I guess I'll throw out the obvious... I'm not a small individual, 6’5" ex Div 1 football player and all that comes with it. Behind this rough exterior (yeah right) is a kind, warm and compassionate person. I tend to be funny and fun to be around. Most people I meet warm up to me fairly quickly, once I get over my initial shyness. And then a few minutes later that's when I realize that I'm not really shy at all(we'll explore that in a bit). I have always been the kind of "who am I" guy in my head, which probably did more harm than good. The answer is far simpler than you could ever imagine.... I'm Big Jeff! Now that seems a little silly but spend some time with me and you'll get what I mean. As for what all that includes I guess you could say that first and foremost I always seem to play the role of the protector, the guardian and more importantly the Healer. These are traits that have been a blessing yet a curse all in one. Don't get me wrong; I am not complaining about who I am but these traits (as good as they are) can be a drain on me as well. I am always there to listen and help those in need in any way that I can. Probably to a fault... but too bad I can’t change who I am, I mean I'm Big freakin Jeff for Christ's sake.
In my life, as well as in my career, I wear many hats and they are all a part of me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I throw around my hugs and love to all those whom I consider friend and, in all honesty, even to those whom I've just met..
Personality wise, I've always claimed that I'm not good in front of people and that I am very shy. Always trying to tell myself that I don't want to be noticed (hard for someone my size) and then, without warning, I realize that I always go totally against that. So, as I've been sitting here pondering about my life lately and the way I live it (a daily pastime that used to do more harm than good) I've realized that all those thoughts and feelings are all bullshit. I was just afraid of being hurt, rejected and telling myself these things to help protect me but I only ended up hurting myself. Who was I kidding?!?! That was not who I am, I don't sit the bench on the sidelines... I'M IN THE GAME BABY!! You'll never get the full aspect of life sitting on the sidelines. Let's face it, I love playing to a crowd, whether it's being a total wedding reception party guy, talking wine, telling jokes, or just making an ass out of myself. This is who I am and I realized that I cannot live that lie anymore. Life has a funny way of working out sometimes, you go through most of your life thinking one way about yourself only to see that you were wrong and kept the best parts of yourself hidden and out of reach because of some stupid worries. Yes, life isn't all peaches and cream but if you don't take those chances life gives you, then you can't ever reap the rewards either. There is a great weight that is lifted off of your shoulders once you come to this sort of realization and the best part of this is that this is only the beginning. There is so much out there for each of us and I for one intend to go for it.
As far as my career is concerned, things have worked out better than I could have ever planned. For the longest time, I wasn't sure if I'd even have a job goal in mind, never mind having a part time job turn into a career. I am one of the few lucky people who can honestly say that they don't wake up in the morning and groan about going to work. I love my job and the company I work for. They have taken great care of me over the past 8 years and continue to do so. Is this the be all end all for me? Who knows where the road may take me but right now this is exactly where I am supposed to be.
Because of work, I've done things and seen places that I never would have imagined or traveled to for that matter. For example...
What? Lots of people guzzle wine in the Spanish vineyards... right?
See what I mean, who gets to do this sort of shit. (and a trip to italy is right around the corner as well)
However, don't get me wrong, I’ve had my ups and downs in life just like anyone has. I come across as a very happy guy however there was a time in my life where I was as low as a person can go and with the help of friends and family I fought back to become the well adjusted man you see before you… ok maybe well adjusted is a stretch, but I’m happy with my life and that is all I ever wanted. Well that and I still want to be a Super Hero (but that is a story for another time).
Other than that I guess you'll have to find the rest out on your own cause unfortunately people, we’ve only just scratched the surface of the big guy, lol. And if you’ve made it this far into the read then I applaud you. Because I wrote the whole thing and even I don’t reread it : ) Be Well.
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You scored as Joy
You are Joy!! Cheering people up is a talent you posses. Your warm smile brings joy to even the gloomiest. When you enter a room everyone is happy to see you. Thanks for taking my quiz.
Joy
92%
Peace
92%
Courage
83%
Love
75%
Wisdom
75%
Grace
75%
Faith
67%
Hope
67%