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About Me

Some say my strength is my weakness... but I know that what pains me the most, will ultimately be what leads to my survival. I am a deeply wounded individual. My journey has been long and trying. Through all of my trials I have always remained on the positive side of my own darkness. I am not an easy spirit to swallow... I am deep, and intense. In the past, my passion has both motivated me... and, left me on pause. But I always find a way through what plagues me... and learn to rise again. I refuse to let this life possess me... it is mine to have, and I WILL conquer what holds me in limbo. For I must fly free.

My Interests

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a My heart says... stop feeling. My head says... stop believing. But I can't. Last time I began to mirror that particular part of my twin... his flame, began to dim. I learned my lesson, and learned it well. I'll keep my chin to the sky... despite the fact that... "everyone lies". but where? certainly not in their own bed. I hold onto positivity as if my life depended on it. It is my rickity old raft... in the middle of this massive ocean of doubt. Hope, keeps me afloat. If I misplace it... I perish. This type of beauty speaks for itself...

My Blog

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..TR height="100%" UNSELECTABLE="on" width="100%"> IDon'tRecognizeMySelf. Crazy, because I knew meYesterday...or, so I thought.and thenToday came... And, all I wanted wasLove.Understanding....
Posted by on Tue, 14 Oct 2008 04:42:00 GMT

As a woman, and a mother... my apologies

..> To the one whom I recently chastised. You know who u are and, quite possibly, you may never read this in its entirety. Doesn't matter though. It's my duty, as a woman, a mother and a friend... ...
Posted by on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 00:47:00 GMT

Desire To Put My Love Into Words...

..> This goes out to anyone, and everyone, who has touched my life in 2007. I feel the need, and desire, to thank you. All of you. Everyone who has had a part in "touching" my existence in the year...
Posted by on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 09:39:00 GMT

To the OTHER Mothers...

..> This goes out to all the single Fathers who have, for one reason or another, taken on the responsibility of cultivating their seeds... alone. My heart goes out to all of you... those I know, and...
Posted by on Sun, 13 May 2007 15:31:00 GMT

Another Message To Our Angels...

Friday's surgery found infection in some of her spinal fluid. Because of the shunt in the right side of her head, she will be going back in today for another surgery to externalize the second shunt so...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 14:54:00 GMT

To Whom It May Concern...

For those of you who missed my bulletin... Thought I'd post a bulletin in order to get the word out, instead of emailing everyone individually. It's not that I'm feeling particularly lazy... moreso, m...
Posted by on Mon, 15 Jan 2007 15:50:00 GMT

sometimes... you must HURT in order to HEAL

sometimes we just know the right buttons to push... sometimes we know too much... and yet, just enough... sometimes... we want something a certain way, and we get it... just like that. but only somet...
Posted by on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 22:39:00 GMT

letter to my reflection...

I won't write to you directly anymore... but, regardless of your disdain... I refuse to stop writing, until my soul is content... and my heart is full again. I find myself straddling a line be...
Posted by on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 21:42:00 GMT

feels like...

feels like I lost my best friend. feels like, i forgot to pay the bill...and now the light is gone. feels like, I can never fully carry on. without him. feels like,...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 16:08:00 GMT

Mourning Sickness

yesterday, I wokewith a sicknessin my heart...my soul... mywhole body shookfrom my headache, to myself-controlIcouldn't scream, nor could I cry... just hung my headand wonderedWhy? Howcould it be myLo...
Posted by on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 13:48:00 GMT