.

My Blog

birthday and peppers...

So, today is my eighteenth birthday. Hooray. Another year has gone by... In other news, on January 12th, The Red Hot Chili Peppers and Gnarls Barkley will be performing in Oklahoma City at the Cox Are...
Posted by darren. on Mon, 13 Nov 2006 01:10:00 PST

i lost my job.

I am no longer employed at Vintage Stock due to the fact that my high school consumes a whole 80+- hours of my seven-day week.  They let me go because I can't work enough hours right now. Maybe I...
Posted by darren. on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 08:33:00 PST

alice in chains.

The Alice in Chains show on Saturday night was the most amazing thing ever.
Posted by darren. on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 08:14:00 PST

anew.

So, Summer is hotter than ever and, school is back in session once again. It's my Senior year, finally. Time to start making important decisions, to become independent, and to leave for college. Thre...
Posted by darren. on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 09:35:00 PST

revelation.

Four sins past sainthood, it's like I'm dying to forget, all the sleepless nights lying perfectly alone and still. I can drink 'til victory, I'll drink to the mighty, drink until I die or at least unt...
Posted by darren. on Thu, 17 Aug 2006 11:26:00 PST

new job.

I start my new job at Vintage Stock at 71st and Memorial today. I leave in an hour. My hours today are 1:00PM-?:00PM. Somebody come visit me or something!
Posted by darren. on Thu, 20 Jul 2006 10:02:00 PST

"admittedly, i had my ass beat last night" & other tales of trial & tribulation by darren dean

New entry? You know it.The past weeks have been quite interesting, though I've been too lazy to update. Last week Daryle's crazy ass drove all the way down from Las Vegas to come stay with me. Eightee...
Posted by darren. on Mon, 17 Jul 2006 08:46:00 PST

summertime.

How has everybody been as of late? I haven't been up to much since I left the Hideaway. Been sleeping my days away and living at night, for the most part, and spending a lot of time with the Cambodian...
Posted by darren. on Wed, 28 Jun 2006 01:30:00 PST

soulstice.

Leaving for Durham, Arkansas (Hog Ridge) tomorrow at 5:00PM for SOULSTICE!Outdoor rave/3 dj, vj, & performance stages/24 hrs/overnight camping. I've been waiting all year. Woo! ...
Posted by darren. on Fri, 23 Jun 2006 03:28:00 PST

i have left the hideaway.

I left my job at Hideaway today... Not because of anybody in particular, but because of my own personal issues, changing conditions at work, and lack of decent pay for the hours I put into that job. I...
Posted by darren. on Sat, 10 Jun 2006 07:38:00 PST