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crazi fuker!

About Me

Get Your Own! | View Slideshowwell....umm yea....im jac :)
i'm a walking talking contradiction to everything...i contradict my contradictions...constantly...if u dont like it...tough!
i like smileys...i use them 24/7
i'll do anything for anyone...i actually genuinely care about everyone...but fuck me over and ill be gone...
i was studyin accounting at tafe...but i got over it so bad that i gave up. but i have my diploma so it's not an entire waste, and i'm sure it will be useful for something. i've applied to study environmental science next yr at uni and im real excited and hoping i get in.
i have a lil boy...he's 4 now...he's adorable...he has taught me more in his 4 yrs than anyone else on this planet ever could...and i raise him the way i see fit fuckers so don't tell me what to do with him coz when push comes to shove, my son is happy healthy and loves his mum...so what anyone else thinks is worth jack squat to us!
ummm i like goin out and running a muck....I'm insane...but i think that's a good thing!....people who aren't crazy fuckers bore me to death!
and in my true contradictory style, there are times when ppl just shit me and i just wanna be left alone...so i kinda ignore ppl at times...dont take offence tho...everyone cops it the same :P
LOVE goin to concerts to see bands i like but never have the money for tix LOL so just goin to clubs i like is fun too :P
Kate, Jordz and I have just recently moved up to Brisbane...i've been wanting to move up there for so long that it's awesome to finally get it...wasn't counting o n the shit that happened because of...or just along with it???...but ya know...such is life and i know we'll get through it :P
im gay...if ya cant tell...and dont ask me how i have a child if im gay...its pretty obvious aint it! wot u think the way u conceive changes because of ur sexuality?? grow a brain cell or two! LMAO naa i dont mean to sound bitchy...im just yet to meet someone who doesnt ask that...
um im tryin to learn to play drums...one day ill get there :)
love muckin round on my skateboard...cant do any tricks or anything...but i dont really wanna...i just like the feelin of rollin along on it...
hate stereotypes...no body ever really fits em...so why are they so wide spread?? im just me..and thats all i wanna be..thats quite enough for me...LOL
i have been to hell and back over the past few years...and i cant make my scars dissapear...inside or out...and i dont know that i would want to cause it has all made me who i am. i have alot of people to thank for being alive and they all know who they are. LOVE YA'S!!
alot of things about me have changed since i've "gotten better" i look at things defferently, i have different ambitions, i just feel different and because of that i dont talk to my old mates much...guess we all just moved on...maybe it was just me...who knows LOL
i have craaaaaaaaazy mood swings...they fuckin suck...but i'm starting to realise they are just going to be a part of my life and i just have to learn to cope with them the best i can...
im doing pretty good again now...i still have ups and downs...but together as a family the three of us are getting through it all :D
im open and honest about everything...and i mean everything...and everyone...i dont beleev in secrets...coz the truth always comes out and it just hurts people more when they learn its been kept from them. People sometimes think because i tell em everything im a head case...but thats not tru...its just that i am honest about what i feel and if that changes im honest about that too.
hmmm everybody else's seemed so much more interesting...well anyways....if ya wanna ask me sumthin go ahead:D
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J A C J A C J A C J A C J A C J A C J A C J A C

My Interests

MUSIC!!! more specifically lyrics...words cant express things the way lyrics can. If you don't understand what that means...don't ask, basically music keeps me sane...i know thats such a cliche, but to me music is a part of my life, falling off my skateboard LOL, shoppin, meeting new crazy people, goin out dancing like a fool, and yea lots of other normal stuff i guess :P

I'd like to meet:

all the ppl from the bands i luv.....
possibly my dad....depends on the day tho :P
on this thing...anyone and everyone who is crazy and fun :D

The Ones I Am Currently Stalking...

My Beautiful Wife ♥

I Miss This Girl!!

Studley Mc Farland

The Hot Whore

My Crazy Cousin

The Most Amazing Girl I've Never Met

The Prettiest Less Messy Mess

The De-Messinator

The Adopted Sister

The Husband

The Funky Punker

The Ex....housemate HAHA

Click Here To Stalk Us Too...

