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My Angelic Rapture. Love is the Funeral of Hearts

When I Die, I'll Die With My Mercy, When He Cries, I'll Cry With Him, In My Life, See I’ve Loved A

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Love going to concerts and kicking major ass. Best of all hanging backstage was AWESOME! Love gothic, punk, death, nu metal. Likes to color my nails BLACK and wear black clothes. Black is beautiful. Likes Vampire and Dracula and other horror movies. I love to drink, but don't smoke or do drugs. YEAH GOTTA LOVE THE BOOZE BOOZE BOOZE. Likes cats. Friendly, easy to talk to and understanding. I'd like to meet a guy that inspires me and doesn't take me for granted. My ideal places to hang out are at metal concerts and at horror movies.

Poem about me
You don’t ever wanna be me
Cos it’s very painful to be me
You’d rather be fucking dead and in your grave than be me
And that’s the plain truth about being me
I am one emotional rollercoaster
One big fucking train wreck
Around the people that love me the most
Cos they won’t let me be me
And what I want in this life
And what my inner soul so much desires and Burns ferverently for
The ones who love me the most want to douse that flame,that spark, that creativity
So you see why I want to end this fucking life in the first place
p.s. Don’t ever wish you could be me or envy my life cos I have nothing to live for.
----- Manusha
IF SOMETHING HAPPENS TO ME, KNOW THAT I AM NOT FUCKING RESPONSIBLE FOR IT OR FOR HURTING MYSELF IN A GRUESOMEST WAY POSSIBLE. BUT THEN AGAIN, PLEASE KNOW THAT I INTENDED TO HURT YOU COS OLD WOUNDS NEVER HEAL AND I HAVE SORT OF A GRUDGE AGAINST YOU!! SO THAT'S THE MAIN FUCKING REASON I'VE TOLD YOU COUNTLESS TIMES TO DUMP ME AND FORGET ABOUT ME... WHAT I DO WITH MY LIFE AND THE STRANGERS THAT I HANG OUT/TALK TO IS NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS...JUST KNOW THAT I WON'T ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU, COS COME WILL BE THE DAY THAT MY SOUL WILL BE LIBERATED...I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN...BUT SINCE YOU ALWAYS TAKE ME FOR A FUCKING FOOL...I DON'T THINK THAT YOU GET THE LITERAL MEANING TO WHAT I AM SAYING...BUT DON'T WORRY, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHEN I'M NOT AROUND...I DON'T THINK THAT I REALLY LOVE YOU AT ALL, COS YOU MADE ME FEEL = (THAT FEELING I HAD WHEN I WAS VOLUNTARY=YOU KNOW WHERE AND WHAT IT IS). YOU MADE DAMN SURE THAT I WASN'T ANYTHING!! YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME COMPROMISE THE IDEALS I HAVE ABOUT LIFE FOR YOUR OWN ADVANTAGE!!! WHY??? SO INSTEAD OF HATING MYSELF, I'VE LEARNED TO RESPECT MYSELF AND ALWAYS THINK OF MYSELF FIRST BEFORE I THINK ABOUT ANYONE ELSE!! I DO EVERTYTHING TO MAKE LIGHT FROM THE DARK WHEN I AM DOWN IN THE DUMPS....
I DID THIS TO MYSELF! BLOODFEST HALLOWEEN! 10/31/06 Tell me what you think in my ADD COMMENT area! and it feels good. It looks like a bad kitty scratch, lol.HERE COMES THE PAIN!!!
Take the quiz:
Which member of SLipKnoT are you?

Corey Taylor
you are loud obnoxious and sometimes you get on peoples nerves, but somehow everyone seems to love you! you are considered the leader but arent very good at it, you like nu metal and enjoy dictating your interests
The Ten Commandments for all Magotts!!!
1. Never say Corey Taylor’s name in vain. Ever. Or you will be sent to hell where you will have to listen to Barney sing forever.
2. Never say Corey Taylor can’t play scream and sing. If you ever speak those forbidden words you will die on the spot.
3. Every day you must say aloud "Corey Taylor is a great God" at least once.
4. You must listen to one SlipKnot or Stone Sour or Murderdolls song everyday.
5. When you are listening to SlipKnot or Stone Sour or Murderdolls and you are with people, never speak during Mick Thompson’s guitar solo! It is forbidden!
6. If you yourself play a guitar you must play with a B.C. Rich Warlock, a Jackson or an Ibanez with most definitely a Line 6 Spider II 112 to produce those amazing guitar shreds and riffs.
7. When drinking Jack Daniels you must raise your glass, shot, bottle, etc to Corey Taylor.
8. You must pray to Slipknot at least once a day thanking them for blessing us with their beautiful music.
9. Believe in no other God. Corey Taylor is the one and only Messiah!! “If U R 555, THEN HE IS 666!!”
10. Believe in Corey Taylor with all of your being! Never doubt him. AMEN!

My Interests

BEST VIEWED IN INTERNET EXPLORER

Raven... Black as pitch,
Mystical as the moon.
Speak to me of magic,
I will fly with you soon.

