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J A C Q U E L Y N est. 1991
Email : [email protected]
Hi, my name is Jacquelyn Davis, but you can call me Jady. Welcome to my page.
I'm JD.
I believe that true health and happiness comes from inside.
I like to read.
I love to sing. In my free time I'm either writing or singing.
I'm an open minded person.
I like meeting new people.
In a lot of ways I'm just a normal 16 year old girl, but I have Lyme disease.
I like to inspire people by telling my story and sharing my talents.
I know I'm going to make it to my destination :
Quality of life.
Read and Comment on my blog Please and Thank You.
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By:Jacquelyn Davis
Hello tomorrow. It is today. I lay in my bed defeated. Awoken. The sun is my enemy. It sends rays of light through the cracks of my tightly closed blinds to mock me. I don't have to open my eyes to see or touch the window to feel the warmth of the noonday sun to know that I am here. Again. Outside I can hear the first signs of spring, and I imagine the buds on the trees emerging with a brilliance. The air smells clean,fresh, and pollinated. It sure feels like a beautiful day, but beautiful days and inhalers go hand in hand. I move my leg and grimace at a shooting pain. It is almost as if a hammered nail at my side is pinning me to my bed. I throw the covers over my head. Fade away. The world will forget me the moment I'm gone.
Life. What is life? Is it a delicate flower ,beautiful and perfect withering away at the first signs of drought? Is it an eyesore in the garden, a weed waiting to get pulled out by a meticulous gardener? Is it as plentiful and ordinary as a grain of soil? Is it determined by fate or chance? Either way, someone with all the power of the universe in his fingertip, someone I imagine, who is desperately in need of a manicure completely hates me. He sits on a cloud and plays the wheel of fortune solely for my expense...
Who am I to think this way? I am so selfish. I am a monster. Why am I like this? This journey of self discovery, this mindset of self- entitlement, this fear of everything including myself is getting very old. Who can help me? My mind is as twisted as a vine.
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Extraordinary people survive under the most terrible circumstances and they become more extraordinary because of it.
- Robertson Davies
I'm not that extraordinary --yet.
JD
My favorite quotes are like a photo album of some of my favorite people.
One Art
by Elizabeth Bishop
The art of losing isn't hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day. Accept the fluster
of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant
to travel. None of these will bring disaster.
I lost my mother's watch. And look! my last, or
next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn't hard to master.
I lost two cities, lovely ones. And, vaster,
some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn't a disaster.
--Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture
I love) I shan't have lied. It's evident
the art of losing's not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.
“When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them.” - Marilyn Monroe
"I define nothing. Not beauty, not patriotism. I take each thing as it is, without prior rules about what it should be." -- Bob Dylan
"When you realize how perfect everything is you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky." -- Buddha
“Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free.” -- Jim Morrison
"L'amor che muove il sole a l'altre stelle." (The Love that moves the sun and the other stars.) -Dante Alighieri
“Tell the truth, tell the truth, tell the truth” - Sheryl Louise Moller
“God will never give you anything you can't handle, so don't stress.” - Kelly Clarkson
"“I never said I was a 'good girl.' I'm not a bad girl.” - Kelly Clarkson
"I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me." - God (Elizabeth Gilbert Eat, Pray, Love)
“Love is a disease of the heart...in the end, there is no treatment curable and it might just kill you.” - Betsey Johnson
“I am not interested in money. I just want to be wonderful.” - Marilyn Monroe
"I thought about one of my favorite Sufi poems, which says that God long ago drew a circle in the sand exactly around the spot where you are standing right now. I was never not coming here. This was never not going to happen." - Elizabeth Gilbert
"Attitude is Everything" - Diane von Furstenburg
"I'm kinda saving myself for Miley Cyrus." - Katy Perry
“I haven't seen the Eiffel Tower, Notre Dame, the Louvre. I haven't seen anything. I don't really care.” - Tyra Banks
“You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody else has a problem with it.” - Sex and the City
“I don't know what to do with my arms. It just makes me feel weird and I feel like people are looking at me and that makes me nervous.” - Tyra Banks
“I just want you to be yourself. Be a bigger yourself.” - Tyra Banks
Rihanna
"Success for me isn't a destination it's a journey. Everybody's working to get to the top but where is the top? It's all about working harder and getting better and moving up and up."
