Im 37 (2005), 5'10" blue eyes, brn hair, athletic build and stocky. I get along with pretty much everybody because I enjoy people. I am funny, serious, driven, passionate, intense, agressive, friendly, lovable, and balanced with being an idealist and realist, loyal to all who know me and committed. I am an only child, no brothers or sisters. California has always been my home. I live in San Diego California with my partner of 8 years, his name is Jason and we have 3 cats (Natalie 10, Ashley 10 and Silver 7). I have done many things in life that I am proud of and have found that all of these experiences have greatly contributed to bring me to where I am today.
Marine Corps: In 1987 I went into the Marine Corps to provide myself direction since I did not want to go to college at the time. The world seemed to be a big place when I was 18. Becoming a Marine helped me to see the world in so many different ways and helped me to mature and find my center through 4 years of discipline. And yes you have to learn how to smile again! :) It helped to provide me a sense of self and independence as well as confidence. The military thought it would be a good idea if I was in law enforcement since I was so great with a rifle...go figure!, so thats what I did. After about year, I had an awakening that I was holding myself back and really gave it my all. Doing that really provided me so much insight into how I was living my life and the choices I was making for myself. I realized that I could do anything I wanted and have anything I wanted as long as I took the steps to get there and did the work. Desert Storm from my eyes was so fascinating to be there, very surreal and scary at the same time. Yes Marines do have fear in those situations, who wouldn't, but we are trained well and very disciplined and hopefully that keeps you alive. I enjoyed my time in the service but as far as staying in, that was not for me. At the time my step-father was sick with lung cancer and my mom was at her wits end. I thought I could find much better opportunities being a civilian, having more freedom and it was more important to me to be there with my mom to support her. Maybe I will write more about my experiences in my blog, so stay tuned...
How I see myself: I have always been a dreamer in the sense that I enjoy the wonderment of life, believing that anything is possible. Growing up was difficult for me at time because I had to balance the outside world with my internal world by being more grounded in who I am as a person. Discovering who I am has been a process of unfolding for me as Im sure it is for most, at times I have struggled both internally and externally to find the balance in what my life is about and what I want for myself. Being an only child was sometimes difficult for me to be alone, but I made many friends that helped me to relate to people and the world which I think is extremely important for development. I remember seeing so many people suffer in the world and around me and that always made me curious about our nature and why and how people do what they do.
Which Disney Character is my Alter Ego?
.. You scored as Peter Pan. Your alter ego is Peter Pan. You are a child at heart. Anything you believe is possible, and you never want to grow up.
Peter Pan
88%
Goofy
81%
The Beast
69%
Sleeping Beauty
69%
Donald Duck
50%
Cinderella
50%
Pinocchio
50%
Snow White
44%
Cruella De Ville
44%
Ariel
25%
Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
From the looks of the results, I am pretty well rounded...What do you think?
Sexuality: This section I am separating because I feel that it does not make me who I am but contributes to it, lets say I have learned to embrace it so I made it a subsection.
Being gay was something that I knew since the age of 5, not so clearly but I knew that I was different. I was brought up in a christian school and that was difficult in the sense that "this is the way to live and that is the way to be" and if your not that way, then what 'Are you cast down into the fiery depths with guilt and persecution?' NO! Had enough of that. Most of the people that I knew that lived under these "rules" were not happy people, they were constantly worried about breaking the rules. I dont believe GOD, or whatever term or symbol a person uses for the pervasive energy that lives in and expresses Itself in everything and keeps everything evolving, judges Its creation, that to me would be judging Itself for what It had made.
Anyway.....I came out when I was 23 yrs old but I felt that it was a necessary step because how could I be ok with me unless I was living in action of being ok with me...make sense?! It doesnt mean that I didnt struggle with it but I accepted that I had to learn about myself in order to be who I was. The military was challenging in this way, I could not express that part of my life, although I did "once" :) while in the military. Can you imagine what that is like for a person, it was difficult let me tell you. Socialization does not do much for helping people accept themselves unless you have very open and loving parents and supportive environment, my mom was challenged with it, but that was her beliefs and who she was at the time. She is very open and loving to both Jason and I and we have a great relationship in my opinion. I never related to the "gay community" so much, I did not think that was a fair assessment of who I was or am for that matter. I dont think that gay people or the "community" get much fair publicity. I think that there is alot of confrontation in the community to be honest, and this in my opinion just comes from our own lack of self acceptance...that will only change with time and effort. The other thing is that I have seen many of the sites that people go to for dating and so on say that they dont "do the gay scene", I guess that means bars and gay districts. I dont much either but I guess that depends on your lifestyle and environment that you live in. I dont like much of what is out there in terms of gay bars...although I love to dance but find it challenging to find decent upscale places that dont close down with a year or two. As far as gay marriage is concerned, I think its stupid that it is even questioned...I guess someone feels threatened by it, but I am sure there are many reasons why it needs to be considered fully by those with the authority because it will affect so many things for everyone. I also think people should really consider their choice to get married even when it is legal. It is certainly not a snap decision at least to me. To conclude for now I just say "Be", whatever that means and is for you or me...
How others see me:Hmmmm!
This would mainly be projection since all I can really say is what people have told me. You know I guess that is really none of my business....They see what they see......I guess if you read my space they will speak for themselves.
My Personality - Here is more about me!
Your ..1 Match: INFJ
The ProtectorYou live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity. Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is. You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience. You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.
Your ..2 Match: INFP
The IdealistYou are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world. Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships. It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close. But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
Your ..3 Match: INTJ
The ScientistYou have a head for ideas - and you are good at improving systems. Logical and strategic, you prefer for everything in your life to be organized. You tend to be a bit skeptical. You're both critical of yourself and of others. Independent and stubborn, you tend to only befriend those who are a lot like you.You would make an excellent scientist, engineer, or programmer.
Your ..4 Match: ISFJ
The NurturerYou have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.
Your ..5 Match: ENFJ
The GiverYou strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist. What's Your Personality Type?