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EvilsXtasy

Is it so wrong of me to want you?

About Me

Girl enters stage right precedeed by stone cold shadow of blackest heart, scents of frankinsense and darker things devour breathable air as her presence slip slip slips in amongst the night. She is both everything and nothing, contradictive meld of sacred and profane. Ever seeking a kindred amongst the blooms of this savage garden, taunting eternity with her come hither smile. Plagued by demons of another time,place,dimension she hides her soul, her core,her being from so many who could never possibly understand. Little girl lost weaving nightmares and daydreams amongst the blood red ribbons in her hair she waits for understanding, reciprocity,those unsaid moments of telepathic KNOWing. She is...alone,this girl child of endless night dancing with vampires and forever running from the dawn.
P Primitive
H Handsome
E Explosive
B Brainy
E Elitist
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My Interests

Shaken by passion, fueled by intellect, inspired by music and driven by desire.

I'd like to meet:

The stone hearted boi with the blackest heart
who smokes menthol lights and suffers for his art.
The wayward stranger with a crooked smile
whose given up on things worthwhile.
The tortured artist who spills soul on canvas
and searches for meaning amongst all the madness.
The kindred spirit familliar to pain
with a love thats been broken again and again.
The shadow that traces my steps in the night
whispers in my ear but stays just out of sight.
The lonesome soul whose song gives me chills,
and whose presence alone gives me unending thrills.

Music:

If we all are actors and the world is a stage, then my soundtrack includes:

The Cure, Portishead, Skinny Puppy, Bauhaus, Billie Holiday, Sneaker Pimps, Death Cab for Cutie, TPS, VNV Nation, Dead Can Dance, Rasputina, Black Tape for a Blue Girl, HIM, Christian Death, Elvis (Early Hillbilly Elvis Specifically), Belle & Sebastian, Suicide Commando, KMFDM, Crystal Method, Black Atmosphere, Concrete Blonde, Bikini Kill (All Hail Kathlenn Hanna), PJ Harvey, Poe, Tori Amos, Disturbed, Static X, KidneyTheives, Dresden Dolls, The Donnas, Johhny Cash, The Smiths, Mazzy Star, No Doubt, AFI, Slipknot, Sinatra, Brian Setzer, Human League, Jawbreaker, Sex Pistols, Cabaret Voltaire,I nterpol, The Ravonettes, Social D, The Ramones, Incubus Succubus, Alien Sex Fiend, Seraphim Shock, Otep, Kittie, Apoptygma Berzerk, Chopin, Funkr Vogt, Gregorian Chants, Velvet Acid Christ, Patsy Cline, NIN, Tool, Genitorturers, Kirlian Camera, Marilyn Manson, Queen Adreena, Offspring, Deftones, Flogging Molly, Blazing Haley, Sarah Brightman, Rehab, Sisters of Mercy, Front 242, Siouxsie Sioux, Front Line Assembly ,Ladytron, Collide, Lacuna Coil, CKY, White Zombie, Chris Issak, Type O Negative, Tapping The Vein, L7, Joan Jett, Green Day, Bethoven, Mindless Self Indulgence, Mustard Plug, Assemblage 23, k0rn, London After Midnight, Barbee Killed Ken (Gawd I miss them), Faith and The Muse, Anathema, Air, Nick Cave (Bad Seeds & All),The Faint...

Movies:

Ghost in the Shell, Evangelion,Ah! My Goddess, Chobits, Aeon Flux, Ascenscion, Lady Death, Blood: The Last Vampire, Vampire Hunter D, Tokyo Babylon, Fear & Loathing, The Maltese Falcon, Last House on the Left, Anything Hitchcock, Requiem for a dream ( I even made my mom watch it I thought it was that good) Bram Stokers Dracula, Kids,13..this could become a very long list kids so imma leave it at that.

Books:

Rarely have I met a book I did not like...
Dead Girls/Dead Boys/ Dead Things, The Vampire Chronicles (actually pretty much anything by Anne Rice, even the fodder published under her psuedonyms), Hotel Transylvania and other misc Chelsea Quin Yarbro, Jane Sexes it up - Tales of desire from the feminist front, Clan of the Cave Bear and the entire Earths children series by Jean M Auel, Dickens, Proust, The Iliad and the Odessey, Poppy Z Brite (Lost Souls is my all time fave), Love in Vein I & II, Splatterpunk Anything, Keroac...

Heroes:


Its like an orgasm, but better.

My Blog

inspiriation. truth.consequences. (caution rant within)

I love music. All of it. Showtunes,country,metal,jazz,blues,swing,punk,electroclash,d arkwave,house,industrial,opera,classical. Fuck it. Im a genre defying anamoly with an indescribable passion for ...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 12 Sep 2005 09:58:00 PST

Random Thoughtness with a causness

  Funny. Coincidences. Funny how you fall so easily back into the patterns of friendship as though nothing ever happened. No one ever went away. Mind shattering revelations that leave me countin...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

sometimes a song says it all

There's a flame that leads our souls astrayNo one's safe from its tender touch of painAnd every day it's looking for new slavesTo celebrate the beauty of the graveWe are like the living deadSacrificin...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

*tense*

I am about to take what could be the first step in the biggest risk Ive ever taken tomorrow. And I am quaking in my big black boots. Acception or rejection. I dont know which is more intimidating. Can...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Warning

Even when people try to destroy me I turn it around. Heh. Rather than getting wrapped up in a bunch of negative BS, I once again purged my soul into words, and this came out. I love it when the evi...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Poetry on the fly

100% Random act of poetry. Enjoy. Im looking at an empty space A dark, forlorn and lonely place Where once you blessed me with your grace and I first fell in love with your pretty face. The c...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Poseurs

You know what kills me? The whole Harajuku girl "revivial" courtesy of Gwen Stefani. Dont get me wrong here, I love Gwen, she kicks ass. However.... I was an original wannabe harajuku gurl,( I kn...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

If you pick at it, it wont ever go away

So I went for trip 839,157,342,997,151.5 to the dermatologist today... Ive been fighting my acne since my early teens, Ive tried every over the counter medication and cream, Ive tried proactive,Dif...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Im on sabatical

Yes you heard me correctly. Im going to fall off the face of the planet for a bit. Those of you who know me, REALLY know me, know just how vunerable I really am, and it wont come as much of a shock...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Two Faced 2 the Extreme

Most of you who know me know that I am not the type to indiscriminatley pass judgment or expect others to uphold the same values and ideas I cling to,but occassionally, something happens to really inc...
Posted by EvilsXtasy on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST