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| April.30.09|
In truth, I miss you.
I'm not the same person. anymore.
Whos story is any different though(?)
I don't know them, I know me.
.mine is personal.
Though I cannot remember.
I store it in memory.
but cannot unlock it?
The pain builds up
but I cannot experience it?
Numb. I'm indifferent to it all now
The scars, all I ever know.
I don't feel the need to make any scenes.
I can't remember the last time I cried.
I don't argue. I won't fight.
If you cancel plans, I'll be just fine.
I don't feel the need to ask for help.
I can't remember the last time I tried.
I'm not wallowing in anything. I just see, life.
I still smile. I still laugh. I know beauty when I see it.
I let go of things that shouldn't be held on to.
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life
allows me to bleed. bleed.
I find it hard to fall asleep.
It hurts to breathe.
I'm okay with things not getting better.
I smile at tragedies.
I just go about my days,
doing small things.
Doesn't really need to be too big at all.
I'm not lonely. I'm loved endlessly. I'm beautiful.
Honestly. <3
What the hell is going on?
I ask myself this every day.
I'm out of my body, watching.
I rub my eyes, this cannot be happening.
Oh, it is. ...oh it is ?
UPDATE |May.02.09|
I am a complex little girl with
La Fonda's has become my favorite restaurant lately.
my sexual preference is not confined by any limits.(e.g race, gender) i have the capability of finding anyone attractive. I'm in arelationship. I have a fella. <3 I wanna roll with him, a hard pair we will be ;)
I'm an open minded person, so much it may just be unreal to you. Try me? share your soul with me.
Old Aged Gothic and Hip-hop culture is what I dip my feet into.
I desire nothing more than what I have.
Interracial Love is beautiful . ♥
The government has their own secrets, some people know those secrets.
I'm not into politics, but I do keep myself updated with the world.
And have my own views on the world.
Comedy is the lowest rated movie genre in my book. I'd rather be hurt or offended by a movie then laugh at one.
I don't have to beat any of you down, I'll wait for you to get whats coming; I'm as patient as death. If you got beef, just wanna let you know, I'm a vegetarian and I ain't fucking scared of you. ;) Kidding.
[ MONEY&GIFTS] do not appeal to me.
I genuinely do not like people who are prejudiced... basically prejudiced against (E.G) sexual orientation, race, sex, ethnicity and age. I dislike controlling cocky know-it-alls ]: People who actually try forcing their religion upon others. The too closed minded.
I'm into sleeping in the car. My reasons are left in the past.
I have a fetish for the smell and taste of weed. oh & cigarettes.
I have a tendency to lack feeling or emotion.
I like to think, so challenge my mind.
I usually read from bottom to top , back to front. Unusual? I think so.
I want to travel under the ocean.
I'd love someone to just BE and exist with me for eternity.
I love being in water in the dark.
I fall for flaws!! I enjoy walking. I enjoy parties though I don't like to party in random groups. I don't have "friends". I am "moved" by every day existence and the individuals swept away in events much bigger than they could ever hope to control or understand.
I love anime. I wish that FLCL would have continued with their show
I'm obsessed with the DARK. I hate the heat. I enjoy being alone.
I love music. especially instrumentals/beats. Fusing with the music . Morphing it into your body. it's extremely amazing. <3 ughhh.
I'm passive to just about everything. Although I put up a mean ass fight when I feel it's called for. My personality is bottomless.
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