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If I never wake in the morning, will he ever doubt the way I feel about him in my heart? If tomorrow

About Me


The name's Jessyca. But you can call me Luci.
these are my
I'll Wait For You
No matter how many times I say I will,
I know I'll never give up on love.
No matter how many times I get broken,
I'll still have an open heart and mind.
I know that you are somewhere...
and I know you're waiting too.
That's why I need to say this:
my love, I'll wait for you.
I know you'll make me happy.
I know you'll keep me sane.
I know you'll keep me in your heart,
and make me feel beautiful in every way.
You'll be the one everyone will envy,
and everyone will envy me too.
Because every morning as I wake,
I'll wake up next to you.
I'll be happy just to have you,
and you'll be my entire world.
I know I say I'm giving up,
but everyone knows it isn't true.
I couldn't ever stop my heart
because that would hurt you too.
I know you're out there somewhere;
and darling, I shall wait for you.
~28 November 2006

My Interests



first and foremost,

She's been there for me through everything she's known, and I can't imagine having another woman as my mom.

She is

strong,
beautiful,
patient,
loving,
a listener,
understanding,
brilliant,
and we-ell...
practically perfect.

I'm so grateful to have her, and so thankful that we have a relationship many mothers/daughters don't have.

I love you mommy....

I’m into pretty much anything…
-music
-entertainment
-writing
-unusual
-history
-random
-silly

I love
F-R-I-E-N-D-S
The Breakfast Club
A Walk To Remember
Harry Potter
The Twilight series (Stephenie Meyer)
The Cranberries
The Killers
Cat Power
the color pink
A Raisin In The Sun

I'd like to meet:

I see everyone put JESUS here, but uhh.... I already met my Jesus, and we hang out....♥
I'd love for that same Jesus to place a person in my life who is perfect for me. no, I didn't say perfect. I said perfect for me. someone who will hold me when I'm sad... who will play with my hair. who will come and visit me just for the sake of being there. someone to laugh with who also tolerates me when I cry. someone who loves music and doesn't quite care how often I decide to color my hair. someone who isn't afraid to ♥kiss♥ me just to make me shut up because I've been rambling too long. someone who isn't ashamed to claim me to more than just their closest friends and family.

Music:

