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BIG JEFF

Time to get ready for the trip of a lifetime!

About Me

So here we go it's time to learn a little about me. I used to think this part was difficult to do, write about myself and my personality. Lately I've realized that no one knows me better than I do, no matter what I try and tell myself.
I guess I'll throw out the obvious... I'm not a small individual, 6’5" ex Div 1 football player and all that comes with it. Behind this rough exterior (yeah right) is a kind, warm and compassionate person. I tend to be funny and fun to be around. Most people I meet warm up to me fairly quickly, once I get over my initial shyness. And then a few minutes later that's when I realize that I'm not really shy at all(we'll explore that in a bit). I have always been the kind of "who am I" guy in my head, which probably did more harm than good. The answer is far simpler than you could ever imagine.... I'm Big Jeff! Now that seems a little silly but spend some time with me and you'll get what I mean. As for what all that includes I guess you could say that first and foremost I always seem to play the role of the protector, the guardian and more importantly the Healer. These are traits that have been a blessing yet a curse all in one. Don't get me wrong; I am not complaining about who I am but these traits (as good as they are) can be a drain on me as well. I am always there to listen and help those in need in any way that I can. Probably to a fault... but too bad I can’t change who I am, I mean I'm Big freakin Jeff for Christ's sake.
In my life, as well as in my career, I wear many hats and they are all a part of me. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I throw around my hugs and love to all those whom I consider friend and, in all honesty, even to those whom I've just met..
Personality wise, I've always claimed that I'm not good in front of people and that I am very shy. Always trying to tell myself that I don't want to be noticed (hard for someone my size) and then, without warning, I realize that I always go totally against that. So, as I've been sitting here pondering about my life lately and the way I live it (a daily pastime that used to do more harm than good) I've realized that all those thoughts and feelings are all bullshit. I was just afraid of being hurt, rejected and telling myself these things to help protect me but I only ended up hurting myself. Who was I kidding?!?! That was not who I am, I don't sit the bench on the sidelines... I'M IN THE GAME BABY!! You'll never get the full aspect of life sitting on the sidelines. Let's face it, I love playing to a crowd, whether it's being a total wedding reception party guy, talking wine, telling jokes, or just making an ass out of myself. This is who I am and I realized that I cannot live that lie anymore. Life has a funny way of working out sometimes, you go through most of your life thinking one way about yourself only to see that you were wrong and kept the best parts of yourself hidden and out of reach because of some stupid worries. Yes, life isn't all peaches and cream but if you don't take those chances life gives you, then you can't ever reap the rewards either. There is a great weight that is lifted off of your shoulders once you come to this sort of realization and the best part of this is that this is only the beginning. There is so much out there for each of us and I for one intend to go for it.
As far as my career is concerned, things have worked out better than I could have ever planned. For the longest time, I wasn't sure if I'd even have a job goal in mind, never mind having a part time job turn into a career. I am one of the few lucky people who can honestly say that they don't wake up in the morning and groan about going to work. I love my job and the company I work for. They have taken great care of me over the past 8 years and continue to do so. Is this the be all end all for me? Who knows where the road may take me but right now this is exactly where I am supposed to be.
Because of work, I've done things and seen places that I never would have imagined or traveled to for that matter. For example...
What? Lots of people guzzle wine in the Spanish vineyards... right?
See what I mean, who gets to do this sort of shit. (and a trip to italy is right around the corner as well)
However, don't get me wrong, I’ve had my ups and downs in life just like anyone has. I come across as a very happy guy however there was a time in my life where I was as low as a person can go and with the help of friends and family I fought back to become the well adjusted man you see before you… ok maybe well adjusted is a stretch, but I’m happy with my life and that is all I ever wanted. Well that and I still want to be a Super Hero (but that is a story for another time).
Other than that I guess you'll have to find the rest out on your own cause unfortunately people, we’ve only just scratched the surface of the big guy, lol. And if you’ve made it this far into the read then I applaud you. Because I wrote the whole thing and even I don’t reread it : ) Be Well.
What feeling are you??
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You scored as Joy

You are Joy!! Cheering people up is a talent you posses. Your warm smile brings joy to even the gloomiest. When you enter a room everyone is happy to see you. Thanks for taking my quiz.


Joy


92%

Peace


92%

Courage


83%

Love


75%

Wisdom


75%

Grace


75%

Faith


67%

Hope


67%

My Interests



What is Your World View?

.. You scored as Cultural Creative. Cultural Creatives are probably the newest group to enter this realm. You are a modern thinker who tends to shy away from organized religion but still feels as if there is something greater than ourselves. You are very spiritual, even if you are not religious. Life has a meaning outside of the rational.

Cultural Creative


94%

Idealist


56%

Romanticist


56%

Existentialist


56%

Postmodernist


50%

Fundamentalist


44%

Modernist


31%

Materialist


25%

Lately I’ve become more spiritual than I have probably ever been. Now, I don’t mean that I've gone all knocking on peoples doors telling them to accept Christ and all. I don’t generally do the church thing nor do I follow most of the “rules” of my learned faith either. I'm not saying I sin like crazy but I'm all about a hamburger on Good Friday, if you know what I mean, and I really just mean eating a hamburger on Good Friday (was never really good with the inuendo's). However I have done a lot of self exploration in the last year and a half and have had some wonderful experiences and met some fantastic people who have allowed me to reconnect. It sounds a tad corny and a little weird but fear not, I'm not about to give all my possesions away and drink some crazy cool-aid either. It's about knowing we're not alone out there and actually feeling connected to something much bigger than all of us.

This doesn't mean I don't like to have a good time now and then either...
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Cause I can still throw em back with the best.

I'd like to meet:


Movies:

"I have such sights to show you..."

My Precious...

Gonna Find my baby gonna hold her tight...

Television:

This show is Freakin Sweet... and you're a sick F if you get this

...Of course I've seen it too

Sexy Party Time...

Books:

Stephen King is one of the best!!! The Dark Tower series and all of his novels that touch upon its story are pure genious.

Also a big fan of Frank Herbert's DUNE series as well.

And I have the guilty pleasure books also... Gotta love that Potter. JK Rowling is brilliant in her simplicity and complexities all tied into one.

Heroes:

My Friends

These few represent those closest to me who are not involved in the myspace phenomenon (otherwise they would be on my top friends, duh). They are heroes because they mean the world to me and life could not be the same without a single one of them.

My Blog

Leaving for Vegas

Come one, come all and listen to a tale of intrigue, suspense, danger and utter stupidity!  Some of you were privy to this story live via text message but sometimes things get lost in translation...
Posted by BIG JEFF on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 06:00:00 PST

The Martyr

So here we are& once more into the breach and all that.  So I've had yet another introspective look into my life recently and decided to share some of my findings and a touch of my seeming intern...
Posted by BIG JEFF on Sun, 09 Dec 2007 11:42:00 PST

Be away for a little bit.

Just wanted to let all of you, whom I speak with frequently, know that I will not be around for then next few days.  There has been a loss in my family.  My paternal grandmother passed away ...
Posted by BIG JEFF on Mon, 08 Jan 2007 04:54:00 PST

Sitting home on Saturday night.

     So, like I said, here I am sitting in my house on a Saturday night with a day off tomorrow (first one in 3 weeks) and rather than go out and living it up, I'm here writing th...
Posted by BIG JEFF on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 07:58:00 PST

This is what I get for bieng up @ 7:30 on Sun Morning

     Well I've never done the blog thing before but wanted to post this because I'm sure people I know dont always reread the About Me section more than and rarely notice the chan...
Posted by BIG JEFF on Sun, 11 Jun 2006 09:15:00 PST