first, it thought it'd be enough to be grateful for my fortunes as others are always less fortunate than i somewhere. but i think now that not only does luck have nothing to do with it, but that so long i want to, i can find gratitude in situations that are seemingly unfortunate. it is no longer enough just to be thankful, as everything can always be worse. it is appreciating sadness and misery for whatever it is worth that i am after. it's not pessimistic, nor realistic. it's not even taking the good with the bad. i want to come to a point where i understand that i don't need to or want to feel a lot of varieties of feelings, but that i have to. and that is okay. it's great. i'm okay with not being happy ALL the time because it makes me feel like i'm living. that's pretty human and extraordinary too.
a man who knows the smell of burning ants
try and keep up with me, now.
Closer, Lars and the Real Girl, Rennt Lola, Persepolis, Cinema Paradiso, Momentum, West Side Story, Garden State, Cidade Do Deus, Tumbleweeds, Sex Lies and Videotape, American History X, Philadelphia, Fight Club, Divorzio Al'Italiano, The Last Picture Show, .....
no!
gimme a minute. i just resurfaced from half a decade of textbooks.
My beautiful doggy Mimosa. Because she loves me unconditionally, is always happy to be with me, is endlessly forgiving and forever grateful of everything I do. Because people can't do that, no matter how hard we try.