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Jennifer Lau
&& it's not that i dislike happy endings, it's that life often ends in tragedy
i don't handle life's troubles very well alone. and as much as i love my family, i turn to my friends. there's alot of puzzled faces when i talk to alot of you lately and i guess that's my own fault. i haven't been updating very much beside my blogs. so let me state a few new things, and the rest you'll just have to find out. i've learned finally that you can love a person and just leave it at that. no wants or needs just simply concern. i've learned that in life fairness never seems to be ruling, and tomorrows aren't promised. family doesn't need to have any blood relations or by laws. those we think we've known from the inside out may never stop surprising you. so live life like there's no tomorrow, don't wait for the perfect moment, come to your own future and escape destiny. all things set in motion can be defied so come on and take a little walk on the wild side ;D
i guess the only way to explain who i am and how i am is, i'm spiteful but oddly caring. i try to justify everything i do with a simple "i'm a gemini" quote. but when compared to other gemini's i guess that's not gonna work so well. so for those who know how to read a natal chart... i'm a gemini by sun, pisces by moon, mercury in gemini, venus in gemini, mars in pisces, jupiter in taurus, saturn in capricorn, uranus in sagittarius, neptune in capricorn, pluto in scorpio, chiron in gemini, and ascendant in capricorn. confuessed? don't worry about it. what it means is that i'm so flickle in so many aspects of my life that i'm not really just ONE person. i'm a gemini as listed in so many ways that i don't simply give off a vibe there everyone sees as a gemini, but alot of the values i stand by have double standards. i'm both a boy and a girl, the right and the wrong, the good and the bad, justice and revenge. becuase all of my major signs are so bunched up together, i feel very strongly about alot of things. in example, my taste in music. yea i love all of these genres to death, but so many don't understand that it's not that i can't stand it all the time, or i don't "like" it all the time. it's just there's nothing wrong to me to have a good mix of it all. mood does changes things but i love it all the same. religion... just like music, i believe and i don't believe. if i didn't have the wiccan and buddist in me, i wouldn't know my natal chart so well. if i weren't open to the idea of christ, i wouldn't be so worried about hell.
my rising sign being in capricorn makes a world's difference, not only do i give off the idea as a gemini the Hot and Cold effect found in Capricorn happens to be the biggest factor in my personality, motivations, and behaviors. i often present anomaly of being overconfident in some ways, and underconfident in others. positive one day and negative the next. for example, i can deal with a major problem (the most recent one: forcing myself out of my home so my sister can be with my dad in the court of law) thoroughly and decisively, but the next moment agonize about what dress to wear on a date. the root of the problem lies in my not being able to look at myself objectively and my tendency to underextimate my capabilities and achievements. my rising sign though is capricorn, should not be mistaken for those with capricorn as sun-sign. i'm more warm and caring in personal relationships and able to express emotions more freely. my attitude towards my partner is much more tender and loving.
does that explain more about me? i sure hope so. i guess when i say i'm a gemini after reading this alot of you will start calling me a liar. haha. but it should make more sense to you guys now. when i blame it as a gemini effect, or i should just start adding "capricorn in rising"
SHANNii SPOT
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