♥30 Seconds to Mars♥
A-Teens
♥The Academy Is…♥
Acceptance
♥ACDC♥
Adema
♥Aerosmith♥
AFI
♥Aiden♥
Akon
♥Alana Grace♥
Alanis Morisette
♥Alicia Keys♥
Alison Krauss
♥The All-American Rejects♥
Allister
♥Aly & AJ♥
American Hi-Fi
♥Anna Nalick♥
Aretha Franklin
♥Ashlee Simpson♥
Ashley Parker Angel
♥ATC♥
Atreyu
♥Avenue D♥
Avril Lavigne
♥B*Witched♥
Barenaked Ladies
♥The Beach Boys♥
Beastie Boys
♥The Beatles♥
Ben Folds Five
♥Bette Midler♥
Beyonce
♥Bikini Kill♥
Billie Holiday
♥Black Eyed Peas♥
Blake Shelton
♥Blink-182♥
Blondie
♥Blue October♥
Bone Thugs N Harmony
♥Boomkat♥
Bow Wow Wow
♥Bowling for Soup♥
Boxcar Racer
♥Boyz II Men♥
Boys Like Girls
♥The Bravery♥
Bright Eyes
♥Britney Spears♥
Buckcherry
♥Bullet For My Valentine♥
Byron Cage
♥The Calling♥
Cansei de Ser Sexy
♥Canton Jones♥
The Cardigans
♥Carly Simon♥
Carrie Underwood
♥Cartel♥
Cascada
♥Casting Crowns♥
Cauterize
♥Celine Dion♥
Charlotte Church
♥Cheap Trick♥
Chris Brown
♥Christina Aguilera♥
Ciara
♥City High♥
The Click Five
♥Cold♥
Coldplay
♥Corrine Bailey Rae♥
Counting Crows
♥Coyote Shivers♥
The Cranberries
♥Crash Text Dummies♥
Crazy Town
♥Creed♥
Creedence Clearwater Revival
♥Crime Mob♥
Crossfade
♥Cute Is What We Aim For♥
Cyndi Lauper
♥Daniel Bedingfield♥
Daniel Powter
♥Danity Kane♥
Dashboard Confessional
♥The Dave Matthews Band♥
DC Talk
♥Deana Carter♥
Deep Blue Something
♥Def Leppard♥
Destiny’s Child
♥DHT♥
Disturbed
♥Dixie Chicks♥
The Donnas
♥Drowning Pool♥
The Eagles
♥The Early November♥
Edwin McCain
♥Element Eighty♥
Elton John
♥Evanescence♥
Fall Out Boy
♥Fannypack♥
Feeling Left Out
♥Fergie♥
Fightstar
♥The Films♥
Five For Fighting
♥Five Times August♥
Fleetwood Mac
♥Flyleaf♥
Fort Minor
♥Fountains of Wayne♥
Frank Sinatra
♥The Fray♥
Fred Hammond
♥From First To Last♥
Fuel
♥Funeral For A Friend♥
Garbage
♥Gary Jules♥
George Benson
♥Gin Blossoms♥
Ginger Sling
♥Gloria Gaynor♥
Gnarls Barkley
♥The GooGoo Dolls♥
Good Charlotte
♥Green Day♥
Guns N Roses
♥Gwen Stefani♥
Gym Class Heros
♥Hawk Nelson♥
Hawthorne Heights
♥hellogoodbye♥
Hidden in Plain View
♥Hilary Duff♥
Hinder
♥Hoku♥
Holly Brook
♥Hollywood Undead♥
Honeycut
♥Hoobastank♥
Horrorpops
♥Hot Hot Heat♥
The Hush Sound
♥Imogen Heap♥
Incubus
♥Israel and the New Breed♥
J Moss
♥Jack Johnson♥
James Blunt
♥JamisonParker♥
Jars of Clay
♥Jason Mraz♥
Jessica Simpson
♥Jewel♥
Jimmy Eat World
♥Joanna Pacitti♥
John Mayer
♥JoJo♥
Josh Groban
♥Josh Kelley♥
The Judds
♥Judy Garland♥
Katy Rose
♥Kelly Clarkson♥
Keyshia Cole
♥Khia♥
The Killers
♥Kimberley Locke♥
Kings of Convenience
♥Kirk Franklin♥
Kylie Minogue
♥Lauryn Hill♥
Leslie Gore
♥Letters to Cleo♥
Lifehouse
♥Lindsay Lohan♥
Linkin Park
♥Liz Phair♥
Love Spirit Love
♥Lustra♥
Lyfe Jennings
♥Lynyrd Skynyrd♥
M2M
♥Mandy Moore♥
Manhatten Transfer
♥Marcy Playground♥
Mariah Carey
♥Marilyn Monroe♥
Maroon 5
♥Marvin Gaye♥
Mary J. Blige
♥Mary Mary♥
Matchbox Twenty
♥Mates of State♥
Maxeen
♥Mazzy Star♥
Michael Buble
♥Michelle Branch♥
The Mighty Mighty Bosstones
♥The Moldy Peaches♥
Monica
♥Motion City Soundtrack♥
MxPx
♥My Chemical Romance♥
Natalie Cole
♥Natasha Bedingfield♥
Nelly Furtado
♥New Found Glory♥
New Radicals
♥Newsboys♥
Nickelback
♥Nightmare of You♥
Nine Days
♥Nine Inch Nails♥
Nirvana
♥No Doubt♥
No Secrets
♥NOFX♥
Novaspace
♥Oasis♥
October Fall
♥The Offspring♥
OK Go
♥Our Lady Peace♥
Pack
♥Panic! At the Disco♥
Papa Roach
♥Paramore♥
Paris Hilton
♥Pat Benatar♥
Peaches
♥Peaches & Herb♥
Phil Collins
♥Pink♥
Pink Floyd
♥Plain White T’s♥
Play Radio Play
♥Plumb♥
Pretty Ricky
♥Punchline♥
Pussycat Dolls
♥Queen♥
Quietdrive
♥R.E.M.♥
Rachel Yamagata
♥The Ramones♥
Rascal Flatts
♥Red Hot Chili Peppers♥
Rehab
♥Relient K♥
The Replacements
♥Rihanna♥
Rise Against
♥Rock Kills Kid♥
Rockett Queen
♥Rolling Stones♥
Ross Parsley
♥Rufus Wainwright♥
Ryan Cabrera
♥S Club 7♥
Saliva
♥Samantha Ronson♥
Sarah Brightman
♥Savage Garden♥
Saving Jane
♥Shinedown♥
The Shins
♥Silverstein♥
Simple Plan
♥Sister Hazel♥
Smash Mouth
♥Snow Patrol♥
Social Distortion
♥Something Corporate♥
Staind
♥The Starting Line♥
Stefy
♥Stix♥
Stone Sour
♥Stone Temple Pilots♥
Story of the Year
♥Sugarcult♥
Switchfoot
♥System of a Down♥
T-Pain
♥Taking Back Sunday♥
Tamia
♥Tatu♥
Taylor Swift
♥Third Day♥
Third Eye Blind
♥This Providence♥
Three Days Grace
♥Three Doors Down♥
Train
♥Trapt♥
Trick Daddy
♥Trillville♥
U2
♥The Used♥
Usher
♥Van Halen♥
Vanessa Carlton
♥The Veronicas♥
Virtue
♥Weezer♥
White Hassle
♥Whitney Houston♥
Widespread Panic

