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mandy

I'm just trying to bring the Ohh my god back to religion...

About Me


"There's no such thing as a mistake... there's what you do, and what you don't do..." '
a leo through and through...
Just take it in stride. One breath and I think I feel free. All we can do is strive for the best thoughts, the best feelings, the "warm fuzzy" feeling. As a child, I believed these all came to me due to the process of living. Grab the wheel right now, and make this life yours. Walk with me. Leave your disgusting fever. Take this life - make it yours. Forgotten are the days of wandering pointlessly in my dreams. Carry me with your wings.
-august burns red
And you love me
I love you.
You are, then, cold coward.
Aye; but, beloved,
When I strive to come to you,
Man's opinions, a thousand thickets,
My interwoven existence,
My life,
Caught in the stubble of the world
Like a tender veil --
This stays me.
No strange move can I make
Without noise of tearing
I dare not.
If love loves,
There is no world
Nor word.
All is lost
Save thought of love
And place to dream.
You love me?
I love you.
You are, then, cold coward.
Aye; but, beloved --
-Stephen Crane
things fall apart... everyday.
just walk on through the wreckage
only let your feet get cut.
toes are ugly anyway...
let them wear your scars.
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, a cigarette in one hand, a margarita in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "god dam what a ride!
asia is rising against me. I haven't got a chinaman's chance. I'd better consider my national resources. My national resources consist of two joints of marijuana millions of genitals an unpublishable private literature that goes 1400 miles an hour and twenty-five-thousand mental institutions. I say nothing about my prisons nor the millions of underprivileged who live in my flowerpots under the light of five hundred suns.
-ginsberg, excerpt from america

My Interests


painting, reading, writing, taking pictures of purrrty people and decrepit things, poetry, all things dramatic and over-the-top, driving like an asshole, heat lightning, diet wild cherry pepsi, green eyshadow, tattooed men, languages, dyeing my hair, staring, singing loudly and badly in my car, philosophy, religions and cults, ever heard of rajneesh? this one is new to me..., glitter trees, bright eyes, road trips, peacocks, freaking out papabear, car talk with my puerto-rican bro, belly dancing, soap operas, social experiments/studies (people absolutely fucking fascinate me... thats why I hang out here...) spiltlip, camping, lady bugs, kendall jackson, cornfields, daydreaming, nightmaring, and of course, my all time favorite: sleeping. Do not attempt to bother me while I'm doing so. You could lose an eye or various appendages. Oh and I hate dolls. They are my only phobia... not like barbie dolls with painted eyes... the ones that have fake eyes that are made to look real... FUCKING FREAKY I WILL CRY. DONT POST PICTURES WITH DOLLS ON MY SHIT. I WILL KILL YOU...

I'd like to meet:

got a great family, great friends, an m-tourage, and a great man... so no one! I think I'm good!! oh wait... noel fielding!

Music:

tori amos. alkaline trio. dwarves. hatebreed. face to face. august burns red. knuckledust. ramallah. thursday. scary kids scaring kids. sick of it all. remembering never. trivium. death before dishonor. unearth. dropkick murphys. blood has been shed. twelve tribes. martyr ad. flogging molly. heavens. taking back sunday. senses fail. billy idol. the cure. armor for sleep. ani difranco. old school madonna and prince (anything new is just disgraceful...)rise against. lawrence arms. from autumn to ashes. coheed and cambria. fenix tx. bad religion. fall out boy. darkest hour. imogen heap. the sundays. boys night out. saves the day. damien rice. tiger army. and then these people --------

...

Movies:

The Usual Suspects, Labryinth, Lord of the Rings, House of 1000 Corpses, The Ring, Caligula, Gladiator, Black Hawk Down, The Shining, Oceans 11, Gone With the Wind, 28 Days, Full Metal Jacket, Donnie Darko, Dancer in the Dark, Gangs Of New York, The Village, Kill Bill, One Hour Photo, SFW, Bowling for Columbine, Closer, Serendipity, Unfaithful, Cold Mountain, Saw, Taming of the Shrew,The Patriot, A Life Less Ordinary, True Romance, Dead Birds, Deathwatch and all those cheesy emotional 80's movies.ETC...ETC...

Television:

entourage. dexter. the shield. nip tuck. city confidential. sex and the city. miami ink. greys anatomy. mighty boosh.

Books:

camus. palahniuk. jeff lindsay. joe nemo. stephen king. neil gaiman. henry miller. dan brown. chinua achebe. sandra cisneros. etc, etc...

Heroes:

Pauly Shore...

My Blog

before I die...

I woke up in one of those moods today... you know the one where you feel hopeless and pointless and wonder why you even bother with anything?? The mood that compels you to lie on the couch eating pizz...
Posted by mandy on Sat, 10 Nov 2007 12:39:00 PST

drove on the wrong side of the road...

for the first time!! and somehow didn't hit any of these backwards brits!!! hahaha... dont know why I think its such a big deal, but I do... :PI would never want to have to do my job over here though,...
Posted by mandy on Tue, 09 Oct 2007 07:30:00 PST

galvanized...

whenever life has gotten so horrible, so treacherous that I felt I couldn't go on another second... I always seem to find a ladybug. A symbol of luck, something I always took to heart and saw as a rem...
Posted by mandy on Sun, 05 Aug 2007 09:41:00 PST

one day you'll find I'm sleeping in my urn feeling just fine...

time has been slipping by so fast these past few years...I really don't know where the hell it has all gone. when your younger people always say that and your like, 'yeah whatever...' but that is prob...
Posted by mandy on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 07:34:00 PST

damn my wrists hurt...

from that awful little slap they got....    hahahaha. on a nother note.... I am the luckiest girl ever, it's an amazing feeling waking up every morning having everything you have always...
Posted by mandy on Wed, 23 May 2007 03:25:00 PST

hobo photos... ;}

found this really cool warehouse in highlandtown hon... and you all know how I love abandonded run down dirty kinda places, and train tracks... so does my hobo buddy dan. kinda rough day cause it was ...
Posted by mandy on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 02:18:00 PST

lack of self control...

i have oils swirling around in my head and no money for a canvas... fucking patron... that little bastard...i want something that i have made impossible to obtain due to past actions... fucking impuls...
Posted by mandy on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 08:11:00 PST

oh mercy me....

so... I live my life (although with occasional trepidation) by following where my inclinations lead me... doing what I want and what I think is right... how could it not be right if it is what's&...
Posted by mandy on Tue, 15 Aug 2006 07:38:00 PST

want....

changs...brewars art...a full nights sleep...a lack of drama...time to paint...more beach...a funky smile...asian moons...... for my birthday, in case anyone was wondering what I wanted.   ...
Posted by mandy on Tue, 01 Aug 2006 03:21:00 PST

you a crazy bitch...

but you fuck so good I'm ... ANYWAY... heres the rest of the photos from my time wit da crazy bitch.... ...
Posted by mandy on Fri, 02 Jun 2006 05:45:00 PST