Who am I?
My name is Jason.
First and foremost, I’m a hopeless romantic to the core. I believe in God and I don’t care what people think of me for what I hold very dear to my heart. I am no zealot though… I believe what I believe take it or leave it. I’ve been playing guitar for nearly 15 years now… music as been my life for so long I don’t know what else there is out side of that. I’ve worked as a guitar tech and stage manager for several different bands and have traveled back and forth across this country at least 40 – 50 times it seems. I’ve played in numerous bands, and toured with several of them nationally. I hope to someday soon start playing in a band again… hopefully that day comes soon.
I love to cook… I have recently moved back to Orlando to attend Orlando Culinary Academy. My dream would be to open my own Neo-Italian restaurant. When I work in a kitchen, I feel like life makes more sense than when I’m away from it. I love working under stress and I love being good at what I do.
I think too much… most of the time I feel like I have a million TV’s all turned to a different station in my head… and I’m trying to watch them all at the same time. Little things spark emotion in me. Emotion that I want to be a better man. Emotion that makes me melancholy. Emotion that makes me wish I felt more alive. My everyday struggle is to become more of the man that I wish to become. To be more like my dad… my hero. I’ve seen and done so many things in my short life thus far, but now my only focus is to be a real man.
Like I said … I’m a hopeless romantic. Most of the time I feel like I’m a drift in the middle of the lonesome sea praying for a change in the winds to send me off to my long lost love. I hope someday to find that princess of mine and rescue her and give her my heart.
I love adventure… I love excitement… I love being in the middle of everything. Then sometimes I just love to stare at the paint on the wall and go brain numb. Sometimes it just nice to sit on the couch and cuddle with someone and not say a word.
Bottom line… I’m a good guy with a good heart, but I make some dumb ass mistakes. Sometimes I’m too hard on myself for my little screw-ups, Sometimes I just let too much slide. But one thing is certain, I’m tired of people making assumptions of my character of my life and what I believe. I’m sick of being everyone’s fall guy and the guy who’s always there to try to put all the pieces back together. Most of all… I’m not your fucking party favor. Just be honest with me… and I’ll have your back no matter what.
The always ~ Lost Sailor