"People think, because we're young, we aren't complex, but that's not true. We deal with life and love and broken hearts in the same way a woman a few years older might."
6.16.08 5:22 PM
"The measure of a man is not by how many women he can make love to, but in how perfectly he can love just one woman."
~ William Shakespeare ~
5.30.08 8:00 PM
"You know what you've got? You have got a talent for love. You're like a love genius. And there are too many statues of generals and politicians, and there are not enough statues of someone like you. In this world, there is so much of what looks like love, and sounds like love, and calls itself love, but it isn't. It's just people saying and doing what they think they ought to say and do. And you, you, you, are the greatest." - Buddy Wittenborn from Evening the Movie.
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Diary Vault
11.6.0812:21 AM
Sitting in isolation I can make a difference
All alone is where I belong
I become iconic under the influence of me
The moment I step outside my steps become tainted with conformity
I have to find the strength to live out my destiny or I will wish forever
Eternally branded :
Potential
7.9.08. 1:42 AM
"Believe me", whispers the sky, "I am all around you".
3.15.08. 6:37 PM
Lyme Disease is no fun. There's hope though..and Strawberry Banana smoothies.
I decided to make a list of things I want to accomplish, and things that I like to do.
It's the simple things that matter, and 10 minutes of positive thinking is better than none at all.
3.12.08. 4:32 PM
I found some really good music on youtube yesterday. I always overplay a song right before it blows up. I torture myself, but here are some hot tracks.
Check out Asia Cruise. She's like an asian jojo, and she really has a thing for Black men LOL, but uh check out:
"Selfish"
"Boyfriend"
This other song is older and it probably won't get any more attention,but it's from Tynisha Keli.
"I Wish you Loved Me"
It shows you that soul is really from the heart.
PEACE.
3.10.08. 4:32 PM
Who am I in this life? What makes me so special? What do I deserve? Bad things happen to everyone. Why should it get better? Those who persevere, those who face death with a sparkle in their eye, and those who share their new found zest for life in the face of adversity are the heroes this life. I know they are. I see them everyday. It amazes me. A joyful spirit is more payback that anyone could hope for. It brightens a room, and lightens the heart. It's a level of maturity and enlightenment, a level of spirituality anyone would envy because its pure contentment with what God has given and a joy from within that can't be taken away. Someone asked me today what my aspirations were.
I stuttered, and I wanted to cry. I haven't thought of that in a while.
I can't lose sight of myself.
3.9.08 11:19 PM
"But if you get much closer, I could lose control."
I finally realized where that saying came from. Pat Benetar Forever!! lol
Love is a Battlefield.
I wish I could relate at this very moment, but I can't so I'll just pretend. lol LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD!!!
3.9.08 12:41 AM
Don't be afraid to take chances .
Who cares what people think .
It's your life . they're your beliefs . your thoughts . your words and you can't take them back . so don't . It's your dream-- not theirs . live it . tell a story with your actions .
:)
I saw your picture on a shelf yesterday
a withering flower
fallen grace
a bitter memory
I turned away
Someone said your name last night
a piercing dagger
silent laws
a broken shard
I laughed it off
You walked by me today
a racing bullet
a moment in time
gravity defied
a twinkle was in your eye
And now I believe in perfect timing.
3.4.08 5:37 PM
Be Yourself.
3.4.08 7:00 PM
"There are No Mistakes... Only Discoveries!" - Ellie Walsh
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing." - Helen Keller
"With every failure what I am really gaining are the tools I need to succeed." - Rita Losee
I'm giving it my all. There are no misakes. If I never give up,and I keep pushing eventually I will be unstoppable.
3.3.08 9:30 PM
I can't lie to myself. My body always tells the truth. It's also a fool proof relationship detector. ---- --- --- BEEP! Don't call me to mock me. Compassion is the only answer. I am a slave to my health but a master of my sanity. I am in control. Help me take a breath.
3.2.08. 5:26 PM
In order to understand me it would help to be able to read my mind. I have Lyme. Lyme doesn't have me. I am not a product of my experiences, but they are a big part of me. People I thought would never leave me left me, and people I learned to live without found their way back into my heart. It shows me that they never left, and that they're here to stay. I found a note on my doorstep, and a band-aid on my heart, and it shows me that everything comes back full circle. I just hope I'm a better person this time around.
