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About Me

I'm 22 years old but I feel like I'm about 90. I go to a shitty college, at least for one more semester if I can register into the three classes I need to graduate. I work at a shitty job that I am perpetually on the verge of being fired from. Furthermore I have a million bills that I don't have money for and currently because of a misunderstanding on someone else's part I'm wanted by the police until I can go get that straightened out. Having said that, I am a profoundly good person in a world where being profoundly good doesn't count for fuck. Consequently I am afflicted with strong suffering and disenchantment with the world. I would give my hand to a stranger and my life for someone I loved. But I never talk to strangers and don't particularly love.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

No one. I'm fantastically unimpressed by everyone. If I'm not unimpressed by you consider that a major compliment. SO since I have met, in my time, a wide gammit of people ranging from "wow you are a fucking moron and I can't understand why you are alive" to "hmmm your not wholly uninteresting but that look of fright a revulsion you give me tells me it probably was a bad idea to try and talk to you". Naturally this tends to lower ones expectations viz a vis meeting people. Fortunately I have no trouble at not meeting people.

My Blog

Striving for a new all time low

Depression is such an interesting thing. Its like walking on a Forrest trail at night, and taking a wrong turn, and gradually the path gets more and more over grown. And before you know it toothless h...
Posted by on Sat, 27 Sep 2008 18:54:00 GMT

self destruction

Well its about that time again. See every year around late august or early september I decide that I need to put myself through absolute hell for what reason I'm not entirely sure. I suppose ostensibl...
Posted by on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 18:51:00 GMT

The Electic Wars

.... and so Barackus Augustus, Praetor of Illinoisia prepared to march to the mighty fortress city of Denveria with his legions to stand for election to the Consulshiip of the Democratic Faction...
Posted by on Sat, 23 Aug 2008 19:02:00 GMT

nothing

Today has been an horrible day. I woke up late for work. I had a dream lastnight I can't remember beyond the fact it made me feel uncommonly unhappy. So I dragged myself out of bed and tottered off to...
Posted by on Wed, 13 Aug 2008 03:00:00 GMT

Drunk again

God. no one will ever understand me. Do you have any idea how horrble that realization is? There arew things that I care abut far more than myself. ANd these things will never be. I would give m...
Posted by on Sun, 20 Jul 2008 03:10:00 GMT

and here we are

How strange it is to be so empty. As if all of my being and depth had compressed itself against the outermost boundaries of self such that all of me lies packed in dense layers just beneath my skin, e...
Posted by on Fri, 18 Jul 2008 05:51:00 GMT

Day off the wagon

Well I had two days off. I vowed that I would spend them productively. I quickly recanted my vow. Mostly been sleeping. Wasting money on new clothes. Did manage to hit the old barbells a bit. That was...
Posted by on Mon, 23 Jun 2008 21:06:00 GMT

morning time

It's 9:30 And my mind is dirtyI'm awakeBy mistakeMy contacts are cleanEverything is seenI troop to the looAnd do what I doBecause its morningMy stomach turnsWith bileFor a little whileFrom yeste...
Posted by on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 06:32:00 GMT

the surf

When I was a little boy I hated the ocean. Thats not to say that I had some sort of fear of water or swimming or the beach. I simply hated the Ocean. It was a great intractable foe to me. It's waves w...
Posted by on Fri, 18 Apr 2008 22:46:00 GMT

Prickly pair dancing

Hmmm hmmm hmm... gee so little to tell about. Last night I went to the fancy pantsy cocktail party with thomas and his three lovely daughters. Good times. Drank and ate. On the way back I stopped at t...
Posted by on Fri, 18 Apr 2008 16:05:00 GMT