"What does a scanner see? I mean, really see?
Into the head? Down into the heart? Does a
passive infrared scanner …
see into me — into us — clearly or darkly?
I hope it does see clearly, because I can't
any longer these days see into myself.
I see only murk. Murk outside; murk inside.
I hope, for everyone's sake,
the scanners do better. Because if the scanner
sees only darkly, the way I myself do,
then we are cursed, cursed again and like we
have been continually, and we'll wind up dead
this way, knowing very little and getting
that little fragment wrong too."
"Any given man sees only a tiny portion of
the total truth, and very often, in fact
almost perpetually, he deliberately deceives
himself about the little precious fragment
as well. A portion of him turns against him
and acts like another person, defeating him
from inside."
(A Scanner Darkly by Philip K. Dick)
I'm so tired
like I didn't slept for years
my soul is getting eaten up
by all my fears
alone I'm sitting in my room
the walls are tighting in
the line between dream and reality
is way to thin
drinking cheap liquor
smoking a cigarette
ohh lord forgive me
for what I did
I'm so tired
I want to sleep for a thousand years
sleeping just once without my fears
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My Point of view is Fever...
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"depression, drugs, love, sex and death... aren't they all the same?"
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My Palms always expected your fuc*ing nails...
put me up on this damn metal cross...
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Think straight in a unreal world
Get to the point of no return
And start to move in circles
Beginning meet it's own end
No Escape
Nails, rope, Tape, fixation
Get free
Fly, fall, jump, land, give birth
And Die
