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" Im The Perfect Disaster "

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About Me

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MyHotComments-------------------space-----------------Well im gonna start it off with my name its Ashley im 20 years old i live in smyrna, tn. i have a beautiful 3 year old daughter who is bright and beautiful nothing like me we just look alike well i take that back she gets her attitude from me lol gotta love her... I have my best friend stephanie my sister we are inseperable no matter what no guy, no girl, nothing in this world will ever tear us apart i promise that on everything. I have a great family they are all crazy lol but at lease we have fun everyday and we live life how we should. Well I dont know what is going on with anything right now in my life but i know its all caveing in on top of me and theres no way i can hold it up any more. I really think i just need to let everything fall down so i can start over instead of trying to fix everything i think that would be easier to do CAUSE HONESTLY EVERYTHING FALLING DOWN NEEDS TO ITS SHIT THAT I DONT WANT TO SAVE!!!!!! But im not gonna forget everything trust me ive seen so much shit honestly i thought i knew alot of things when it came to the games we all run in life i thought i had them all locked down damn i was wrong now dont get me wrong im good at all the games but damn you can stuck in them bitches like ive been for a minute. I cant say im gonna be a new person by trying to start over cause they say time heals everything but i know im gonna be waiting for the rest of my life someone once said to me that you gain wisdom thought experiences you go through if thats true well then damn i should have enough wisdom on how to get through all the obsticles in my life but i dont. no experience is the same so how can they help you with another situation. exactly it cant you learn different things in every experience you stumble across. Now seriously i know good and well i have hurt alot of people wether i meant to or not and i cant take things back sorry is a five letter word to me honestly i dont believe people can be sorry for things if you did it then you did it and we all know that things happen for a reason so if people get hurt its for a reason and you cant and arent suppost to change them. Now for the people who arent in my life do to things that have happened i wish you all the best i hold you in my heart always and you know that i will always hold you all dear to me even if we talk or not and i cant just forget you and i never will and to the people still in my life and are there when i need you thank you and im glad you stuck it through the fights in my life with me im glad you understand we all need someone in our lives to help us out and im really thankful i have some people even thoe i feel i never do. And to my family theres times when i feel i mean nothing to you i mean i know thats not true but you guys never seem to notice when i am crying out for help or when i just need the love a family should give i dont see you there when i need my family you all know me and how hard headed i am im not just gonna tell you need help you should know when i do thats what familys are for but i do love you all more then life its self. But anyways i guess everyone has that breaking down point and if they havent i promise you will its unavoidable i mean damn im only 20 and its happened to me already and who says it wont later down the road nothing is predictable or avoidable in life and if it does happen again it was meant to ive tried to say that other people caused it to happen to me but no we all bring our own problems to our lives and we need to face that im learning to. and hell no its not easy to tell people you are wrong and admit that shit is your fault but hey it feels better when you do i just dont admit that out loud lol well till now but anyways im gonna get off here for now and i will finish this later i love everyone xoxoxoxoox ashley------------------space----------------
MyHotComments / HotFreeLayouts -----------------------space-----------****STEPHANIE**** YOU ARE MY WHOLE WORLD AND MORE DONT EVER FORGET THAT OK I LOVE YOU ...****JAY'DEE**** YOU ARE ONE OF THE GREATEST SISTERS GOD GAVE ME I LOVE YOU ...****JOZLYN**** YOU CANT READ LOL BUT YOU CHANGED MY WHOLE LIFE YOU ARE MY REASON FOR LIFE AND THE ONLY REASON IM STILL BREATHING I LOVE YOU ...****MOM**** YOU PUT ME HERE TO DISCOVER LIFE AND HELP ME THROUGH IT YOU ARE THE BEST MOM IN THE WHOLE WORLD YOU MAKE EVERYTHING PERFECT I LOVE YOU ...****MATT**** THANK YOU I WOULDNT HAVE MADE IT AS FAR AS I HAVE IF IT WASNT FOR YOU AND YOU ARE A GREAT DAD YOU DESERVE THE WORLD AT YOUR FEET I LOVE YOU ...****STEPHY**** THANK YOU AS WELL YOU ARE A GREAT MOM I COULD NOT EVER ASK FOR SOMEONE BETTER YOU MADE MY WORLD WHEN YOU DECIDED TO HELP ME I LOVE YOU ...****TRAVIS**** YOU ARE MY LITTLE ABLIEN BROTHER I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY AND IM GLAD YOU ARE DOING SO GOOD KEEP IT UP SWEETIE I LOVE YOU ...****COREY**** YOU ARE A GREAT GUY AND YES YOU ARE A RETARD BUT THATS WHAT MAKES YOU, YOU LOL I LOVE YOU ...****SKITTLES**** YOU ARE THE EASIEST PERSON FOR ME TO TALK TO THANK YOU I CAN TELL YOU ANYTHING AND YOU WILL LISTEN AND TALK BACK TO ME AND YOU DONT JUDGE ME ON ANYTHING I SAY I LOVE YOU ...****DRIFT**** WOW LOL YOU ARE HILARIOUS AND YOU HAVE HELPED ME MORE THEN I CAN SAY THANK YOU FOR BUT I KNOW YOU HAVE MY BACK THROUGH ANYTHING MY LITTLE BODY GUARD I LOVE YOU ...****SKEETER**** IM SORRY HOW THINGS ENDED UP I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY I MISS HAVEING YOU BY MY SIDE AT THE CLUB AND HAVEING SOMEONE TO SHOOT LOL AND A SHOULDER TO CRY ON AND FOR YOU TO WIPE MY TEARS AWAY AND I NEED NEW POEMS I LOVE YOU ...****DAD**** I KNOW YOU CANT BE HERE TO WATCH US GROW UP AND THAT WE HAVE ALOT WE ARE REALLY OUR OWN PEOPLE AND I THANK YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID AND I MISS YOU TRULY I LOVE YOU ...***PAULA**** THANK YOU FOR HELPING MY DAD WHEN HE NEEDED SOMEONE AND WE WERENT THERE THANK YOU ALSO FOR EVERYTHING ELSE I LOVE YOU ...****RANDALL**** YOP UBEEN THERE WITH ME AND YOUVE NEVER BEEN MAD AT ME THAT I KNOW OF YOUR A GREAT PERSON INSIDE AND OUT YOU ARE ADORABLE AND THANX FOR HELPING ME THAT NIGHT I NEEDED YOU I LOVE YOU ...****JUSTIN**** YEAHHHHH TOAST THATS THE BEST SHIT EVER LOL YOU ARE ONE OF MY GREATEST FRIENDS IN THIS WHOLE WORLD YOUVE DONE MORE FOR ME THEN ANYONE HAS LATELY EVEN PUTTING MORE HOLES IN MY BODY THEN I CAN COUNT LOL I LOVE YOU ....****EVERYONE ELSE**** YO EVERYONE THAT STICKS BY ME THROUGH ALL THE DRAMA AND STUPID SHIT YALL ROCK AND I DONT THINK I COULD AK FOR MORE THEN ALL THE FRINEDS THAT ARE STILL HERE FOR ME IF YOU ARENT UP ON THE LIST DONT THINK ITS CAUSE I FORGOT YALL CAUSE I NEVER DO I LOVE YALL ...------------space-------------- Myspace Graphics
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MyHotComments------------space--------- everything damnitWhen We Two PartedWhen we two parted In silence and tears, Half broken-hearted To sever for years, Pale grew thy cheek and cold, Colder thy kiss; Truly that hour foretold Sorrow to this.The dew of the morning Sunk chill on my brow— It felt like the warning Of what I feel now. Thy vows are all broken, And light is thy fame; I hear thy name spoken, And share in its shame.They name thee before me, A knell to mine ear; A shudder comes o'er me— Why wert thou so dear? They know not I knew thee, Who knew thee too well:— Long, long shall I rue thee, Too deeply to tell.In secret we met— In silence I grieve That thy heart could forget, Thy spirit deceive. If I should meet thee After long years, How should I greet thee?— With silence and tears.

