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i have a new philosphy, it's not the one's who try to kill themselves and live who are the survivors, it's the ones who want to kill themselves and don't cause they might live that are the real survivors.
He tried to kill himself. these are the things that make me believe i don't deserve the privilage of bringing life into this world. why should i have the miracle of life in my hands when people who already are here don't want to bee.


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My name is emily. I just moved to New York from AL then got sent back again to AL over a custody case with my mom, who is an evil bitch and should die (::evil laugh::) ... I've met a wonderful guy, he's shown me how a person should really care for someone they love. i'm seventeen years old. I have a beautiful daughter, who is my whole world, but has a horrible temper. she gets that from her father. we've had a rough time getiin to where we are at now. when i was pregnant, i had something called hypermesies.. which means everyday i was pregnant i got sick all day long. me and ellie almost died, when i was three months pregnant. We got so dehydrated. i'm addicted to caffeine, alchol and nicotine. i love to write, i don't do it as much as i used to cause i don't really have time. i am taken and i'm so happy. it's the happiest i've ever been, he is so good to me. i wish i could see him more though, I went to Alexandria High School, then Oxford Christian Homeschool, then got my GED at the age of 16. I'm was going to Gadsden State Community College, that just didn't work out. I am now attending ITT Technical Institute, that is working out wonderfully, now i love school. They say i'm nuts, i may bee a lil crazy but i can control myself. i've had to go to six different therapists and two shrinks. but i am done with all that shit now, no more depressed drugged up emily, I AM NOW ME! YEA.... I have been diagnosed bi-polar, but i am starting to disbelieve that now, since i am happier off all the meds. My daughter is beautiful, and smiles all the time. and i love my life, when i'm not alone. i hate being alone. and the dark. i hate math, i absolutly can't do it. i don't have any friends that are girls, i've never been good at that kind of thing. Girls are just weird i don't really like them, i'm a fuck em and send them straight home to their boyfriends kind of girl. I am an Atheist, i think all religion is crap so dont lecture me on it, i won't listen to you.
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It's your first time. As you lie back your muscles tighten. You put him off for a while searching for an excuse, but he refuses to be swayed as he approaches you. He asks if you're afraid and you shake your head bravely. He has had more experience, but it's the first time his finger has found the right place. He probes deeply and you shiver; your body tenses; but he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks deeply within your eyes and tells you to trust him - he's done this many times before. His cool smile relaxes you and you open wider to give him more room for an easy entrance. You begin to plead and beg him to hurry, but he slowly takes his time, wanting to cause you as little pain as possible. As he presses closer,going deeper, you feel the tissue give way; pain surges throughout your body and you feel the slight trickle of blood as he continues. He looks at you concerned and asks you if it's too painful. Your eyes are filled with tears but you shake your head and nod for him to go on. He begins going in and out with skill but you are now too numb to feel him within you. After a few moments, you feel something bursting within you and he pulls it out of you, you lay panting, glad to have it over. He looks at you and smiling warmly, tells you, with a chuckle; that you have been his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience. You smile and thank your dentist. After all,it was your first time to have a tooth pulled. [Nawty nawty. What were you thinking? PERVERT I know what you were thinking! lol !]

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Addiction can be very destructive in the lives of the addicted and those around the addicted. When you are addicted to alcohol or drugs, you can see an effect clearly because more people are not addicted to alcohol or drugs, so there is a clear distinction that can be drawn between those who are or aren't alcoholics.
Dealing with those who are addicted to religion is quite different, especially in countries like the US where religion is by far in the majority. Imagine living in a country where most people are alcoholics.
If you are starting to realize the destructive nature of religion, and you feel that religion no longer holds any positive place in your life or those around you, it may be time to consider whether religion is right or not (morally and reasonably). That's what we're here for.
Here are your steps: 1) Admit that you have been controlled by and have been powerless against religion.
2) Admit that religion has been a destructive force in your life, and has kept you afraid and hurt.
3) Recognize that you are your own higher power, and that it is you who can break this addiction.
4) Make amends to those who you believe may have been harmed by your evangelism or religious behavior.
5) Develop your own perception of the world around you based on reason, absent the presence of the fictitious.
6) Change your behavior and moral code to fit your new and more reasonable perception of the world.
7) Help others who ask for help in their addiction.
As someone who not only has gone through this myself, but has helped others through this process, it seems helpful to be able to act as an advisor and be there for those who may need help during the difficult transition between theist and atheist.
Be aware that you could go through serious grief when separating from religion. You may go through:
1) Denial
2) Anger
3) Bargaining
4) Depression
5) Acceptance
Just know there are people out there to help you, myself included. With any luck, you can be a happy atheist!!

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Posted by on Sun, 16 Dec 2007 22:38:00 GMT

Lost

i need someone ..... i dont know who though, ethan is usually the best person to talk to but when i needed him the other night when ellie was sick he was a bastard. to many things are goin on at once,...
Posted by on Tue, 24 Jul 2007 02:03:00 GMT

Jobs of all kinds

First i got a job at Jack's where i met ethan.... then he got me a job at Subway.... so i quit jack's cause i was makin' more money at subway..... after i quit i got fired at subway...... now i'm gonn...
Posted by on Thu, 06 Jul 2006 11:31:00 GMT

still no job

Well,.... i never got to go to work last friday,... the chick never called me back.,,,, no money either..... i got applications in at foodland, food outlet, walmart, subway, and huddle house. &nb...
Posted by on Fri, 05 May 2006 21:01:00 GMT

a blown job

i actually had a one time job tomorrow afternoon, and i have no one to keep the baby.... oh and my grandmother says everything is going to bee ok, we don't need any help.  ..  . . she may no...
Posted by on Thu, 27 Apr 2006 20:40:00 GMT

Twofaced

ohhhh.... trent is such a twoface..... when i'm around him... oh let me help you make muffins.. let me rub your shoulders.... now he's badmouthing me to a girl that obsessed w/ my boyfriend.... make y...
Posted by on Tue, 25 Apr 2006 20:23:00 GMT

Fucked up//11.....

Now i need a cigarette... i don't even know if i want to call kel and smoke w/ him. he lied to me and over something as stupid as a fat chick that is obsessed w/ him. now he's mad cause i caught him. ...
Posted by on Thu, 20 Apr 2006 20:57:00 GMT

BJ's

Why do guys always complain about girls not giving them enough blow jobs, when it's their own damn fault..... maybe we'd bee a lil' more apt to do it ... if they shower a lil' more often and wash down...
Posted by on Fri, 24 Mar 2006 22:15:00 GMT

Burn't noodles

i got hungry after i put the baby to bed, so i went to go get me a bagel.... come to find out they were not any left. so i tried to make me some noodles... i make them so i don't have to break them an...
Posted by on Wed, 22 Mar 2006 01:35:00 GMT

My Fuckin' Wonderful Day

ellie slept till noon today... i hadn't went to sleep till five this mornin' cause i couldn't sleep... got up played w/ ellie she went back to sleep at 2:30 so i tried to get a sleep.. went to sleep a...
Posted by on Sun, 19 Mar 2006 19:19:00 GMT