dreamsDreams are more than mere images flashing from unreal perspectives to heart racing attacks. They are more than experiencing visual emotions, as my life flashes from moment to moment in ways I could never have fathomed.Diving into the sunrise while sitting on a bicycle bar, while someone leans across my back riding me home toward the mid storm sky, as the air blows through my hair and tingles sensations awaken alive.The piddling rain washes down while singing in the bog, on someone who dares to dance to my off tune song. Climbing to the mountain top while showers overhead, slipping and sliding back down in spiral tumbles like a tumbleweed.Drinking tea after exhausting efforts to make boulder bridges while watching the river run wild in conjunction with our roaring laughter, and hiding in a haunted house for protection from the wild world outside.And I did see my phantom ghost. The ghost of old who turned my life into another dream. He was important though he slipped in and out before I was conscious. He was no longer present than a glimpse of an eye's twinkle, but I could feel him.I faced the nightmares while I was on the river, chasing, running, screaming, fighting, being chased, attacked and surrendering. From the playhouse, alleys, shops and back.I regained my tears and threw them away.... But one way to stop the nightmares is to face them. Sometimes they stop....
Sometimes they flow into another dream...
another state of mind...
reflection...
attitude...
and perception.Some fantasies nearly came true,; some developed into more.Huge mansions, comfy seating, the feeling of silk on skin,
treated like a queen who did not have to always be in control.I was told I'm a hard nut to crack,
but I think I'm just a nut.
Then again, that may imply I know no difference from dreams and reality.Before waking from this dream, I ran into my counterpart. They say you have a twin somewhere in this world, but I always thought this comment meant the other twin had to look like me..... I found this to be untrue.It's more difficult to match personality than looks. Blue eyes, blonde hair and fair skins are commonalties in life. When someone could read my thoughts, shake the hair wildly, scream and dance while building bridges to make it across a raging river, with no words exchanged........... that is what makes a precious metal or jewel contains the uniqueness that only exists in the realm of the mind and dreams.The appreciation I had in her, I found in myself. We did some crazy things and learned important lessons in trust and life, and yet we grew only to face more of those glimpses of reality or dreams.Who knows if I’ll ever tell the difference... maybe I won't try for once.Just sit back, enjoy the show of falling stars, and expect the best.I deserve it, I may not always get it,
but I deserve it.Remember the picture.¬Stunner
loves: traveling, rain, night, driving, movies, billiards, swimming, dancing, cycling, fishing, reading, watching the sunset, curling up in a blanket out of the dryer, laughing, working, and visiting those with pets, and visiting those with a good heart.
detests: wankers, druggies, posers, liars, extreme heat, wannabes, narrowminded political asses, well, you get the jist.
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Your Values Profile
Loyalty:
You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.
Honesty:
You value honesty a fair amount.
You're honest when you can be, but you aren't a stickler for it.
If a little white lie will make a situation more comfortable, you'll go for it.
In the end, you mostly care about "situational integrity."
Generosity:
You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!
Humility:
You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.
Tolerance:
You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.
The Five Factor Values Test