I'd like to meet:

One thing I'm wonderin' When you run out of friends Will you be coming back home? Let's think this through again Let's take a different spin Why can't I leave you alone? Somewhere tonight, you may be found With some other girl you've been draggin' around You lie to yourself, and you lie to me It sems like the truth is your worst enemy Cause Baby I'm tired, tired of the fight I'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights It's taken some time, cause I didn't know If I could ever let you go You helped me figure it out...I'm better off alone I may be found, somewhere tonight Cursing the day you walked into my life What's done is done, I can't change time But I'll be damned if I'm not gonna try, But every now and then, my heart gives in To the hope that someday you'll change Then alone I'll wake, to my own mistake That it's just a foolish game. One thing before I go Something I've got to know Boy, did you ever love me? It’s funny how you think you really know yourself Like you would never lose yourself to someone else And I was up to thinking it was all about you and me Silly silly me I should have never listened to a word you said But I was always giving in to promises I never should have gone for, I should never long for you no matter how hard it gets And I want this to be over I so want this to be through In the end somehow it always comes back to youCause everywhere I go No matter what I do boy I just can’t get you out of my head So it annoys me (You wasn’t man enough) To come and tell me (That I was never the one) Like you said I was (You could have told someone) You knew you didn’t love me anymoreIf you had only told me how you really felt I could have put my feelings into someone else But I was busy thinking I was where I was supposed to be Silly silly me But there was something ‘bout you that I couldn’t resist Can’t put my finger on it but whatever it is I never should have stood for it I know you’re no good for me And that’s the way it isAnd I want it to be over I so want it to be through In the end somehow it always comes back to you I tell myself Get over you It’s over right the right thing to do And just when I thought I was done You pull me in for another run I can’t take this Won’t take this Can’t do this i Won’t do it Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you-------------------space----------------------
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MyHotComments-------------space-------------O my Luve's like a red, red rose That's newly sprung in June: O my Luve's like the melodie That's sweetly play'd in tune!As fair thou art, my bonnie lass, So deep in love am I: And I will love thee still, my dear, Till a' the seas gang dry:Till a' the seas gang dry, my dear, And the rocks melt with the sun; I will luve thee still my dear, When the sands of life shall run.And fare thee weel, my only Luve, And fare thee weel a while! And I will come again, my Luve, Tho' it were ten thousand mile.-------------space-----------------
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Movies:

