♥Malice♦In♣Wonderland♥

ahhh the wonder that is enigmaticly average me.
i wouldnt know where to begin, my story would jump from topic to topic until it was an exact replica of the unorganized mess that is my mind. as ive been known to say before, and stress even more to you now you cannot sum me up, stick me in a nut shell or slap a label on me.. and if you tried it would end up coming out something like:
" .....hilariously crazy introverted slightly emo reggae cyber hippie liberal idealist semi poser quasi self righteous freak who enjoys jam bands guilty pleasure pop and conversations that last for hours, poetic loser with goth industrial tendencies addicted to animals, the idea of true blindingly intense love and daydreams of unity who hates/loves people.and is annoyingly scared of everything yet dreams of being able to do anything. "
I guess im a bit of an old soul in the sense that I enjoy the simple things and truly believe it is the simple things that matter most. I play tough but i am a romantic down to my very bones. I am disapointed in people and how they seem to have lost the ability to feel. everything is so rushed and everyone is so consumed with money and power (or being some carbon copy of whats 'scene' whatever the fuck that means) that the gift of life is wasted. I am admittedly over sensitive and still find myself crippled by past events that i cant change, but, i still hold on to hope. I let myself enjoy the good things that life gives me and even when things gets out of control I really believe there is something to be said for looking for that silver lining.
i will find my way to the place i am suppose to hold in this world.... just have to find my walkman and tie my sneakers first
i have this idealism that lives inside of me. visions of a utopian world where we can all live equally.i am striving to find spirituality. there is beauty in this world. you just need to have the courage to step outside of what you think your friends or family want you to be and find it. be yourself. live your life. dont conform.
(dont be too impressed i spend most of my time hiding in the shadows terrified of interaction. its not like im enlightened, i just have ideas of how things should be.)
GOONIES NEVER SAY DIE
♥I AM A FAT GIRL♥ I DONT SAY THIS TO FISH FOR EMPTY COMPLIMENTS, AND I DO NOT WANT TO SEEM SELF LOATHING. I SAY THIS UPFRONT BECAUSE I FIND THAT LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE DISHONEST WITH OTHERS AND MAKING THIS FACT KNOWN I CAN ELIMINATE DISAPOINTMENT AND SHALLOW EXPECTATIONS FROM THOSE OF YOU WHO SOMEHOW STILL THINK THAT BEAUTY IS MEASURED IN POUNDS
♥I AM NOT ONE OF THE COOL KIDS.
IM A BIG DORK<3
♥I LOVE THE ♥ RAIN ♥
♥COFFEE=LIFEBLOOD
♥I LOVE THE WAY SNOW CAN MAKE EVERYTHING BEAUTIFUL AND QUIET
♥I AM CRAZY..I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR GETTING YOURSELF INTO...
♥I HONESTLY FEEL THAT HEARING THAT ONE SONG THAT REACHES OUT AND TOUCHES YOU INSIDE...THAT CAN BE BETTER THAN SEX...**sometimes :)**
♥I LOVE THE SMELL OF THE BREAD AISLE IN THE GROCERY STORE...YUMMY (FUCK ATKINS)
♥ THUNDERSTORMS MAKE ME SO HAPPY
♥STOP BEING HOMOPHOBIC ITS RI DICK ULOUS AND IT MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A DOUCHEBAG WE ARE ALL PEOPLE.... DONT CONCERN YOURSELF WITH WHO OTHER PEOPLE CHOOSE TO LOVE
♥AUTUMN IS THE BEST SEASON!
♥I TALK TO MY ANIMALS
♥AT ANY GIVEN TIME I HAVE NO IDEA WHATS GOING ON
♥I STILL DANCE AROUND PRETENDING TO BE A ROCKSTAR WHEN I AM ALONE
♥IM THE MOST ANTI-SOCIAL PERSON YOU WILL EVER MEET THAT ACTUALLY REALLY LOVES HUMAN CONNECTION
♥THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO ME THAN THE CLOTHES I WEAR OR THE TUNES I CHOOSE TO LISTEN TO
♥I LOVE GETTING LOST IN THE STARS
♥I LOVE SCARY MOVIES
♥YOU ARENT ANY BETTER, BECAUSE YOU HAVE A FAVORITE BAND IVE NEVER HEARD OF..OR BECAUSE YOUR ON THE UP AND UP WITH WHATS "IN" IT IS NOW WAS THEN AND WILL ALWAYS BE ABOUT THE MUSIC NOT THE FASHION OR THE SCENE-I SNARRRLLLL AT MUSIC SNOBS-IF IT SOUNDS GOOD I LIKE IT. PERIOD
♥IM WAYYYY TOO PERVERTED SOMETIMES...**i just cant help it**
♥I LET MYSELF CRY WHEN I NEED TO AND I DONT UNDERSTAND PEOPLE WHO TRY TO NUMB THAT PART OF THEMSELVES AWAY... LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL AND ALL ASPECTS OF HUMAN EMOTION ARE INTENSE AND NECESSARY
♥IM FAR TOO SENSITIVE
♥YOU WILL FIND I HAVE A VERY DIRTY MOUTH AND SWEAR FAR MORE OFTEN THAN I WOULD LIKE TO ADMIT ITS NOT BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE PROPER VOCABULARY NEEDED TO EXPRESS MYSELF I JUST REALLY ENJOY THE WAY IT ROLLS OFF MY TOUNGE