You spotted me from across The Haunt at one of your shows and never saw my face again until that party in October. I say we hit it off right away and if it weren't for certain obstacles we would've been where we are sooner. Andrew, you're more than just my boyfriend... You're my stability. You're my balance. You're everything I'm not. Everything I'm probably lacking as a person. I can be my complete self around you and you'll just think it's funny or cute or both. You know my deepest secrets and you know why I feel like I'm the worst person alive but you still care about me anyway. You still make me feel practically perfect. You know my fears and my strengths. You give me the confidence I've been lacking for so long. I can safely say without any shade of doubt that I'd do anything for you if it made or kept you happy. And you really are everything to me. I know for a fact that I'm addicted to being with you because I don't feel quite like myself when I don't see you. And when I don't see you, I'm always thinking about you. And even after I've been with you for a whole day, the minute I don't see your face, I'm missing you. And I can't sleep hardly at night because I'm missing you. I'm most likely just addicted to you as a whole. I know your scent by heart and I always think I smell it from time to time which makes me miss you more when my brain realizes it's not you. I know exactly how your hair feels at my fingertips despite my failed sense of touch. Same with your cheek and jawline. I love our inside jokes and our moments where people probably think we're so cute it's gross, lol. I love the butterflies I always get when I'm around you, alone or with friends. I love how silly we are. You're wonderful and sweet and caring. And you know how to handle situations when I'm at my worst, which is something no one before could do. You kiss me like you mean it and I know for certain that it's real. I've known that since our first one, as sloppy and nervous as it was. You make me feel like I mean something, not just to you but maybe for this life. Like I'm not some worthless piece of shit. I was terrified of falling in love again because of all the hurt that emotion gave me. But it's not that way with you. And of course, once I let go of that fear, I fell hard and fast, but you were there to catch me. I gave you my heart with no regrets. Three words, eight letters, one meaning... I love you. <3
Chebon, you're my BEST friend. You've been there for me when no one else has. When everyone shunned me way back when, you made sure I knew you were still there. When people hated me, you stood by me. We've known each other for five years and we've never even fought ONCE. We've never been pissed at each other and we don't annoy each other. We have a million inside jokes that no one would understand and I wanna keep it that way. We're retarded when we're talking to each other and half the time we never make sense but it's ok because we never seem to care about that, lol. You're always there for me and you listen to everything I have to say whether I'm happy or pissed or hurt. We literally go together like cocaine and waffles, lol. SALAMANDER & TITTIES: BEST FUCKING FRIENDS FOREVER! <3
Down the rabbit hole & into Wonderland...
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