runt

I think I'll go out an embarrass myself
by getting drunk and falling down in the street.
You say I choose sadness
that it never once has chosen me.
Maybe you're right...
And I can hate your girl
I can tell you she's real pretty
I can take my clothes off
I cannot fall in love
My name is hannah, i am a 21year old university drop-out. it saddens me now that im officialy a grown up i should probably stop chasing younger boys. i work as a barmaid in an irish pub yet i'm not irish. i'm still waiting to wake up knowing what i want to be. i still get ID-ed buying lottery tickets yet always believe i'm going to win. i smoke when i want to and enjoy quitting for days at a time because i can. i recently decided to switch cider for vodka for a lower calorie experience which i rarely remember. i have some of the most amazing friends in the world and have a song that reminds me of each of them. i find people who spit in public repulsive. i fall in lust easily as everyone loves having a crush. i hate snow but i love the kind of rain which soaks you through in a second. i put soy sauce on everything and drink peppermint tea like i'd die without it. my bedroom is the biggest shit tip you will ever see yet i know where everything is. i appreciate other women's attractiveness yet i am not a lesbian. i say 'bollocks' too much and call people a 'div' in an affectionate manner. i enjoy painting my nails in stupid colours and making jewellery out of sweets. i'm the captain of a pool team but only play well when drunk or dressed like a slut. i hate perverts, except when they are attractive. i hate skinny girls yet want to be one. i'm shit at remembering people's names yet i know the names of my future children. i have been to a hairdressers once in eight years and used to play the trumpet as a child. i enjoy trampolining whilst watching hollyoaks, waking up when i want to and fighting with my gay dog levi...