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I am just me...good, bad...ugly. Like me? Awesome. Dont like me..well thats fucking awesome too.
I’m really not all that hard to understand. I believe in honesty and treating people the way you want to be treated and I live by this. I am usually a very friendly person. I'm not perfect and have no problems admitting that. I love to have fun, and do so every chance I can. I have many different interests and I am always wanting to experience new things. If you want to know more about me, keep reading.
I’m relatively confident, but at the same time I’m scared of failure. I don’t ever pretend to be something I’m not. I try my hardest to do whatever I say I will do. It doesn’t always work out and I become a victim of circumstance, but that’s usually a rarity. I am a perfectionist, and have always been that way. I like things to be "right" and will not stop until I deem it to be. I really don’t like leaving something partially finished either, it bothers me....I guess that part of the perfectionist in me. I take pride in everything I do and make every effort to show this. I am a fairly generous person, and would do virtually anything for my family and friends.
I tend to over think and over analyze everything, no matter how minor. It can drive me crazy sometimes, and makes the simplest task excruciatingly difficult. it can also be helpful though as the minute details rarely get by and that can make all the difference in the world.
Sometimes, I let the little things get to me but I am really trying to change that. I can be a bit jealous; I am working on this too. I have been through more than my share of bad relationships and I suppose I can account some of these issues to that. I really try not to hold the mistakes of others against anyone else, but it’s really hard to trust someone fully after having been through so much in the not so distant past. I have no problem admitting my faults, and addressing them. I am doing what I can to work through them, that’s all I can honestly do. I usually treat people the way I would expect them to treat me. I said usually, not always as I can be an asshole sometimes, I’m sorry. People sometimes misunderstand my words, my actions, my gestures, my facial expressions. I can’t help that. I don’t always smile, but that doesn’t mean I’m angry all the time. My mind is usually over active, and will sometimes interpret things in strange ways of which I will ponder way more than I should. This usually causes problems, and again I am really trying to control it as much as I can. I definitely tend to think quite a bit, probably too much. So much in fact it causes me many sleepless nights. For whatever reason my mind is always in high gear by the time I go to bed. This makes it nearly impossible to fall asleep. I have sometimes gone for months at time on very minimal sleep due to this. That of course makes me kind of moody.
I can be really irritable sometimes. The lack of sleep, lack of food, lack of attention from those I care the most about, lack of racing, lack of sunlight, lack of being outdoors and being active all contribute to an irritable Brian. I am not usually one to keep feelings inside. You will usually know whether I like you, or have a problem with you.
I am a [HUGE] smartass. I will be at nearly every given opportunity (given its the right situation) and I will enjoy doing so. Don’t take it personally though, it’s all in fun. I like to laugh and love making others smile and laugh. While I definitely joke a lot, I also take some things seriously, sometimes way too seriously. I really don’t know why, but I wish I did.
I like LOVE to drag race, be it on the track or the street. I love fast cars, regardless of make or model. I prefer Ford. They all take a lot of time, effort, money, more time, and lots of creativity and I can appreciate that. I don’t go to the track to watch, I go to race, to tune, or to help friends. I’m not much on being just a spectator, although I do like to watch sometimes. I like to be in the action too much. I like to work on my cars, and help other people with theirs, but I would not want to do it for a living.
I like LOVE most kinds of music, but I’m not the biggest country fan. You can thank my father for that. I like music to be loud. I like going to see good bands play, especially local bands. I enjoy supporting them as much as I can. It’s amazing the amount of kick ass talent there is locally. I like to go to clubs, be it in DC, Baltimore, or just somewhere close to home. I like to dance. If you have ever gone to a club with me, you probably know this all too well. I am kind of crazy, that’s just me, and it’s all in the name of fun. I like to drink, but I’m not an alcoholic by any means. I don’t act very different when I’m drunk than I do when I’m sober and that kind of scares me.
I don’t watch much TV, and I never have, and don’t really plan to become a couch potato anytime soon. I enjoy watching a good movie with great company, but you will not usually find me watching one alone. I really don’t like doing much alone and hope that someday I can find a great person to share my life with. I love to be actively doing something, it doesn’t matter what it is really. I love the beach, I love the waterfront, but I’m not big on swimming. Strange, I know but hey that’s me. I never wear shorts, and don’t ask me why because I don’t know. I don’t wear white shoes, ever. I also do not wear hats, and rarely wear a jacket.
I like all kinds of food....well many kinds. I don’t like PB&J sammiches, and I don’t like fish either. I like my steak cooked medium. I love vegetables, and try to eat as much of them as I can. I have never really cared about how bad the food I ate was for me until recently. I try to eat healthier as much as I can now. I have never been one to hit the gym on a regular basis, but I workout more now than I ever have, and it makes me feel GREAT!
I like road trips. I like seeing things I’ve never seen before. I do things randomly most of the time, I like being spontaneous. I tend to procrastinate frequently, and I hate that. I used to cook in a restaurant, but I always eat out now and can’t even cook popcorn in the microwave without burning it to a crisp….Weird.
I have had lots of different jobs because I like learning new skills and I can get bored with something rather quickly once it’s no longer challenging. I love the career I am in now though and I think I will stick with it. There are so many things to do and to learn that if one thing gets boring there is always something else in the field to do. I love working in a military environment, the people I work with are about as great as one could ask, there is definiately some pressure but I really dont mind it....I like it sometimes actually.
I've never been to a NFL, NBA, or NHL game. I've never been to a NHRA or IHRA event. I've never been to a NASCAR race. I've never been to a major label artist’s concert. I've never been any further west than Chicago, and never left the Continental United States. There are many many things I have never done or experienced, but I would really love to get to do all of it, especially with the right person.
I love animals, sometimes more than people. I used to have four dogs, and I miss them A LOT. I like to take pictures, and it doesn’t really matter what the subject is. Just random stuff is fine, something interesting, obscure, friends, random people, whatever. I like editing and creating new pictures in Photoshop. I made most if not all of the pictures on my page in Photoshop. So I guess I am somewhat creative. I have my days when I feel it, while other days I get nothing. Maybe it’s just putting my overactive mind to good use.
I don’t drink coffee, I don’t smoke cigarettes, I don’t do drugs. I never have, I don’t plan ..ing. I am plenty crazy on my own; I don’t need any substances to make me that way.
So if you have managed to make it through all of that, you should at least have a better understanding of me. If there is something you would like to know that's not stated here, please feel free to ask.
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