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Header Banner Made with MyBannerMaker.com! Click here to make your own!Hi, I really can't put into words what has happened to my children and me and all that has happened to me over the years of my life. Not all was bad, I had a pretty good life, my dad was a cop, my mom a waitress, they both had their inner demons, like we all do, including myself. We had our fair share of getting hit by our parents, having fights, arugements, etc..etc.. But NO MATTER WHAT, we all loved and cared for each other and defended each other and we still do today. I don't know where I would be today without the love and support of my family. I have a lot to say, so let me begin. I am a mother of a child that was molested and I am also a wife of a child molester, as well as a victim myself. I have started this in hopes of making awareness of this horrible epidemic of child molesters and child prededors. I was so naive and brain washed that I married a child molester who molested my child as well as another family member and several others. He is now serving a 40 year prison term. I'm here to be the voice of the ones who have no voice, I hope to break barriers and stop this and to also and this is where I know I may get some flack, but that's ok, but I also want to help the accused, because no matter how horrible the crime is, they too need help and are victims of their own demons and selfish, sick behavior and it must be addressed and stopped. We need them to talk, to tell us excaltly why they do what they do, it has to be a sickness, a disease. There has to be a reason why, some do it out of pure evil, I'm sure. Like for instance, take my husband, he did it right under my nose for 6 years to my daughter. He also molested his nieces, my 3 yr-old niece, and many others and got away with it for so long, until he was arrested for molesting an ex girlfriends daughter. It happened before we met and he told me about it and he also told me about how he was being falsely accused and had a slew of people backing him up and I believed them all. He was a free man for 7 years, he never went to court, nothing. Then in early 2007, my niece came forward. He was questioned about alleged fondling, that was when I really began to question his innocence, but at the same time, this woman, the grandmother of my niece, who had custody of her, was also a supporter of his innocence and a family friend, who had personal issues and we had gotten into a huge arguement a few months before and he brain washed me to think, that is why she is saying this, to "getback" at us and once again, I believed him, my whole family did, but they had their doubts as well, but lived so far, they did what they taught was best, to support me and what I believed, which was he was innocent. I stood by this man 100%, but I also talked to my children, talked to them about how wrong it is to touch children, I told them if that ever happens to NEVER be afarid to tell someone. I talked to all of them one on one over the years and nothing ever stood out. I sometimes feel I am to blame, that I allowed him into my childrens lives and now look, look what happened. I always in my heart, in my soul, believed he was innocent and I faught as hard as I could for him, then I find out he was doing it to my daughter, my niece and so many others, that it was always true, everything, I felt like a fool, like I myself was a monster for loving him and standing by him. In August of 2007, Perry was arrested, for the accusations from my niece, 2 days later, my daughter finally told me the truth, that he had been doing it to her for years. She cried and told me she was sorry she lied to me when I asked her, that she was scared, that he said if she ever told he would get in trouble and so would she, but the worse was she told me, "mommy, I never told you, I wanted too, but I knew how much you loved him and how he loved you too and I didn't want to break up our family or take E***'s dad away" My heart broke, fell to pieces, I grab her and told her to NEVER blame herself and that its ok, you didn't know any better, it's going to be ok. I never knew, I never seen a thing back then, now I look back and I see things, but theres no use, the past ain't coming back, it can't be re-written, you get the life your given and you make the best of it. I couldn't sleep for 2 days, I stood awake, looking at my daughter, feeling her pain, feeling her fear, her sorrow. I looked at my son, that screamed"my daddy is never coming back, wheres my daddy", I looked at my other daughter, the daughter I had with him and seen her innocence, seen that she will have to grow up knowing her father was a child predador and molested her half sister, them few wekks after, when I was home alone, fighting with his mother, hearing all the horrible things about my husbnad, the man I loved and shared my life with, to her how horrible of a monster he was, to her my daughter and my son cry about tyhe only man they knew as their father, to tell me they want to find their real dad, to her my 5 year old pray at the dinner table, for her father, asking God to help hime get out of jail and to tell God that the devil made her daddy touch her sister, it was the most heartwrenching experience a mother should never have to go through. Then when I asked for help, to get help with finding somewhere else to live, to get help with paying my bills, just until I get on my feet and be turned away. It made the news and hit the papers, out name spread everwhere, I couldn't find any work and was receiving only a little small check from the state, not even enough to pay my car payment, plus in order for me to recieved that, I had to do work experience at the local DFACS office, working 35 hours a week, just for $330.00 a month from TANF, but also look for work in between. Then my victims adovacte denied me help with my bills, told me I was to unstable and could not help me. My electric was about to be shut off and my all my other bills where do, so I just packed what I could in my mini-van and went back home. I'm still struggling today, meanwhile, my husband gets 3 meals a day, don't have to worry about paying the rent, the car note, the utilites, he's living scott free in another sense. He should be made to work his ass of every single day to help pay for what he has done, so my children can get a life they deserve. I don't want to sound greddy, but that it one of my biggest obstackles, money, it's a struggle to live and support 3 children with a single parent income. There needs to be more help for the victims and their families and more theraphy and other forms of research done with child molesters and predadors. So that is why I am here. I don't know why child molesters become child molesters, we need to get into their brain, into their thoughts, their impulses, we need them to tell us more and not be scared the will be judged for it. Not only do I want answers, but so does my child, all my children do and for that I will fight to the bitter end to get answers, to get justice, to make right, right and wrong, wrong. I really don't regret anything about my life, I regret deeply what has happened to my daughter and the many others, but I can't dwell on that, we can't dwell on being a victim, the victims need to not be victims no-more, instead we need to be warriors and the voice for the voiceless! We all must stand up and fight, so this won't happen to me, you or anyone else ever again and to hopefully bring awareness to the unaware. Together, WE CAN and WILL make a difference! Thanks for your support...MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 Click here to get Falling Objects MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007 MACM 2007
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