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About Me


My life is always changing. Just when I get a handle on things and get comfortable with a situation, everything shifts. I am always learning things about life and love and friendship. I've lived a lot, seen a lot, and learned a lot; don't under-estimate me. I love to help people, and I love to listen. I love to write {anything}, and read {all the time}. I love vocabulary! I love learning and thinking. I talk to myself and have conversations with myself out loud. I'm a natural born pessimist, trying to convert to optimisst. But let me tell you it is not easy, and the road is not smooth. It's hard when pessimism runs through your veins, relapse is inevitable. But I AM optimistic about becoming LESS pessimistic. It's in my nature to be blatantly sarcastic and tease. I believe in second chances and long-lasting romances. I am very opinionated. I love God, it's conformed religious hypocrites that I can't stand. I am a hard girl to get to know. {You are never going to truly know me, and that is why you will try so damn hard.} I live my life the way I see fit and nobody can fault me for that except God himself. P.S. Éí 'AaníígÓÓ 'Áhoot'é




My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I need to be more social. I would love to meet some easy-going people, minus the drama please."I want people to be afraid of how much they love me." - Steve Carell"I want to push a button and install suicide in my brain, instant death guaranteed, no bad downloads allowed, no refund." -Danielle Dela Cruz

My Blog

"Chances are something you don't take when you're lost."

I wish I had some way to stop-to stop going places I don't want to go to. Places with too many surprises. Places I don't know my way around.I want to be six years old again-just for one day. It's not ...
Posted by on Mon, 18 May 2009 21:49:00 GMT

This one's for you.

"No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people.Oftentimes, we have no clue.Yet we push it just the same."
Posted by on Sun, 17 May 2009 23:51:00 GMT

Who says I don't see myself clearly?

To hell with not seeing myself clear. I see myself crystal clear, I am apparently the only one who can. If it was not for my flaws, my numerous flaws, maybe I would have the good things in life that I...
Posted by on Tue, 21 Apr 2009 13:00:00 GMT

I am refusing to let myself hold my head uinderwater and drown.

I am NOT going to let myself fuck everything up.  I am NOT going to let myself lose eveyone in my life.  I am NOT going to give up on school and life.  I AM going to be there for all the people I love...
Posted by on Thu, 19 Mar 2009 00:00:00 GMT

Losing my footing, throwing it all away due to crazed compulsions?

I am resorting to ridiculous measures, ridiculous for me. I am stronger than this. I, who could stare it in the face and say no, have resorted to being the seeker. I am in a constant state of lost. I ...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Mar 2009 03:40:00 GMT

A flood of mental obscurity.

So this is it, an update, a flood of my mentality, a long ramble composed of basically nothing.I am hungry for new experiences. I want to do things I thought I was done with, and things I never really...
Posted by on Fri, 13 Mar 2009 00:28:00 GMT

To My Love, To My Elyce...

I am treading many emotions at once, I'm trying not to let them overtake me. I would like to avoid drowning in them all. So much guilt, anger, frustration, fear, so so much fear. I'm not sure what to ...
Posted by on Sun, 25 Jan 2009 21:00:00 GMT

Human Sickness

I am sick of taking things for granted. We all do it, we underappreciate life and the things we are given. I have come to learn that anyhitng can change at a moment's notice, we can lose things we alw...
Posted by on Tue, 06 Jan 2009 22:06:00 GMT

Remember?

Do you remember all of the things we said; about each other, to each other? Do you remember lifting me higher and higher? Did you mean it like I did? Do you mean it now? Will you say it now? I know yo...
Posted by on Sun, 07 Dec 2008 08:41:00 GMT

Just call me selfish and unrealistic.

I want unconditional love. I want total forgiveness. I want to not have to jump through hoops. I want reasurance. I want positivity. I want to be held. I want some one to say I am beautiful and mean i...
Posted by on Wed, 05 Nov 2008 07:38:00 GMT