ITS WACK BUT MY FAVORITE MOVIE IS THE LABARENTH IF ANYONE KNOWS WHAT THAT ISRememberRemember me when I am gone away, Gone far away into the silent land; When you can no more hold me by the hand, Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay. Remember me when no more day by day You tell me of our future that you plann'd: Only remember me; you understand It will be late to counsel then or pray. Yet if you should forget me for a while And afterwards remember, do not grieve: For if the darkness and corruption leave A vestige of the thoughts that once I had, Better by far you should forget and smile Than that you should remember and be sad.

Television:

I Loved You OnceI loved you once, nor can this heart be quiet; For it would seem that love still lingers there; But do not you be further troubled by it; I would in no wise hurt you, oh, my dear.I loved you without hope, a mute offender; What jealous pangs, what shy despairs I knew! A love as deep as this, as true, as tender, God grant another may yet offer you.

Books:

JAMES PATTERSON IS MY FAVORITE AUTHOR AND MY FAVORITE BOOK IS 1ST TO DIE AND THATS BY HIM ALSO READ HIS WORK ITS GREAT.To an Absent LoverThat so much change should come when thou dost go, Is mystery that I cannot ravel quite. The very house seems dark as when the light Of lamps goes out. Each wonted thing doth grow So altered, that I wander to and fro Bewildered by the most familiar sight, And feel like one who rouses in the night From dream of ecstasy, and cannot know At first if he be sleeping or awake. My foolish heart so foolish for thy sake Hath grown, dear one! Teach me to be more wise. I blush for all my foolishness doth lack; I fear to seem a coward in thine eyes. Teach me, dear one,—but first thou must come back!

Heroes:

MY HERO IS MY MOM AND MY DAUGHTER MOM- CAUSE SHES DIEING AND SHES STILL RUNNING THE BEST FOSTER HOME IN THE WORLD 13 TEENAGE GIRLS LIVE IN THIS HOUE AND SHE MAKES TIME FOR ALL OF US NO MATTER WHAT SHES DOING SHE ALL I COULD EVER ASK FOR... MY DAUGHTER- CAUSE BEFORE I GOT PREGNANT I WAS ONE OF THE WORST KIDS YOU COULD EVER NEED I FOUGHT WITH EVERYONE AND I NEVHAD ANY FRIENDS AND I DIDNT DO ANYTHING AND I WAS LOOSING MY BEST FRIEND AND WHEN I GOT PREGNANT EVERYTHING CHANGED CAUSE I GREW UP AND SHE MENDED EVERYTHING THAT WAS GOING WRONG FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Blog

my birthday

hey everyone guess what my birthday is coming up its april 14th its a big black and white party im haveing it at christies cabaret and its gonna be huge its $10 dollars for 21 and up and $20 for under...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 12:48:00 PST

Catch Me When I Fall

Is anybody out there Does anybody see That when the lights are off something's killing me I know it seems like people care Cause they're always around me But when the day is done and everybody runs Wh...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 01:48:00 PST

for whit!!!!!

You don't know me Like you knew me You stopped listening The moment I needed you most You can't see me Like you saw me Truth comes easy But it's hard for you to pull me from the ground So I scream, sc...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 01:40:00 PST

I Dont Want To Care

Here's another day Another girl left so confused Trying to find a way In the common likes of you But you're so undecided Stringing me along And it hurts just thinking 'bout one day your here and then ...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 11:10:00 PST

WOULD YOU?

1. - Would you like to know me? 2. - Would you like to be my friend? 3. - Would you help me if im down? 4. - Would wiipe my tears? 5. - Would you let me talk to you for hours about nothing? 6. - Would...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 10:50:00 PST

*BEAUTIFULLY-BROKEN*

It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky It seems like yesterday I didn't know how hard I could cry It feels like tomorrow I may not get by But I will try I will try Wipe the tears from...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 10:35:00 PST

nice blog i love it

Hey everyone the latest news, weather anyone reads that comment or not it will not bug me everyone can think as they please. I mean i may have busted myself out but hey on the upside at least i am hon...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 12:13:00 PST

are you all happy you were right......

     Yo....  well everyone you were all right, expecially you Rv. I ended up looseing everything like you all said i would. You all saw me break down last night and noone want...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 02:09:00 PST

* Have you ever *

- Have you ever fallin in love one who wasnt real? - Have you ever wanted someone who wasnt real? - Have you ever pushed someone so hard they break? - Have you ever fallen and not been able to get bac...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 11:24:00 PST

to everyone fake

To all the people who say they are my friends, Why do all of you find it neccisary to talk about people you say are your friends. Do you not have anything better to do do you not think before you act?...
Posted by *BAMBI* on Sat, 04 Mar 2006 08:02:00 PST