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viscerallove

About Me

yeah this used to say something pretty gay. it doesnt anymore. well, it literally does say "something pretty gay," but you get the point.

My Interests

music, my girlfriend, synthesizers, sex, bondage, writing, film, thinking, alcohol, neuroplasticity and quantum physics.

Music:

Skinny Puppy, Finntroll, Agathodaimon, Dismantled, Velvet Acid Christ, NoIsSa, Wumpscut, Tactical Sekt, Psyclon Nine, Smashing Pumpkins, Graveworm, Cradle of Filth, OhGr, Radiohead, Nine Inch Nails, Ensiferum, Einsturzende Neubauten, Eternal Tears of Sorrow, Winds, Skyfire, Haujobb, John Merrick's Project, KMFDM, Rammstein, Kalmah, Knorkator, Tool, Nirvana, Manowar, Lou Reed, Mentallo and the Fixer, Massive Attack, Ministry, Moby, NKVD, Noisex, Peter Gabriel, Pink Floyd, Fear Factory, Heavy Water Factory, Professional Murder Music, Simon and Garfunkel, Stabbing Westward, Spahn Ranch, Stratovarius, The Kovenant, The Streets, Bran Barr, MC Chris, Amduscia, Aphex Twin, Aslan Faction, Autumn Tears, Cruachan, Dimmu Borgir, Low Pop Suicide, Celtic Frost, The Prodigy, Buck 65, Gridlock, E NOMINE, David Gilmore, bitcrush, Saul Williams, K-os, Abzorbr, Sigur Ros, Dark Funeral, Naglfar

Movies:

Equilibrium, Donnie Darko, Natural Born Killers, Clerks, Hero, Kill Bill, SLC Punk, Scarface, Return of the Living Dead, Cannibal Holocaust, The Passion of the Christ, Four Rooms, Pulp Fiction, Heat, Pirates of the Caribbean, What the Bleep Do We Know, Four Rooms, Star Wars series (I and II sucked though), Waiting, Gummo, Pan's Labyrinth, Clerks 2

Television:

Six Feet Under, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Da Ali G Show, The Sopranos, Robot Chicken

Books:

1984, The Mind and the Brain, Hamlet, etc.

My Blog

giving thanks

thanksgiving has just ended, and with the hours of darkness coming to an end without my mind following, i feel that perhaps now is a good time to really think about what i have to be thankful for. th...
Posted by |nick| on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 02:13:00 PST

cannnnt sleeeeeep

yes. it is true. titles dont lie, you know. unless of course i changed the title to say "im asleep right now," in which case it would be a gigantic lie. but i am not going to do that, because not ...
Posted by |nick| on Mon, 29 Oct 2007 04:31:00 PST

bored, so here

as the title would suggest, i am bored. its sunday, ff playtest is over, my head hurts, i dont want to sleep, i dont feel like working on music (more on that in a sec), and ive got nothing else to do...
Posted by |nick| on Mon, 28 May 2007 05:25:00 PST

what is real?

what is real anymore? what is truth? does there exist some undeniable fact beyond the constraints of my mind or are the constraints of my mind the only factory for truth and reality that exists? is...
Posted by |nick| on Tue, 13 Feb 2007 01:35:00 PST

god damn

i can get overwhelmed quickly
Posted by |nick| on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 12:07:00 PST

here we go again

as the lows get longer, the highs shortenthis is no perfect sinean adsr value 0 0 0 127impossible to pleaseas time goes on there must be some refuge
Posted by |nick| on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 10:45:00 PST

updates for the masses

i am not a horrible person. i just have a conscience that sometimes fails to control my actions but still deals a massive, sometimes unwarranted, amount of guilt. anyway, on with the update.i am hap...
Posted by |nick| on Fri, 19 Jan 2007 10:37:00 PST

im a horrible fucking person

its true.
Posted by |nick| on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 01:45:00 PST

home sweet home

it feels good to be back.funny, as much as i disliked it before, i find myself smiling all the time.then again, its only the second day ;)
Posted by |nick| on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 08:16:00 PST

dear mind,

i want you to know that i dont hate you. in fact, i enjoy your presence, even in the worst of times. i think you just need to work on your timing. so, get on that. thanks.
Posted by |nick| on Wed, 20 Dec 2006 10:34:00 PST