Music:

ok so this list was getting old so thought id just make up a random playlist with shit i like in it...
at the moment tho, im listening mainly to something corporate, something with numbers, the red jumpsuit apparatus, amber pacific, the spill canvas, the distillers, pink!...and alot of other stuff too im sure LOL just random shit really :)

Movies:

schindlers list, raise your voice, exorcism or emily rose, GIRL INTERUPTED!!!...but honestly i dont watch movies that much

Television:

um i like l word...guess that goes wit being gay tho?? who knows LOL family guy is pretty wicked too (and jords likes it too LOL)....dunno what else.......my boy usually steals the tele at to put batman or justice league or spiderman or sumthin on....:)

Books:

ok i been reading a bit more so here some books i like...bloodletting by vistoria leatham or somethin...ive read it a million times now i think, my sisters keeper by jodi picoult, detour by lizzie simon, just random stuff...i like reading about ppl who go through hell and make it out the other side to tell the story...inspirational as corny as it sounds!

Heroes:

hmm ok lets update this one...well all my friends and family of course...but specifically...kate...my god girl...the shit u have seen...u were so innocent when we met...yet over two years later over the bumpiest road either of us has ever known we're here...together...i love u infinately xx
my girls...jess and taz...even tho i dont see u guys much anymore you guys held me up when i couldn't even see which way was up...and certainly couldn't walk it...
my mum..i hate her at times...but she really does help me out shitloads...im gonna be lost without her when she goes after xmas...
jordz...my lil dude...my mini man...my everything...the simple thought that you need me keeps me going through so much...and if just as a baby you can handle all my ups and downs then i know i have to be strong enough to make it thru for you...i might be a sucky mum at times...but i love you so much bubble...xxx
and everyone else...weird as it may seem Casey, Zoe, Pete...you guys help a shitload too...so thanks...xx

My Blog

this word...

FUCK
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 05:27:00 PST

it's calling my name again...

im not that bad so why...why...fucking why??do i wanna cut...i cant cut...i hurt everyone when i do it...and most of all im not that bad so im just doing it as a release...but then isnt it always? but...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 03:04:00 PST

stuff i guess

hey so i have the net back on and tho0ught i would blog...dunno what to say...so yea...hmmmmmmmmmm yea...so the dog has gone crazy coz she hasnt been walked...poor lil thing...i dont feel so good...i ...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 02:38:00 PST

enrolled...i think...

haha...i think i just enrolled in all my subjects and shit for uni...dunno if i did it right tho...will ask at orientation...yea im gonna be one of those geeks who go...figure i need all the help i ca...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 08:49:00 PST

i didn't lose my job!!!

hey all...just wanted to let you know that work rang today and i actually answered the phone and spoke to them (yes thats big for me...ive been avoiding them coz i thought id lost my job) anyways poin...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 01:27:00 PST

UNI!!!!!!!

just wanted to say....IM GOIN TO UNI!!! YEEE FUCKIN HAAAAND YES I AM CRAZY...BUT IN A NORMAL WAY TODAY lmao LOVE YOU FREAKS!!! XXXXXXXX...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 10:52:00 PST

writeing....oooh great spelling jac! make that WRITING

yea dunno wot to say coz im still kinda hyper...but thought i should write and say stuff...ummm havent been to work in ages...dont feel upto it...i knmoww how lazy and pathetic it sounds...but in comp...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 03:00:00 PST

that infection that causes you to get so lost....

argh! whats gotten into me!?!?! is it just coz i have jords back?? it cant be coz for one ive missed him like crazy...and more to the point...ive had daiq and been fine with her...is it coz i have the...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 02:16:00 PST

i think its time for a proper blog...

hmmm...so.....this is gonna be one of those blogs that make no sense and shit...but they help clear my head so yea....hmmm....thsi chair sucks balls...but anyway...so i found a way to explain stu...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Sat, 30 Dec 2006 04:30:00 PST

layers to a person...and no its not deep...its a survey :P

LAYER ONE: Spell your name with bands/artists J - jumpsuit...as in the red jumpsuit apparatus A - atreyu C - (this is harder than i thought!!) umm corporate...as in somethign corporate Q - oh come on...
Posted by xxBLEEDx4xYOUxx on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 10:08:00 PST