Jax

Lets see.........I guess you can say that over the years I've learned a lot about myself.....I used to think that because I decided to have a family early that I had missed out on so much...especially when I see how much fun all my friends are having being free to do what they want when ever they want. Now that I'm GETTING OLDER, I've realized that my life is better the way I have lived it so far and that I wouldn't have it any other way. My baby Belle....she isn't a baby anymore...she's almost 12! Annabelle was and is still one of the people who inspired me to be who I am now. She doesn't quite realize that she was the one who kept me from going out there and getting wild. She kept me sane as a single mom and motivated me to keep trying harder to better my life so that she can also have a better life. As time went on, my motivation was strengthened even more with the addition of Miko and Maelana. Now I believe that having these three angels by my side, nothing can stop me! With this said......along with my real estate, I'm going back to school to take nursing. As if my life isn't busy enough, I can say that I'm crazy enough to add nursing to my long line of talents. One thing I've noticed about myself recently is that I can't rely on anyone but me. It's up to me to make sure that my kidz have a future and that they're not burdened by my problems no matter how complicated they are. I can't hope, wish, or pray that my family will work out whatever barriers there are to work through in time to help me make sure that my aspirations come true not only for my future but for my kids future. I can't depend on the fact that no matter how happy or sad I am in my relationship, it won't help me make more money. I guess you can say that through everything and out of all the family in my life, the only one I can rely on is ME. It's up to ME to make things better, no matter how hard it is or what it takes to make it happen. It's up to ME to make sure that my kidz future is clear. You see, life is too short so you gotta make the most of it now. You can't rely on others to pave your future for you. Sometimes you just gotta do it yourself and hope that they follow.