These are the lyrics for my profile song::

Though i'm young and cynical
That's not my only crime
I've been stealing all your cigarettes
To save another dime
In case you haven't noticed i just gave them all away

Tell me what do you think of me now
That i've traded all my armor for a crown
Come on what do you do with me now
That i've taken down the mirror on the wall
And the sweet rain is ready to fall
Giving it up for you

Well i take a lot of medicine
I don't really need
I was drinking at eleven
Getting high at seventeen
So now i don't appreciate the taste of expensive bitter wine

Tell me what do you think of me now
That i've traded all my armor for a crown
Come on what do you do with me now
That i've taken down the mirror on the wall
And the sweet rain is ready to fall
Giving it up for you

Take your aim like artemis
And kill another dove
But when your heart becomes a hunter
You may wound your chance to love

Movies:

10 Things I Hate About You
13 Going On 30
50 First Dates
A Beautiful Mind
A Cinderella Story
A Walk to Remember
An American Haunting
Beaches
Big Fish
Breakfast At Tiffany’s
Breakfast Club
Brokeback Mountain
Butterfly Effect
Chicago
Cinderella
Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen
Corpse Bride
Crash
Crazy/Beautiful
CrossRoads
Dead Poet’s Society
Deliver Us From Eva
Dirty Dancing
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Drumline
Edward Scissorhands
Elizabethtown
Empire Records
Eurotrip
Ever After
Finding Neverland
First Wives Club
Forrest Gump
Fried Green Tomatoes
Girl, Interrupted
Gone With the Wind
Grease
High School Musical
Hitch
Hotel Rwanda
How To Deal
How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days
Ice Princess
In Her Shoes
It’s A Wonderful Life
John Tucker Must Die
Just Friends
Just Married
King Kong
Legally Blonde
Lilo and Stitch
Match Point
Mean Girls
Memoirs of a Geisha
Mona Lisa Smile
Moulin Rouge
My Best Friend’s Wedding
My Girl
Nacho Libre
Napolean Dynamite
Nightmare Before Christmas
Over the Hedge
Pay It Forward
Pearl Harbor
Phantom of the Opera
Pirates of the Caribbean
Pretty in Pink
Pretty Woman
Princess Diaries
Raise Your Voice
Rent
Riding in Cars with Boys
Romeo & Juliet
Saved!
Secret Window
She’s the Man
Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
Sleeping Beauty
Sleepless in Seattle
Sleepy Hollow
Take the Lead
The Da Vinci Code
The Devil Wears Prada
The Green Mile
The Lakehouse
The Little Mermaid
The Longest Yard
The Notebook
The Shawshank Redemption
The Virgin Suicides
The Wedding Planner
The Wizard of Oz
Titanic
Tristan & Isolde
Troy
V for Vendetta
Walk the Line
What’s Eating Gilbert Grape?
While You Were Sleeping
Wicker Park
Yours, Mine, and Ours

Television:

♥FRIENDS♥
I Love Lucy
I Dream of Jeanie
Charmed
Parental Control
Supernatural

Books:

