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About Me

I assume that this world is not great, nor perfect, and that it hurts knowing. But knowing that does not dismiss hating exploitation enough to stop using others, as I have done. I don't believe absolute good and evil must coexist. Evil is not of the source, but what I aspire towards makes an imaginary leap with bruised feet. I was once told, to fall and forget.Yet, falling is as much as a move into taking flight. And then we come back to a long road filled with bittersweet tears on the way: warm tears under cool and sweet rains make the fall something more.Someday, I yearn when we will all see each other as fellow travelers: where differences and/or inequalities are no longer constrictive to life, here and now. I hope for a community of benefactors who freely give and have learned through pain not to add to the suffering. I hope for a life with others that does not take our environment for granted. From this hope, I move for more and await the life to come, someday, but I will not miss out on life here either.Doubt and hope are the tethers that keep me searching and I feel my spirituality is defined by saying, "I believe. Help me with my unbelief" (Mk 9:24). I often wonder if this is saying more than deliverance or a relief from dying. I do want to care, but not just for a god- a personal release from the troubling realities of the world. I have my imagination for that, but I will believe anything that let's me live a fuller life and create. I seek genuine healing and just maybe, this signifies our hopes: more is in store.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

I would like to meet anyone casually and especially those who aspire towards true friendship. By THAT, I mean someone who views a friendship as persons who each see life through the other's eye.I seek hippies, artisans, activists...but you call it. If you love others and love the planet enough to do anything, you're loved. But consider this:"Does love mean, 'Freely chosen. Freely given?"I am the type of person who gives more than I know better and acquaintances just don't do that.

My Blog

Midwest: mucus

.. .... .. @page { size: 8.5in 11in; margin: 0.79in } P { margin-bottom: 0.08in } --> Pro: It is presumed that the reader maynot know that I have found milk and cheese, dairy of all types, to beth...
Posted by on Mon, 16 Feb 2009 18:26:00 GMT

Running [in] a way...

I got to get my ass up. Stop sleeping. Stop stopping. Stop. -----Running: run. it is the the cure. Gone for a stretch now I can't stretch far enough. The pain is there. But I really just Stop...
Posted by on Mon, 26 Jan 2009 15:21:00 GMT

Mid-West [Crossed]: Tales tell of dragons lost tails

Days, gossamer and steady, lead to tests - who and what matters. I just wish these exhibitions, unofficial and lacking in honors, had something more notable than a smudge. Sometimes, life appears ...
Posted by on Sat, 24 Jan 2009 19:16:00 GMT

Random farting on paper...

.. .... .. It is a stalled acknowledgment that you are the bastard you think others take you for, and so what if you were born our of wedlock!!!It's a cold rush when ice cold spring water hits t...
Posted by on Thu, 22 Jan 2009 19:18:00 GMT

MidWest Crisis Prologue/teasers:

PROLOGUE:I just want to be drunk and out of it long enough for that giant alongside me, also known as the world, to come to. But will it ever and what if I come first? Only time will tell.Time's fleet...
Posted by on Fri, 28 Nov 2008 11:08:00 GMT

Prior

"Life is a series of opportunities to readjust your priorities." -tu madre maravillosaI often read others' thoughts. Snippets of breath, palms of print, and patterns, that big "X," found between the ...
Posted by on Sun, 23 Nov 2008 14:49:00 GMT

AUSL

11/1/2008 (lost note): In the past few weeks, the weight of knowing futures- the density of being who I will be v. who I am - hangs over my head like a scaling, black veil. Purdah and Purgatory settl...
Posted by on Sun, 09 Nov 2008 16:03:00 GMT

A season in...?

The program is a really bust at times. I learn how to be more Western, essentialist, and proud of my factories. Fuck that. The one great feature of Western thought, not Western expansion, is the ti...
Posted by on Wed, 17 Sep 2008 20:07:00 GMT

Roky devil

Truly a mind fuck. I saw all the young dude. Scene. That crew drank it all in. but what kind of fucking place has a no-reentry policy? 4 hours with alcohol and no vice burning hurts so. Now, i...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Sep 2008 12:45:00 GMT

Anomaly

I've decided to make the steps after all. Fuck. Not what I thought. The only one I will mention in detail to is JC. Provided he doesn't blab. Shame, discord, more doubts. I don't really know what...
Posted by on Mon, 01 Sep 2008 03:39:00 GMT