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zan_dean

About Me

i draw drink gin play music take photos and dance....
check my illustration site!
"I was born to love no one, no one to love me. Only the wind in the long green grass, the frost in a broken tree. I was made to love magic, all its wonder to know. But you all lost that magic many, many years ago.I was born to use my eyes, dream with the sun and the skies, to float away in a lifelong song in the mist where melody flies. I was made to love magic, all its wonder to know. But you all lost that magic many, many years ago.I was born to sail away into a land of forever. Not to be tied to an old stone grave in your land of never. I was made to love magic, all its wonder to know. But you all lost that magic many, many years ago." Nick Drake my hero along with many moreI recently fell in love with paris, its streets, its bars, its parks, its museums, its gift of lightness it gave back to me and reminded me what i want. i miss it already! Music's my main high nothing better than seeing music live i don't understand people who don't get dancing like a crazy fuck, people who judge, make assumptions, dont give you a chance n bitch n hate behind backs! I'll try anything worth while once, "but I'd never in hell touch a pineal gland!!!!" the rush of doing something you never thought you could or would do is unbeatable. Also love meeting new people, especially beautiful ones who share my passions for art music and creating!

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My Interests

art music films photography. Some of my photography...

sometimes I like taking picsies at gigs and sometimes i dont. drawing painting writing and kurt geiger shoes that sparkle like a drag queen! Old books illustrated by arthur Rackham especially. I love blueberries, olives and lime milkshakes. the way to my heart is through a big tub of blueberries. or a fat bass line, heavy riff, sleazy wail or sumin along them lines! trying to get better at pool my gorgeous kitty cat i wish i could take em with me when i move out! :( writing poetry songs etc: When I look deeper I find the night
He's cool and quiet and filled with light
There's nothing to fear till winter's song
when the darkness is cold and the lights have gone
Strangness in your eyes in a world of fear
Loss of young lives you know nothing is clear
earth it is done the sinking sun
crash crest of a wave you know day is done. Vivienne weswood shoes!

I'd like to meet:

and be in the middle of!

people like people like people like us! Charles Baudelaire, Marilyn manson, Arthur brown again! but this time have more ball's to talk to him properly....i was in total awe
PATTI SMITH in every way she is an inspiration ! Iggy pop! anyone who know me knows my weakness!!! I would've loved to have met nick drake or at least seen him, my dad played on the same bll as him once n for that i wil be eternally in awe of! artist's so i can pick their brains and throw around ideas! Suzie Templeton, jan svankmajer!!! , david johansen! Keith Richards the original rock n roll pirate, Russell Brand! ahh my s&m willy wonker Gael Gacia Bernal, Gwen Stefani, Pirates, gypsies tramps n theives. Captain Jack Sparrow, silly beautiful people. cave men bettie page.

Music:

i love old school punk like the slits, the ramones, the wierdos obv the sex pistols, iggy!(the sexiest man of punk!) and the stooges, Patti Smith-horses! Ohio Player, Butthole Surfers, the germs, gang of four, also bit earlier Miles Davis, joni mitchel, The Beatles, Love, The Rolling Stones, The incredible string band!!!!!!Bob dylan, Nick Drake, the new york dolls jimi hendrix, bob marley, the Velvet Underground, Jefferson airplane, led zeppelin, James brown but more recently...Towers of london are awesome, Peaches, MIA, red hot chili peppers, The Libertines, Poison, Motley Crue, Guns n Roses, the mars volta.the streets, queens of the stone age, The Pixies, Devendra Banhart, Jeff Buckley, blur, graham coxen's a legend. Clor, The Prodigy, Pendulum, cribs, Be your own pet, The Long Blondes, The kills, Juliette and the Licks, Paddingtons, Sway, Dizzee Rascal, The Rakes, kooks, Marner brown, bullets n babies, the hellacopters, backyard babies, zico chain, rachel stamp, Kid Carpet (such a legend kidy disco shit!) red star rebels! kid ego, oki dog, Arthur Brown, ivor cultler, Eric roche - lost way too early, what a fantastic musician and the most charming lovely person, its heartbreaking, buckcherry, the distillers, hardcore superstar, the klaxons, lost penguin, The horrors, The Eighties Matchbox B-Line Disaster!!! marilyn manson.
second person... and this beautiful video by animator katy davis

Movies:

Stop animation by artists like the brothers Quay, Jan svankmajer they're absolutley stunning and dark, punch and judy and alice are incredible. blow up, old marlon brando films like a streetcar named desire and the wild ones! I love spanish films anything directed by pedro almodovar, amores perros, la mala educacion, y tu mama tambien, A clockwork orange, i want malcolm mcdowel in that film (i know it's a little sick)! end of the century ramones biog is incredible. the killing of sister george, 300! Garden state. David Lynch is a genius even though freyja's dad told him to stick to his day job haha! the 3rd man. love film noir, sin city. If, again a malcolm mcdowel one mind blowing. pulp fiction, point break. blow up. almost famous. Annie Hall, Manhattan generally just Woody Allen films. Withnail and I. Fear and loathing in Las Vegas "look two women fucking a polar bear.... dont tell me those things!!" Requiem for a dream- but dear god does it fuck with my head. blow up. Gia. Generally french films are beautiful and mad, the delicatessan is fantastic! My favourite film was french about two little girls and it was dark as hll i will honestly spend the rest of my life trying to find out what the hell its called!

Television:

The Mighty Booooooosh, Curb your enthusiasm! Monkey Dust, Never mind the Buzzcocks, Sex and the City, Scrubs, Neighbours, Coupling (before jeff left!) America's next top model

Books:

Le Bas- JK Huysmans work! The unbearable lightness of being. the flowers of evil - baudelaire. Fairytales, Undine, The Tales of lohengrin: Alice in Wonderland Ghostwritten read it its fucking incredible! 100 years of solitude, The unbearable lightness of being, memories of my melancholy whores, midnight's children by salman rushdie, love poetry especially Yeats and Blake, angela carter books the bloody chamber is amazing, nights at the circus, the heart of darkness. Steppenwolf:

Heroes:

yesterday i realised you gotta learn to be your own hero...................................My friends! they make me happy keep me sane and make my life full! if you're gonna lose your mind its nice to do it with company!The ramones especially dee dee and joey. frida kahlo: annie leibovitz,.... some of her beautiful work!: iggy pop, Patti Smith and photographer Bettina Rheims: Vivienne Westwood Diane Arbus

My Blog

midnight writing and reflecting

The rain hurled himself feverously upon my frameFading Back off guard attacksEncapsulate all angelswrap sleeping up& proudly held away from meSoft Target, those who lie aloneunpicking threads of daysa...
Posted by zan on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 09:45:00 PST

CHARITY BUNGEE JUMP

https://www.bmycharity.com/V2/upsidedownzan please sponsor me and read about this charity its a really worth while cause. xxxxxxxxxxxx
Posted by zan on Mon, 30 Jul 2007 07:09:00 PST

Its officially Published!

The magazine proofs came today and my work's been published internationally in a magazine called instant art for invesco! its funny how when things are pretty fucking low something amazing happens n...
Posted by zan on Tue, 17 Jul 2007 07:55:00 PST

oo the fucking turmoil

well its almost over, my work's almost done for the final exhibition this is one of the pieces n after tearing my hair out shouting at ppl i care about being a hermit being a keeeyunt n generally a n...
Posted by zan on Wed, 30 May 2007 09:43:00 PST

new, old song i wrote

when i look deeper i find the nightHe's cool and quiet and filled wih lightthere's nothing to fear till winter's song when the darkness is cold and the light's all gonestrangness in yor eyes in a wor...
Posted by zan on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 03:12:00 PST

Reading festival

wasnt it fuckin random madnes, proper messy, things are a bit fuckin sureal after a weekend like that. i reckon we make foxy boxing and barrel boys a regular street occurence, what say ye? (yeah ...
Posted by zan on Mon, 28 Aug 2006 01:28:00 PST

5 30 when she's in he's out

What he doesnt understand is its illusion. Dreamt up fantasy and fulfilling desperation, Desires from denial. 5 o'clock and they're just calling mindlessly But you're from a darker place Forgetting ho...
Posted by zan on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 06:44:00 PST

and what a wonderful weekend it was!

mini festival in faversham, electric gardens with my girl! wicked weekend babe! love ooooo some piccys   Mystery jets Soho dolls Audio Bully's Jamie T and his fiiit guitarist! The...
Posted by zan on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:58:00 PST

why the hell...

why the hell when things are going really well does something have to fall apart.. everytime! and major too what the fuck. i guess it makes you stronger and i've always liked a challenge just wouldnt ...
Posted by zan on Thu, 20 Jul 2006 11:21:00 PST

you're probably not interested but..

1. Gum: Spearmint or tutti fruity2. Restaurant: anywhere interesting with a nice atmosphere but chain restaurants are a no go3. Drink: vodka and slim tonic 4. Season: Summer absolutley no doubt althou...
Posted by zan on Fri, 16 Jun 2006 04:12:00 PST