A Bend In The Road
♥A Raisin In The Sun♥
A Separate Peace
♥A Walk To Remember♥
Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl
♥Anthem♥
Are You There God? It’s Me, Margaret
♥Black Like Me♥
For Colored Girls…
♥Go Ask Alice♥
Great Expectations
♥Great Gatsby♥
Harry Potter
♥Heart Of Darkness♥
Kaiffer Boy
♥Message In A Bottle♥
Night
♥Number the Stars♥
Romeo & Juliet
♥Soldier Boys♥
Stargirl
♥The Chronicles of Narnia♥
The Fountainhead
♥The Glass Menagerie♥
The Hiding Place
♥The Notebook♥
The Scarlet Letter
♥The Wedding♥
Their Eyes Were Watching God
♥To Kill A Mockingbird♥
Without You

Heroes:

♥♥my sister.♥♥
(¯`·._.·[Lady Delia Knox.]·._.·´¯)
~*´¨¯¨`*·~Tina.~*´¨¯¨`*·~
¸.´)(`·[Shondra.]·´)(` .¸
··.·´¯`·)»Marilyn Monroe.«(·´¯`·.··
(¯`·._)Condeleezza Rice.(¯`·._)
oº°§Shirley Temple Black.§°ºo
my friends are my fucking life!
I love them with all of my being.
I owe my life to four girls who have been there for me through everything.
My Ewica
I joe you, my darling. You are my world.
My Juci
You are the best friend any girl could ever ask for. You've been there with me through... well, everything, including hell. I effin love you! I less than four you!
Ella Ahryn
I know I don't always speak up and tell you everything, but from what you do know, you help me through everything. I'd die without you!
My MizzLyss
You are an amazing person, and I am so glad we met here at Valley! I really don't know however I would survive without you, or how I would have survived if I hadn't met you. You are my darling negative, and I'm so lucky to have you as a soror!

My Blog

~A Prayer, In Remembrance~

Heavenly Father,One of Your daughters came running into our arms this morning. Sometimes life isn't as it seems... but, it's as Bishop Knox say, 'life is defined by the unexpected.' No one expected to...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Tue, 09 May 2006 04:18:00 PST

~for psychology...~

we had to write a poem/song about an abnormal behavior... and I chose to write a poem about hypochondriasis (the feeling of having deadly symptoms of illness/always being sick where minor or no sympto...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Wed, 26 Apr 2006 04:40:00 PST

~just craaaaaazy~

ever wonder what life would be like if it were possible to reproduce without members of the opposite sex?.... i get so frustrated with guys sometimes... especially when one becomes so helplessly ...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Thu, 20 Apr 2006 08:25:00 PST

~~Tell Me~~

Tell me,why is it I should miss youwhen I hardly know you at all?I'm not saying you're not worth it-because-for certain-yes, you are-I just don't get just what it isabout you that's drawing me to you....
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Wed, 22 Feb 2006 07:43:00 PST

~*two cartwheels* woot woot!~

so, for anyone who isn't quite sure, *two cartwheels* woot! woot! is Jessyca-speak for OMG I'm SO freakin EXCITED! and this is why... last night I got a phone call from my counselor at Mississippi Val...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Thu, 13 Apr 2006 08:27:00 PST

~for my mother~

Yesterday I was in my mother,left in the care of the hands belonging to her.Yesterday I was six months old,taking my first steps.Yesterday I was five:she cried on my first day of school.Yest...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Fri, 17 Mar 2006 06:42:00 PST

~untitled~

Did you ever go and make a stupid mistake?Did you ever your own heart not knowingly break?When I thought I was making the best decision,I cut open my heart and tore at the incision.If only I know then...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Sun, 26 Feb 2006 09:45:00 PST

~*At Last*~

The time has come, has come at lastfor me to take my chanceat growing up to what I am,to see who I shall be.Though I may have to leave behindmy friends I love the most,someday to my home I'll return:p...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Thu, 19 Jan 2006 02:33:00 PST

old but one of my favorites...

Touch not your finger to my face.Don't circle your arms around my waist.Careful how you treat me, please...I'm not fond of being teased.I'll hold you at a distance'til your face I learn to trust.I don...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Sat, 07 Jan 2006 07:49:00 PST

~My 2005~

I sit here and take a look back at this year.... and this is what I see....1.) I made it through depression, with the help of my friends, and it's strenthened my relationship with God.2.) I've determi...
Posted by Actual Reality! Act up! Fight AIDS! on Sun, 01 Jan 2006 10:09:00 PST