The photos are from my youth, almost 16years ago to be precise so forgive the grainy appearence. Through trials and tribulations i have changed a great deal since then not only physically but more importantly spiritually.
Up until december 29th 1992 i was like most 18yr old hot blooded males. Sneakers, Chronic, Dancehall Vibes and of course girls.
I was blind by the adversary and bound by the flesh, i denied the existance of the creator and gloried in my Vanity little did i know................It was december 29th 1992, I attended a bankholiday venue at X.L.S nightclub in my hometown of Birmingham. Whilste in the dance a small scuffle broke out between 2 of my bredrins and 4 next mans. 1 of the 4 mans was frontin on my bredrins girl, it began by him asking her for a light. After she had given him the light he then began to chat her up.Obviously my friend weren't too pleased.................. Not wanting to highten the play unfolding I remained observant, up until the shoving began.The 4 rushed my bredrins into a corner so i put my drink down and stepped in. My soul purpose was to part the affray and nulify the incident, being so minor and pointless i simply told ? too juss chill. Two too's they diverted there attention to me. We tustled a little and then I fell to the ground, i remember trying to stand but for some reason i was unable, my left hand seemed to be really heavy and was not responding to my will, my leg also was very heavy, and i knew something was really wrong, i remember kissing my teeth out loud, you know when you just know..............I recall positioning myself on my right side and thinking my back was really warm.......................I had recieved 3 stab wounds to the back of my neck and 1 in between the shoulderblades. My spinal column had been damaged at C4 and T1, as a result, this had punctured my left lung and left me totally paralised down the whole of my leftside..............Two weeks into sustaining the injury my condition relapsed severely due to bleeding in the spinal chord. This left me totally paralysed from the neck down. The night of the relapse was a harrowing experience the pain from the bleeding in the spinal chord, was horrific. The paralysis set in gradually restricting the movement of my right hand side, which up until now had been fully functional. Immediately after my mobility had ceased my respiratory system rapidly declined. As my lungs began to sieze the doctor and nurses administered oxygen via ventilation by squeezing a small hand held balloon type device attached to a face mask..................My breath pattern went from a slow intake to a heavier pant, I remember thinking this is a waste of time, I knew I was not getting the amount of air I needed from this procedure and my mind began to drift from the whole episode unfolding.The light from the overhead bed lamp created a warm atmosphere, you know, like when you were young and you would look into the sun with your eyes closed and just found comfort in the red warmth.................
All my gasping and panting left me very tired, with my eyes closed I calmly considered withdrawing my effort at snatching these faint gasps, as I did I asked myself "shall I juss go to sleep"? Reasoning with myself I paused and then I heard "if I die now I wont see my daughter walking", who at the time was only 6months old, this voice was me. Immediately I then heard a quiet peaceful voice in this stillness say, "if you die now you will go to hell" I wasn't aware who had said this, but I knew it was true, so I began to comprehend I needed to once more gasp for the air no matter how faint.I would have and could have went to hell, up until this point I had chose to be an atheist, I had no fear of G-d or regard for him, I was LORD of my own life.Praise G-d for being with me that night.................Over the next few weeks I felt the power of G-d, in some would say the smallest of coincidences.Being unable to move meant a simple itch on my eyebrow or forehead would pose a major dilemma for me. I have lost sensation from my chest down so the remaining feeling is hyper sensitive, these itches would become more irritable the more nurses or family would scratch them, so I would ask god to stop the itching. By coincidence they would go. I was on 4 hourly observations due to a very high temperature, I would have ice packs placed beside me, fans, cold sponging downs, window ajar on the nights anything to relieve the temperature.On uncomfortable nights I would ask G-d to send breeze through the window. By coincidence cool breeze would come through the window to my joy.............................Then on another night I had a very high temperature of 104 degrees, it was as if I was in a scorching desert, Again they tried everything but to no avail, restless and bothered I called on G-d and asked for some water, "Please send me some water" I didn't want a drink I just needed to feel water, As soon as I had asked a minute particle of water landed on my cheek and QUOOSHHH! As it touched my face my entire being was cooled and quenched..........It wasn't a drop of rain because it had not been raining and it was roughly the size of a pin point, you could liken it more too fine spray.I was aware my previous requests had been answered by more than coincidences, but this assured me it was the power of G-d and he was real.A G-d I had never knew but in his mercy he had chose to know me. Some say extreme circumstance but I was extremely lost. Although challenging I give thanks, honour, and praise for my circumstance my G-d and my Saviour who are more than able to bring me through.1
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