Make Prayers to the Raven.
Raven that is,
Raven that was,
Raven that always will be.
Make prayers to the Raven.
Raven, bring us luck.

I am the Voice of the Raven Upon the Wind.
My harsh cry echoes long upon the Earth and Air:
Nothing is forever.
Not life, not love, not death, nor loss.
Only change is eternal,
and only in destruction can the seed of creation form.

My wings bear me between Darkness and Light,
Land and Sky, the Garden and the Wildwood.
I perch upon the Threshold of the Worlds,
both flesh and spirit, gifting the Brave Seeker
with the Visions and Magic of the Otherworld.

To face me is to face your greatest terror,
the Shadow of yourself, the unknown and dangerous.
In chancing destruction,
your fear loses its power to destroy.
For only in acceptance of mortality
will you learn the Secrets of Immortality
as I, the Raven, possess.

No. 0 - Sid

No. 1 - Joey

No. 2 - Paul

No. 3 - Chris

No. 4 - James

No. 5 - Craig 133

No. 6 - Clown - Shawn

No. 7 - Mick

No. 8 - Corey Taylor

Lots and lots of booze to knock me out and metal to keep me going.
Malleus Maleficarum, Book of Shadows, witchcraft, cults.
I like heavy metal, death metal, goth metal, punk rock, nu metal.

Slipknot - Vermillion Part 1

Slipknot - Vermillion Part 1 ..

Crazy Slayer fan carves symbol in arm and lights it on fire!



Slipknot - Left Behind ..

Slipknot - Duality .. width="425" height="350" ..

Breaking Benjamin - So Cold .. width="425" height="350" .. Taproot - Poem ..Korn - Falling Away from Me .. width="425" height="350" ..

I'd like to meet:

WHAT I BELIEVE: IF I FIND SOMEONE TO LOVE, I WILL SET HIM FREE AND IF HE COMES BACK TO ME, THEN HE IS MY DREAM/TRUE LOVE AND IS MEANT TO BE WITH ME! Someone who inspires me and doesn't take me for granted.

Once in Communication Group Therapy, the therapist asked this question, SEE IF YOU CAN SOLVE IT COS IN A STUDY OF 200 JOB APPLICANTS, ONLY ONE PERSON GOT IT RIGHT AND ACTUALLY GOT THE JOB! IT TOOK ME LESS THAN 30 SECOUNDS TO FIGURE IT OUT!!!! LOL.

It is a very stormy night and you are driving down the road. You are in a hurry to go somewhere. You see 3 people at a bus stand and there is no bus in sight for a long time. They are:

A. An old lady who is very sick and just about to die!

B. The friend that once saved your life!!

C. The dream lover who is your one and only true love in your entire lifetime whom you will never ever meet again!!!!!!!! (THE FIRST THING THAT CAME TO MY MIND WAS: Arrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!! I am going to be unhappy with my fucking life if I don’t marry this dude!!!)

The first guy to raise his hand up said that he would put 2 in the trunk and one in the seat. Urmmmmrrrr! Wrong answer dude.

I SAID: I would give my car to the friend that saved my life cos I owe him my life and any favors that I can do to him and tell him to drop the old lady who is just about to die while I stay at the bus stop. While my friend is gone, I would introduce myself to my dream/true love and exchange phone numbers and try to get a date. When my friend comes back for me, I would tell him to drop off my dream lover while I stay back in the bus stop. (If my friend is a chick herself and makes a move for my dream lover, I would fucking start a chick fight with her and rip her apart regardless of her saving my fucked up life!) Then my friend would come and pick me up and if I was going to meet someone/going to work, I can give the reasonable answer that it was too stormy outside and the roads are slippery. Lol. I WON. I GOT THE JOB!!!! I GOT 10 POINTS AND EVERYONE CLAPPED THEIR HANDS FOR ME!!! LOL.

The therapist said that was awfully clever of me, lol, everyone laughed.

Bands I'd like to meet are SlipKnot, Stone Sour, HIM, DevilDriver, Linkin Park, Fort Minor
AIM - MaggotChicka666

Fort Militia Letter By Mike Shinoda SHUT UP WHEN I AM TALKING TO YOU!A7X

Music:

Linkin Park, Fort Minor, HIM, Avenged Sevenfold, Disturbed, KoRn, Slayer, Mushroomhead, Taproot, Kittie, TOOL, A Perfect Circle, From Autumn to Ashes, DevilDriver, AFI, Tiger Army, Atreyu, Coal Chamber, KillSwith Engage, SlipKnot, Orgy.

Fave Albums I need if I was lost on an island -
1. Vol. 3. Subliminal Verses - Slipknot - I'd rather die than loose this CD.
2. Digipak/Slipknot Seltitled - Slipknot - Awesome CD.
3. Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park - will never get tired of this album, is never boring, CANT LIVE WITHOUT IT! It is like a survival kit for me. lol
4. Giving the Devil his Due - Coal Chamber - sooo groovy
5. God Hates Us All - Slayer
6. The Sickness - Disturbed
7. Believe - Disturbed.

