So I used to date guys who were younger than me. Not creepy young, just younger, early twenties, say. Often there was a sparkle and a glee to their smile and an innocence to their personality, which I found captivating. I suppose I was searching for someone who had a hunger for living life. People who have given up, those who have succumbed to the drudgery of life and forgotten the joy of living, hurt me. There was a time when the caregiver in me sought to make everyone happy, make everything alright. But I don't do that anymore. Our time on this blue and green sphere is finite. Each day we are greeted with sun or rain, heat or cold, to make of it what we will. I am a child of the sun who likes to laugh and see new places and meet new people and touch new parts of myself and others. I love to hold sleeping babies. It makes my heart warm. I love to engage with art in many differing forms. I hate eating dinner alone. I love my friends. And I love going out to breakfast. I love dancing, I used to be much better at it than I am now, but I love dancing. I love a good discussion, particularly about films which require thought and about food worth talking about. I love to travel, I can never afford to travel, but that has never mattered. I loved Arizona. Sometimes I have bizarre dreams that make no sense. I have never liked horror films. I don't like being scared. It's also a little dangerous to scare me in certain ways. I have a black belt in Tae Kwon Do and I am very close to having one in Shaolin Kempo. I would like to meet someone who is alive as well.