1.25.08 12:04 AM
I'm beautiful.
I'm beautiful.
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I'm so gorgeous, and I love EVERYTHING about myself.
Nothing you say can change my mind.
write it until it sinks in?
Tackling my insecurity
1.19.08 2:45 AM (Ranting)
When life moves on sometimes I find yourself stuck in time.
I can't change people. I have to rise above and fulfill my dreams.
It's easy to be controlled by others, but it hinders my creativity.
I sat in my room rotting in bitterness. I couldn't understand it. I kept fighting it,but it wouldn't go away.
I couldn't write anything good.
Those were wounds prayer and time had to heal.
For me that means going to progressive medical every day, and facing my past.
(IVs,hyperbaric chambers, infrared saunas, medicine,sleeping, and scary tests)
School and all the things I want to do before I turn 18 will come, but they won't visit me in bed.
I'm being focused and disciplined.
There's something inside all of us, and the only way to achieve your goal is to
Find it.
Stay positive, blah.
Never give up... Duh.
It's easier said than done.
11.28.07 12:48 PM
11.27.07 2:13 PM
I am getting ready for a Kelly Clarkson Concert!!!
6:30 PM
I'll be able to HEAR HER BREATHE.
11.25.05. 1:31 AM

Just a couple more pages on my book tonight....I'm tired.
current song playing: "Beautiful" by: Christina Aguilera
11.16.07 9:44 PM
So i'm bored. I just had some kind of attack. I started screaming and then i started having tremors and all I want going through it is someone to tell me it's going to be okay even though it's all screwed up.
song currently playing : Nobody's home by:Avril Lavigne
yeah.
11.16.07 4:23 PM
It's so happy. It's kind of bittersweet,but it makes me picture something beautiful. It's rough around the edges,but if only it were true. I've had to write poems for a fanlit site by popular demand. It comes out easy for me--but i kind of miss writing like this.
I wish I had a reason to write things like this. I hope ya'll like it.
Journey
Take my hand and walk with me
down a winding road
It's okay
The breeze will warn me of tomorrow
Don't be afraid to let me in
Bleed the sunshine
Feel the wamth of my skin
The cliff will won't warn us of the danger ahead
But don't hesitate to love me
Tell me everything
If you don't quit on me the road will never end
We'll look back on happiness
And It'll always be worth it.
11.14.07 11:14 PM
Confusion. I'm so confused. I don't know where I am. It's so scary.
11.14.07 12:33 AM
I get to a point where I don't think I can get any lower and then I drop 10 feet.
11.11.07 4:48 AM edited 11.11.07. 6:23 PM
My dreams are like a shattered china doll
I look at the porcelain pieces laying lifeless on the floor
I'm afraid to touch them
My idealistic fantasy world is gone
There is no hope of putting it back together again
Who would hope to live a lie?
Why do I want to?
Why did I want to?
My dreams were crushed by reality
Fairy tales do not come true
Maybe I can find new dreams
Maybe I can pick a broken piece that stands out from the rubble and build a new beginning
But I don't know how
I don't want to know
The door is locked
I'll sit with my porcelain pieces
I'll gaze around at this disaster zone wondering what went wrong
I'll sit and look, but I won't touch anything
I can't
Maybe one day I'll know how the pieces fit
Maybe one day I'll be able to live up to my imagination
Right now I am broken hoping I'll find my way
♥
11.10.07. 11:27PM
I'm trying my hardest and I'm just not getting the results that i want.
I put in my all and get nothing.
I'm fighting.
I've been fighting.
11.5.07. 2:06 PM
It's my problems , my insecurities, and my screwedupness that is ruining my life. It's me.
11.4.07. 6:00 PM
It's not what I said that's keeping me away.
11.1.07. 10:15 PM
I was born Jacquelyn.
My friends call me Jackie.
The world will know me as Jady.

I already did. I should've been born in the 1950's without segregation and with an ipod.
I'm third generation baby.
My grandmother spent her whole life Chasing Princes.
I can still feel the effects of that three generations later.
Some Frogs are Princes and some Princes are Frogs in disguise.
The heart determines your status.
Wait for the Prince don't settle for the Frog. What looks better or what is better?
That is the question.