About Me
I don..t really show my real personality to everyone. I..m very secretive and doesn..t keep much time for myself nor I rely on the others, in spite of my amount of guardians. I actually do everything for the others, for the people I Love, for Gen my wife.Meanwhile, all I can do is trying to convince myself everything will be fine, compelling myself to laugh and cheering myself up. I..m sensitive I and fight for what I think is right. I defend my ideals and opinions with a strong drive and gets sometimes easily angry if someone annoys me. I dislike injustice and seeing people being slated, especially the ones I cared for. I..m a pure and whole-hearted young man. And I..m the polite kind. I respect people a lot, like themselves respect me. I always bow and apologize for nothing. Even towards children, I crouchs myself to treat them as equals. Indeed, behind the image I try to give, I..m just a very simple young man.
I..m "easy to understand". Not complex nor capricious, I act very mature for my age. I..m very receptive to the world's sensitiveness: what I like, for instance, enjoying a beautiful sunset or dreaming about things I want to know. Even if teachings always told not to like technology because it..s a sin, I seem to be quite curious about it. My euphoric description, symbol of high-tech, really tells my fascination. I carries an image and a fame. People put so much on me that I just can..t deceive them. I can..t fail in my job. I don..t have the right to. I cannot decide to stop being a ordinary lad. I must protect the one i love with my mysterious art. In answer people..s enthusiasm towards myself, I can't do anything but give them more hope and faith, always replying with confidence "I will".
I make it a duty and becomes, without my knowledge, a martyr. Sacrifice, destiny and death have an important role in me since they are closely linked. People go on their journey until "the end of the world". Nothing else matters more to my eyes than the sake of the world's happiness. The sacrifice is great but to me, it is worth it. I..m full of sincerity and passionately headstrong.
I..m encouraged by my secret hope to find my existence. It seems only this and nothing else matters to me; it..s my unique motivation, my inner strength. For that, I undertake a lot more things and have to make sharp decisions at the right moment several times. I..m ready to do anything to reach my goal and acts a bit more egoistically like I don..t care if anything happens to me as long as I find my answers. if he were here besides me too. I hadn..t made his mourning; he has just vanished from the real world. It's by repeating to myself that I will find him back. But all in all, after these two years of Calm, I just can..t go on in life. Heading toward the future means forgetting about the shards of the past and I..m really not ready to forget all these things. I have this melancholic way of observing and analysing the world. In fact, I don..t act like a teenager of my age, although they doubt I ever acted this way. On one hand I want to get rid of these painful memories and all these stuffs.
I may have changed a lot in my appearance but deep inside myself still lies little CLOUD they knew from the start. Really, I hadn..t changed much and still have faith in my dearest valors such as honesty, truth and love. What makes me a lot different is my maturity which has never stop growing since. I had tough experiences in the past and it will remain engraved in my memory forever: the fact that I was used without my own knowledge, the will to live I had neglected to save my dwelling, the loss of parents, friends... and first love. Everything has been really harsh and I made my way out of this to become stronger.
