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Coquettish Mess

I am here for Friends and Networking

About Me

I have more flaws than strengths, but I don't really mind all that much, because thats how I rule my world. With flaws. I get really tired of everyone's defense mechanisms and insecurities. It makes me want to save them from the world, and from themselves, and I work so long and hard to be everyone's saving grace that I burn myself out. I have a fucking martyr complex. But I refuse to believe that everyone is out to get me, although I do believe that most people are just clusterfucks of emotions that are so tangled up, even they don't know where the emotions start or end. I'd give anything for anyone I don't think is a lost cause, and I hold some delusional hope for most people who probably are. And although all these things are so true about me, I somehow manage to keep myself from becoming a welcome mat. I'm really somethin' else.

My Interests

boys, reading, writing, Virgos, virgins, anomalies, life, tofu spring rolls, politics, kids, can openers, anti-free trade, less than three!, fake pearls, black lace, clue, heavy hearts and empty minds, death, low rise pants, soldering irons, sex, blue eyes, alone time, tree climbing, making trouble, theology, black eyeliner, philosophy of the human person, bejiners, crazy talk.

I'd like to meet:

"It's November 18th, and no wind, and no hope for heaven, and no want for heaven, for the meanest of people show more mercy than the hounding and terrorist gods."

Music:

Slayer!, Shai Hulud, Rilo Kiley, Fiona Apple, Dying Fetus, TV on the Radio, Edith Piaf, Alkaline Trio, The Crown, Stereo Total, Le Tigre, Ani Difranco, The Cure, Strike Anywhere, Thrice, Cypress Hill, Planes Mistaken for Stars, Gorelord, Rasputina, At the Gates, Mewithoutyou, Tommy Tutone, The Red Chord, The Gloria Record, The Postal Service

Movies:

Harold and Maude every other movie on the planet

Television:

I 3 Aqua Teen Hunger Force

Books:

The Wanting Seed, A Clockwork Orange, Inferno, The Fountainhead, We the Living, One Hundred Years of Solitude, The Alchemist, The Hanged Man, Invisible Monsters, The Autumn of the Patriarch, The Source, The Reader, Holy the Firm, The Kristin Lavransdatter Trilogy, Planets in Aspect, The Four Quartets, although that's more of a really long poem, poetry by Robert Frost, Elizabeth Bishop, Emily Dickinson, Kenneth Rexroth; and lots more modern poetry.

Heroes:

Anyone who uses the word "cunt" on a regular basis.

My Blog

Family Tree: Promoting healthy emotional development and growth in children and families.

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Posted by Coquettish Mess on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 06:40:00 PST

Maybe there is something more.

Thoughts are sometimes sticky like peanut butter.And humans are said to be ordering machines, but I just can't make sense of things lately.Sometimes I think about him, and loathe what we became. Indep...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Tue, 01 May 2007 06:59:00 PST

On train wrecks and planets.

A girl once told me that I decipher codes in people and in the world with accuracy and ease. And while I was distracted by drawings of cosmos on parking lot black tops, two men were making the memoria...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:05:00 PST

Je ne sais pas ou je vais.

Last night was rough. I drank a little too much with Diane. We were supposed to go to a party, but at the last minute she decided she wanted to play pool instead. We went to Slick Willies, and then en...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 07:55:00 PST

What a night.

Tonight was stupid. But that's alright, tomorrow will be better. Diane just decided to take a cigarette break, while breaking out the blow up mattress for Eugene. What a silly girl. I really need...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 12:34:00 PST

Jake the dog went on a jog.

It's true. Today after I got home from work, I took our new American Mastiff, Jake on a jog. He is such a good running partner. My mom found him at a shelter; he's supposed to weigh 200 pounds, but ri...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Fri, 02 Feb 2007 12:59:00 PST

It's already time for a vacation...

I think I want to go to Austin next weekend. Alex burned Blonde Redhead for me, and it seems like the perfect driving music. Especially for a late night drive to Austin. Isn't that terrible? It's onl...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Fri, 02 Feb 2007 10:22:00 PST

It has come to my attention....

That people think I'm inexperienced at life, and therefore, my opinion is invalid. In some circumstances, I can understand that if I have no experience with something, I can't possibly begin to tell s...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Thu, 01 Feb 2007 11:20:00 PST

Disappointment runs rampant.

I had to drop my two special ed classes. I didn't have the money to pay for them, and not only are these two offered only in the spring, but they're prerequitsite to everything else. I'd have to wait ...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Wed, 31 Jan 2007 02:34:00 PST

Am I that idealistic?

Am I that conservative? I called my mom and I just knew she had Mark staying with her. I hope he made the best steaks she's ever had, because I'm sure he'll end up smoking crack in her bedroom again, ...
Posted by Coquettish Mess on Tue, 30 Jan 2007 09:54:00 PST