Songs to play for my Wedding:
Joy and Sorrow - HIM
I Love You - HIM
With You - Linkin Park

Songs to play for my funeral:
Funeral of Hearts - HIM
Gone With the Sin - HIM
Helena - My Chemical Romance
Headstones and the Walking Dead - Coal Chamber.

I hanged out backstage with Avenged Sevenfold, The Bled, Trust Company, Still Naive, Gold Mind Squad. I 've been to concerts of Sev w/Wayne Static of Static-X, Disturbed, KoRn, Blink-182, No Doubt, Tiger Army, Story of the Year, The Erks, The Casualties. The Bouncing Souls.

Movies:

Dracula 2000
An Interview with a Vampire
The Notebook - I cried like shit watching this movie. This is the most sadest movie ever.
Tim Burton's Nightmare Before Christmas

Heroes:

You know who my fav person is. Lol. It's the devil/Lucifer/Satan. So HAIL SATANI!!!! Lol.
Mycat Shadows and sis's kitten Chester
Corey Taylor - Corey is the Virus of my life. He comes with all the voices from Slipknot screaming vocals to Stone Sour melodic vocals packaged into one bullet.
Mike Shinoda - fav emcee who has more Points of Authority than other losers out there.
Ville Valo - His Infernal Majesty helps me serve the Dark Light
Bam Magera - ViVa La BaM BaBy!
Dez Fafara - Coal is so much better than Korn is every way, but..... I am a KoRn addict either way.
Morgan Lander - I wish I had strong lungs like Morgan.

My Blog

Busted! Know at least I know who reads my myspace!!!! LOL. FUCK U LOOSER!!!

OOPS!! BUSTED THROUGH & THROUGH, ONE DAY WHEN I DISAPEAR THEY WON'T SEE MY FACE AGAIN!! LOL. Hahha. So I was napping since 3 or 4PM a'right and I woke up around 6PM, a'right, guess who the big bla...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 03:57:00 PST

Would you ever give up on your dream/true love? I wouldn't.......

I AM SOOOOO FUCKING EXCITED!!! Guess who I just bumped into! Miriam. MY FUCKING HEART LEAPED OUT OF MY FUCKING CHEST AND I THOUGHT, GOD MIRIAM IS GOING TO TELL MY FUCKING PARENTS ABOUT MY MISCHEIF! LO...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 04:11:00 PST

I feel sick to my stomach, so alone in the house, SO ALONE IN MY FUCKING HEAD!!!!!

Gosh, I feel sick to my fucking stomach. Ehhrr. It's definitely not from the cut, I know. It's cos once again, I am sooooo fucking alone in my fucking house (Mindy left with John. THAT FUCKING BITCH!!...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 11:17:00 PST

FUCK MYSPACE! IT DIDN'T LOAD MY FUCKING VIDEO

FUCK MYSPACE!!! It says it failed to process my fucking video. I wonder if they are viewed by Tom to see if it's not offensive and then approved to be posted. I hope not!!!!! I hope they fix the fucki...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 08:24:00 PST

KNIFE PARTY! COME & GET YOUR KNIFE!!! OH MY GOD! I DID IT! AGAIN! THE PLEASURES ALL MINE!!

Fuck you looser if you think I just had sex. Lol. I didn't. I have a sick obsession and I've confessed it plenty times in most of my blog posts. It's not sick cos a lot of people I know have done it ...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 08:03:00 PST

My Fucking Parents Makes Me Nauseous.

Lol. I just shared a secret with Miriam. lol. hahhhahahaha. No, I'm not drunk, I'm sedated from the pain and the endormorpines in my cut which makes me feel good. Yesterday, I replied to Miriam's mess...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 09:47:00 PST

So what do you blog about?

So hmmmm, where does life take me from here? Do I have to plan it or take it as it comes? Huh? OH GOD, WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I DONE? I AM GONNA FUCKING DIE OR I'LL HAVE TO JUMP OVER A FUCKING BRIDGE!!!!!...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:33:00 PST

Charlestown Slots Baby!!!! Luck on our side..............

Guess what, my brother and I went for the 1st time in out lives to a Casino, Charlestown with my sister and her boyfriend. My bro lost $40. Then he put in another $20 and won $100. Then he went c...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 01:43:00 PST

Can you chat with the same person for over 3 hours.........

There is this one girl in group therapy, Erin and she's 31 and we have been chatting with each other on Windows Messenger on Saturday for over freaking 3 hours , MY GOS I'VE NEVER CHATTED WITH AN...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 01:46:00 PST

Chester's in love with Chamara

hahhahha. Chester is in love with Chamara. Last night, Chester wanted to come into my 'rents bedroom, but my 'rents always close the bedroom and doesn't let the cats in the room when they are sleeping...
Posted by Sigilum Diaboli -~F_ck Me & I'll Screw U on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 09:28:00 PST